His hearts were too heavy for words
While in the car, Goodluck kept looking at her, it was as though he would loose her, if he looked away.
"She will be fine".
He heard Maxwell's voice.
He is supposed to be sitting in front, how then did he see him looking at her, he looked away immediately.
"She wouldn't have hurt herself if only I did not ignore her".
He blames himself, but before Maxwell would answer him, Douglas who was driving spoke up in a sober tone.
"I blame myself, I was supposed to be watching her, but I lost guard and I am so sorry".
Goodluck watch him and their eyes met, and like before, Goodluck looked away.
Please forgive me!
He begged, Maxwell looked back at him, and saw that he was just looking at Amanda again.
"Won't you even say anything?
Maxwell asked.
Goodluck eyed him, before speaking up.
"You are right Douglas, I should blame you.
I mean how did she leave my house and you did not even notice it?
He asked, looking very angry.
it was more like the apology brought the anger out of him.
Douglas didn't say anything more, he just focused on the road till they got home.
As soon as he drove into the compound, he urged him to stop the car, he didn't have the patience to wait for him to drive into the lot.
Maxwell wanted to help get Amanda out from the back seat, but Goodluck stopped him with his hands raised.
"Don't worry, I can handle this!
Maxwell was shocked, because it felt like he is angry with everyone.
He opened his arm to show just how shocked he is at his behaviour.
He watch him struggle to get Amanda out of the car, and then carried her on his shoulder, with his hands wrapped round her buttocks.
"Is he supposed to carry a wounded person like that?
Maxwell asked Douglas, who was still feeling guilty and acting like the world is against him.
When he did not reply, Maxwell turned to face him.
"You don't have to beat yourself up, my sister can be very stubborn, but you know, you have to be a bit more careful next time.
You can play with his father, but not with the woman he just walked away with, he can actually kill anyone for her".
Douglas smiles, then nodded.
"I know that much, but I am still wondering, how she left unnoticed, I was watching her, and when I left, she was in the room with your mother, I didn't think she would leave her daughter.
Plus she and Goodluck have not been on talking terms so I felt, she would stay put, but I guess like you said, she can be very stubborn".
He concluded sadly, but then he looked up at the building, his eyes went straight to the window, where he could see him, moving around.
Now, he is so angry with me;
Maxwell tapped him on the shoulder, trying to console him.
"He is not angry with you, he is angry with himself, for not talking with her.
He feels like she left to see Dave because she needed someone to talk to, so don't blame yourself too much.
I need to go inside and check on them".
He said and left him to his unchanged mood.
Opening the door, the first person he found Is his mother.
She looks happy that Amanda Is back, she had Baby Star behind her tied up with a wrapper against her chest.
"I need to get your sister some hot soup, I will nurse her wound before Mr Stone gets here".
"I am glad she is back, you can give me the baby".
He offered to carry her, but Goodluck's voice stopped them.
"I will take her!
He carried Baby Star from her and without looking at his friend, he took the baby away.
"What the hell!
Max exclaimed.
His mother smiles at him, and stopped him from going after him, by placing her hand on his chest.
"When a man is inlove, he behaves like a baby, so don't blame him, he is crazily inlove.
If I tell you, he blames me for allowing her leave, would you believe?
But I am not angry, I just feel you should understand better".
Maxwell nodded his head in agreement with what she said, then he slowly started moving towards their room.
when he got there, he paused, for he could hear him speaking.
Star was placed closes to Amanda, and unconsciously, she grabs her child, brings out her breast and the baby started sucking on it.
Maxwell was peeking through the opening on the door.
He could not stand outside anymore, so he gently opened the door.
Goodluck was just watching how hungry Star was sucking, as if she have never eaten anything since her mother left.
"I am sorry, about how I have been acting".
Goodluck apologized before Maxwell would say what he had in mind.
Though he had been angry with him, but hearing him speak in such apologetic tone, he could not remain angry with him.
"I am not angry with you, as a matter of fact, I understand, but just don't transfer aggression on everyone.
It is not your fault, neither is it mine or Douglass fault".
Goodluck stared at him and then asked.
"Then whose fault is it, if you are exonerating Douglas, that is supposed to be watching her.
That is why he is paid".
"Yes, but he is also a human.
He has needs, he might have had an urgent need that took his eye away from Amanda".
"Don't make excuses for him.
Amanda's safety is the most important, he knows that".
"Her safety is the most important for you, but I don't think it Is for him".
Maxwell shook his head, as to say no, because his last statement, didn't come out as planned, so he tried to correct it.
"What I mean is that….
Goodluck cut him short, by raising his hand high for him to see.
"Yes, I know what you mean, you don't have to explain further".
He says, and went back to massaging Amanda, who was holding the baby.
Soon her mother walked in with a bowl and a towel in hand, she wants to clean her up.
Though Goodluck would have loved to do it, he decided not to stop her, so she doesn't feel bad.
It's bad enough that she has been blamed for letting her out of the house, preventing her from cleaning her up, would be more like he is trying to cut her off their life.
Goodluck excused himself and left the room, but he wasn't so far away, Incase Amanda wakes.
His heart was just too heavy for words.
