Chapter 21 Sadness

CHAPTER 21 Sadness

WHEN WE FINISHED eating, we went to the beach and lit a bonfire. It was nice to feel the heat coming from the fire due to the cold wind blowing. We sat around there while Jeremy and Santino came out with wine and some snacks.

“You have beautiful skin,” Julia whispered, then pressed her brown arm to me.

“You too, I really envy brunettes. I prefer to get tan just so I can achieve that color,” I said with a smile on my lips.

“I guess that’s how it really is. You still won’t be able to get it if you don't have anything else,” she whispered painfully before turning to Jeremy.

Without hesitation, I raised my hand to caress his back. She looked so surprised when she turned her gaze at me.

“Girls instinct,” I said after smiling at her.

“Are you going to drink?” Santino asked me.

“No, she can’t drink,” Peter answered so I could do nothing but shook my head so as not to have a long conversation.

So, in the end, Santino just offered me a coke in a can. The night deepened at the same time they were drunk.

William and Allysa are already dancing in the middle because the live band from the nearby resto-bar could be heard from here.

“Oh, here’s Lawrence and Elliesse!” said Jocko before standing up to greet the two who came.

I glanced at them. As Lawrence neared us, I saw Elliesse still clinging to Lawrence. I instantly raised an eyebrow at them, as did the eye-catching questions I had given to Lawrence.

“How are you, bro?” Jocko shook hands with him, then turned to face Elliesse and kissed her on the cheek.

“It looks like you’re enjoying it,” he said in a baritone voice, his eyes flying at me now that Peter is next to him.

“Come on, join us!” Jocko invited them, which they immediately accepted. They chose to sit in front of us, where I finally had Lawrence’s dark stare at me.

I let out a loud gasp before I lost the ability to gaze down. I can feel my heart beating fast. Add more questions as to why he and Elliesse are together now.

“Are you okay?” Peter asked me in a concerned manner. I turned to look at him before nodding. He tilted his head and asked me again. “Are you sure?”

I glanced at Lawrence, who was still staring at me. “Yeah, I’m okay,” I answered forcefully before lowering my gaze to the coke bottle in front of me.

“So, who wants to play a game?!” Santino interrupted while holding the empty bottle in his right hand.

“We are in!” the girls answered. I just silently stared at them and sometimes smiled.

“Okay. Let’s play truth or dare!” he said to everyone and quickly turned the empty wine bottle around.

At first, he confronted William, and he immediately asked him. “What’s the real score between you and Ally?” he asked curiously, at the same time the two were tempted.

“Can I accept the dare?” William replied, but Allysa suddenly punched him, so everyone laughed.

“All right, William!” Allysa fires him a killing look.

“We’re in a relationship,” William admitted while scratching his head. Allysa immediately hugged him and quickly kissed him on the lips and was surprised.

Santino turned the bottle again and immediately confronted Jocko.

“Truth or dare?” Santino asked.

“Dare, of course!” Before laughing out loud.

“Okay, soak in the sea for 15 mins,” Samantha commands seriously to him.

“Hey, the water is cold!” he insists.

“If you don’t want to, then choose truth instead!” Samantha raised an eyebrow at him.

“All right, no problem!” he proudly said before he stretches his neck.

“Who is your ultimate crush?” Samantha repeatedly spoke. She stared at Jocko and waited for the answer.

Everyone is waiting. But Jocko suddenly stood up and ran to the quiet sea to do the dare. My jaw dropped in surprise. Almost everyone did not expect Jocko to do that.

When he returned, he was shivering. Jeremy immediately handed him a towel. Samantha just stared at the wet Jocko and stared at him.

“Okay, I’ll spin again!” Santino said. The bottle quickly spun as he confronted the quiet Lawrence. My back was straightened when I sat down because he immediately looked up at me.

“Truth,” he instantly said and defensively crossed his two arms against his chest.

“Are you and Elliesse have a relationship?” Peter asked him a question. I saw the tightness of his jaw as Elliesse clung to his arm.

Silence lingered for a moment. He seemed to estimate what to answer. I noticed Elliesse whispering to him, so his perfect jaw tightened.

“Yes,” he replied.

I slowly looked down at the soft drink I was holding. So they are really back together? And how about me? Will that be ignored? Great, I fucking give them a slow clap at the back of my head.

The girls seemed to tremble and asked for a kiss. Peter must have noticed my stiffness next to him, so he held my cold hand tightly.

I saw how Lawrence looked down there, and he looked up at me with his dark, steady gaze.

“Kiss!” Samantha and Julia screamed.

I took a deep breath as Elliesse pulled his cheek to give him a warm kiss. I could feel my heart being torn apart. I could not deny I am not hurt.

I averted my eyes after not saying anything but took the glass of alcohol and drank it straight. I noticed Jocko glancing at me, who was now able to change clothes and wipe his wet hair.

When that kiss was over, everyone applauded except Peter and Jocko, who were now sitting quietly.

I saw the smile on Elliesse’s lips as she glanced at me. I ignored what she did, but I poured a wine into the glass before sipping it.

“Don’t drink too much, Margaux,” Peter stopped me, but I didn’t seem to hear anything. I lifted the glass many times before drinking it straight. I also didn’t pay attention to how some of my actions seemed. I rotated a couple more times after that before becoming dizzy.

My throat and stomach felt constricted when I clenched my eyes firmly, yet there was nothing more agonizing than my heart at this moment.

“Okay, I’ll spin the bottle again?” Santino asked everyone, but no one answered. I smiled at him and bravely snatched the bottle.

“I will spin the bottle,” I said in a hushed voice.

The bottle spun again. And I’m hoping it will make contact with Lawrence once again because I want an answer. I need answers to the question of why he’s causing me so much pain.

And fate played with me when the bottle hit Lawrence again.

I bit my bottom lip as I looked at him straight to the eye.

“Truth,” he said directly.

I felt buried in my chair and couldn’t talk right away. My words are stuck in my throat so badly that I can’t even ask him a question.

I’d want to know whether you and Elliesse are actually dating. How did this happen? And how about me? There are plenty of unanswered questions in my mind.

It was Jocko who broke the silence.

“All right, I’ll just ask Lawrence,” he sipped on the glass and gave me a look.

“No, let her ask, Jocko,” Lawrence said calmly.