CHAPTER 16 (Part 1)

Talliah Eryn Castillego POV

AS OUR lips met with a hungry kiss. I can't stop my tears from falling. I should be happy that we're kissing right now but why does my heart hurt so bad.

Rainer gently caressed my jaw as we kissed. I cried even more when I thought that this was the last night. My chest tightens every time his lips touch mine.

I closed my eyes, I could still feel my tears falling. Rainer and I stopped kissing because he voluntarily let go. Even though I didn't open my eyes, I could feel that he was looking at me intently.

I don't want to open my eyes. Because maybe when I see his eyes and his face I might not be able to continue what I was planning.

Can I do it? That's the question that's kept on running in my system.

My heart wants to stay and be selfish. But my mind says the decision I made will be good for him.

Rainer's soft and calloused hands caressed my cheeks. The beating of my heart started to beat louder and louder. . . not because I'm happy, but because I'm hurting inside.

I don't want to be selfish if I'll just lose him in the end.

"Where does it hurt?" Rainer asked me in a soft voice. I didn't open my eyes. I shut them tightly and just listen to his voice.

Rainer lightly caressed both of my cheeks. Removes the tears that flowing when Rainer saw that my tears don't want to stop from falling, I felt him lean forward to me and seconds later I felt his soft lips kissing both of my eyelids.

Oh God! How can I stop falling for this man when he's this good.

Rainer cupped my cheeks and he softly kissed my forehead making my heart to tear apart. I will surely miss him.

He leaned forward making our forehead touched each other. I'm having trouble breathing because my chest is tightening.

"Please stop crying," Rainer whispered while caressing my cheeks.

"I don't know why you're crying right now. I really want to ask you what's the reason why you're hurting and crying. But I'm afraid you might not answer my question," he whispered softly. His breath fanning my face.

"I'll just wait for you to tell me why you're crying. If you don't want to tell me the reason, I can understand. I will always understand you.” I bit my lower lip to stop myself from breaking down in front of him.

I just listened to his soothing and calming voice. I will miss his voice so much. I'm just thinking that I won't be able to hear his voice for the next few days as if the pain is killing me.

"I'm ready to listen to you. I'm also ready to wait,"

I slowly hugged his waist and listened to him while my heart was breaking.

"Didn't I tell you that I'm not used to hurting other people. But I will gladly hurt someone for you. I don't want to see you crying in front of me. I felt like it's my fault why you cried even if I don't know the reason why are you crying."

I sniffed a bit while listening to him. Rainer softly caressed my hair. I shook my head while hugging him tightly. No, baby, don't think like that. It's not your fault. It's all me.

Because no matter what angle I look at it. I like this thing. I wanted to have a child. So I will never regret it. Never. I will love this angel inside me as much as I love Rainer.

"We can share the pain you're feeling right now. I am ready to accept the pain you feel. just please don't cry. I realized my weakness is when I see you cry."

Those words made me open my eyes and look directly into his brown orbs. He was staring at me with his pained face. I could clearly see the pain in his eyes as he stared at my face.

I wiped the tears from my eyes so I could look at him carefully. I gave him my so genuine smile as I cupped both of his cheeks. I stared at his face. This man will be successful someday. I claim it.

Even if I badly want to share my pain with him. I just can't. My heart swelled at his words. My baby realized that the crying Talliah Eryn is his weakness.

You heard that sweetie? Your father just admit that the crying Talliah Eryn is his weakness. I talked to the little angel inside my womb.

We will watch your father reach his dreams hmm... We will be his number one fan and supporter while he's busy chasing his dreams. We will be the first to rejoice when he achieves his dreams. We will be proud of him. 'Cause your father is the best.

I have accepted it. I will leave my medicine for now. But it doesn't mean that I let him go now that I won't look for him the next day. This little angel in my womb will be my temporary medicine.

