141 I was your best choice

Song Yan rolled her eyes but she too sensed that it wasn't the right place or time to act up, so she silently got inside and sat in the passenger's seat, a second later Fu Yu Sheng got inside and strapped his seatbelt before gunning the engine.

The two of them were silent for a few minutes until he pulled out of the driving lot before Song Yan turned to him and said somewhat forcefully, " You saw Chen Chen's reaction right? He doesn't want to be the young master of the Fu family anymore, so why don't you let us go? I mean it's not too late, you can still get married and have another kid and from what I can see you don't have the patience or the time to win me or Chen Chen back either."

Fu Yu Sheng clutched the steering wheel tightly in his hands before he took a deep breath and then gritted out. " I have told you already I am not going to divorce you, we had problems yes, I made mistakes, also yes… but I am willing to make up for the time that we have lost, if you want I will even get on my knees if you want…but breaking up my family when I am prepared to attempt to save it, I don't see the point."

Song Yan looked away and then muttered somewhat resentfully. " And I don't see the point in trying to save it, you have been gone for eight years!"

Eight years!Eight years! Damn it, he was tired of listening to the same thing again and again. He grounded his teeth and harshly clutched the steering wheel and turned to look at her as he snapped, " Whose fault do you think it was that I had to stay away from you guys for eight years?"

However, a second later awkwardness flashed in his eyes as he looked away. Song Yan's eyes narrowed as she took in his evasive actions. " Whose fault was it?"

He didn't answer as he kept looking ahead, and Song Yan repeated. " Whose fault was it?"

" We will talk at home," was all he said which basically means that he will escape the second he found the chance, frustrated with his attitude. Song Yan stretched her hands and swerved the steering wheel causing Fu Yu Sheng to press on the breaks immediately. " What's the matter with you?" As they dodged a car that was hurtling in their direction, Fu Yu Sheng snapped at her.

"Have you lost your freaking mind," he said looking at her like he couldn't believe the reckless act she had just done. " You got to be——" rest of his words were cut off when the walkie-talkie beeped and he picked it up before he answered, " No, I am alright. Yes, it was a mistake on my part. No, you don't have to come up and check anything, we are fine."

Once he was done getting his overprotective bodyguards off his back, he turned to look at Song Yan again but this time much calmer than before. " Why did you do that?"

" Because you would have avoided answering my question if I didn't do it." Song Yan flicked her hair behind her shoulders. " I don't want you dodging my questions again."

"I never avoided your questions," retorted Fu Yu Sheng to which Song Yan snorted.

" Oh yes, you have in fact you have avoided my questions every time you did not want to answer me, you were doing it right now as well," she said as she took off her seatbelt and turned to face Fu Yu Sheng with an air of determination. " And now you better tell me what is it that caused you to leave so abruptly and whose fault was it? No, I mean you should tell me it right now, because I am tired of hearing that you had a reason and what not, I mean you could have——"

" Your father," said Fu Yu Sheng taking off his glasses as he placed them on the dashboard and looked at her with a twisted grin and tipped her gaping mouth that she didn't even know was open. " What you don't believe it?"

Song Yan really did not believe what he said but then she thought about how her father changed over the years and she couldn't bring herself to defend that man and she knew that Fu Yu Sheng will never lie, either he will hide the truth or tell it straightforwardly.

She opened her mouth and closed it but she couldn't bring herself to say anything after a long time, she turned in her seat as all the hot air in her body left her and all she could think about was how was she supposed to say anything to Fu Yu Sheng when the person who ruined her marriage for her was her own father?

She looked down at her hands that were sitting on her lap and while she was doing this, Fu Yu Sheng didn't say anything. He simply gunned the engine and once again started driving the car.

" It does not change anything," said Song Yan after a long time. " Those years you have lost they can't be brought back, I don't see why to fight for a marriage that has no love left in it."

At her words, Fu Yu Sheng laughed.

Stunned, she looked at him. " What are you laughing at? I didn't say anything funny."

"Oh you did, you just said that no love is left in our marriage," Fu Yu Sheng coldly hummed as he put on the glasses and then tilted his head slightly towards her. " We never had any love between us, Yan'er. This marriage was and has been built on nothing but mutual interests. Tell me how will there be love when we didn't even love each other in the beginning."

Song Yan sucked in a breath, though she knew that he only treated her as a responsibility, but it was still hurtful after listening to him say it. " I know that you never loved me but I——"

"It wasn't just me, Yan'er." Fu Yu Sheng as he pulled into the driveway of the apartment building and looked at her with a sneer. " I am your best choice, aren't I? That's what you said to me when I asked you why you wanted to marry me, didn't you? As your best choice, didn't I do a good job?" Then before she could any thing, he opened his door and walked out.