I love you...

She is shocked that even with her eyes wide open, he had not noticed her.

Amanda looked at his teary eye, and then touched his arm, that made him look her way immediately, he hated to get her worried, so he immediately wiped them.

His heart is too heavy with hurt, that he just could not help but cry, but now he feels bad, for he had awaken her, and she was staring at him, with mixed feelings, yet he could never tell her why he is sad.

This time, he needs to put more effort in his lying practice. He tried to look different, but he was caught, he didn't know that she had been staring at him for a while, and knows that he is sad, it was too late to try and fake whatever smile was curling around his mouth area, she looked at him, and knew something was wrong, she also knew that what ever would bring tears to his eyes, had to do with her, she sat up in the bed with difficulty because of her growing stomach and waited for him to talk.

"Why are you awake, you should be sleeping"

He said clearing his voice, and trying as much as possible to sound neutral, but Amanda wasn't ready, she wanted the truth, she had noticed that he had been distant since she was rushed to the hospital, she wished he could just stop blaming himself for everything, she was okay and nothing was his fault, she didn't want him to bottle it up inside, she wanted him to talk to her, she wanted to hear from him so she continued to stare at him without blinking.

Goodluck knew he had to think of a way out now, there was no way he was ready to tell her that the mystery had been solved, there was no way he was willing to watch her suffer another round of trauma, it was on days like this that he needed his friend around but he was also battling with his own, he wondered if he was ever going to enjoy his life with Amanda, but one look at her told him that she was his, and he resolved to protect her from everything that would hurt her.

"Why are you crying?

She managed to ask as she was sure, Goodluck would not talk easily.

Goodluck thought of what to say to make her relax, he had to think of something that would sound reasonable else, the Amanda he knows would never, let it go.

"Crying, no I was not crying, did you see me crying? She rolled her eyes as she watch him stutter. This is actually the first time he is having issues talking, he never stutters, he is a smooth talker, but she is going to break his smoulder, just as she has already.

"Don't play that truck with me!. She warned him sternly.

It felt like she is his mother or older sus, with the way she stared at him, she wanted nothing but the answer she seems.

"I am sorry if I got you worried, it's just that, I hate seeing you so vulnerable" He picked the best line, not like it was entirely a lie, he actually hates seeing her so vulnerable.

Though that wasn't the reason he was crying but his answer wasn't a lie at all, he actually hate to see her so vulnerable and to worsen the issue, he was only able to watch and not do anything about it, once again he was blaming himself, if only he had stayed back with her, he would have been her husband from the first day and she wouldn't have had to suffer in anybody's hands.

I still cannot shake the fear, that I felt earlier today, I keep getting weird images in my head, I try to shake them off, but they keep coming and scaring the shit out of me". He added.

Amanda immediately believed him, she knew things like that could bother him, she rembered when she had faked that labor, the horrible look he had on, was evident of how scared he would be if anything ever happened to her.

"I am sorry, but I thought the doctor already told you, it was normal for me to black out every once in a while, especially if I am stressed, please do not take it to heart, and stop acting like I am a baby that should be watched all the time". He smiled wearily at her, thanking his stars that he did not have to tell her what he just learnt, but he definitely needs to speak with Maxwell.

Amanda is hoping he would just give up on it already, she really does not like the look on his face, he didn't want anything to put a strain on his handsome face.

She pulled him close and kissed his side, as she is too weak to get up, she sat lazilly on the bed.

"You know, tears is not for cute guys like you, they are meants for ugly people, like those that plot against me, they are ugly people, if they have a beautiful soul, like yours, their future will also be cute, but they are all ugly, and they are the ones, that will cry"

Goodluck hates the fact that he just deceived her, but he loves the fact that she was working really hard to make him feel better.

"Please go back to bed, you should be resting, the doctor was clear on that instruction". He tries to dismiss her, then she covered her mouth with her palm, trying to smell her mouth.

"Is my mouth smelling? She asked him, and he looked at her shocked.

"What? He questioned, not sure what she is asking.

"You asked me to go back to bed after I kissed your cheek, I think my mouth stinks". Now she got him, he got up from the bed, came to her side, and kissed her, till she begged him to stop, that she could not breathe.

"I love you". She told him, and then kissed him again, not waiting for his reply, he covered her, as he gently pushed her back to the bed, removing a strang of hair from her lip, he placed a long lasting kid on her cheek, then looking at her he says.

"I love you more than life".

If only she knew why he was crying, no amount of encouraging words could soothe the pain in his heart, he didn't even want to imagine how many times that bastard must have slept with her before he left, and to think he released his criminal seed in her only made his heart boil, he couldn't wait to get rid of him, he had to do it, if he doesn't he would never be able to sleep