Cure for all the pains to come. I sympathize with the daily trials of life. Until it's possible and everything will be okay. I will wait for Rainer to be ready because right now I want him to fly to the highest and fulfill all his dreams.

While me I will be watching him from now on reaching his dreams. I will wait until he is ready.

I'm used to waiting. As always.

"Baby," I called Rainer with my trembling lips.

He tightly held my left hand that was on his cheek. He looked at me with his soft expression.

"Hmm..." He hummed while caressing my hand.

My right hand left his cheek and pointed it in my chest where my heart is located. My lips trembled as I slowly opened them to speak.

"The pain is here, my heart is hurting so bad right now." I cried while pointing my heart.

Rainer bloodshot eyes looked at me. He looked hurt while staring at my crying face. Even though he doesn't know why I'm hurting, it's like he's hurting too.

He's hurting because I'm hurting too.

I took a deep breath and wiped the tears away from my eyes. Talliah you won't cry anymore okay? You will treasure this night together with your man. Be happy tonight while hurting.

I slowly let go of his cheek. Rainer looked at my every move. I smiled sweetly at him. My eyes are so fluffy because of so much crying. But I bet I'm still pretty too.

"Can you make me happy tonight hmm... can you do that for me baby?" I asked while looking directly at his brown orbs.

Rainer looked at him confused. His eyebrows met in the middle because of so much confusion. Please baby don't ask questions.

"Please baby.I'm just so sad right now," And I'm hurting inside too. I looked at him with a pleading face.

When Rainer slowly nodded his head. That is my cue to remove the dress from my body. He follows my every move. when the violet dress slowly falling down from my body Rainer started to gulp so hard.

My baby didn't even know what is running inside my chaos mind right now.

Next I removed my bra and just threw it on the floor. maybe Rainer thinks it will make me happy that's why he will do anything I asked for. But as the times ran it felt like I'm slowly at the end.

My healthy two bosses bounced after I threw my bra. I held the waistband of my panties and slowly pulled it down. i immediately throw it just like the bra.

Rainer eyes raked my body. That's right baby. Please memorize my whole body. Please memorize every inch of me. So that you will never forget me.

I felt the cold touching my skin as I slowly ate our spaces. I ran my finger over his jaw. He closed his eyes because of what I did. I smiled while looking at his gentle face. I will really really miss him.

He suddenly opened his eyes when I grabbed the hem of his dress and pulled it up over his head to remove it. when I succeeded I smiled at him. I looked at him in a teasing way so that I could mask up the feeling of hurting.

Rainer's mouth parted as I slowly kneeled in front of him. I didn't waste time I immediately pulled down his black shorts together with his boxers.

My eyes gleamed with so much desire when I saw how his member was so ready. His manhood proudly saluted at me. I lowly chuckle while slowly holding it in my hands. I heard Rainer groaned a bit. I looked up at him. I saw how red his neck and face were. he bit his lower lip to stop himself from groaning while looking at my eyes.

I saw how lust consumed him as he looked at me kneeling in front of him. I hope there's no other girl doing this except for me. I will definitely cut her throat if she will do this.

I touch the tip of his manhood. 'Hey buddy I will surely miss you' I said to his pet.

I immediately released it and slowly bent down. It's like I'm worshiping a God the way I am now.

"Mommy what are you doing?" Rainer asked confused. I raised my right hand to stop him from moving. He followed me.

When I was in front of his right foot, I quickly kissed it softly.

Rainer cursed a bit when he saw what I'm doing.

"Talliah what are you doing?!" He asked so shocked and confused why I am kissing his foot.

I ignored him and lifted the kiss even higher from his foot. I kissed his right leg and his thigh. I licked his V-line which made him breathe even more. His body tensed up while watching me kiss every inch of his body.

I then kissed his left foot up the leg and thigh. I licked her V-line again which made her shiver even more. I am like a woman who worships her God.

I softly caressed his ass while I was kissing his abs. I could hear Rainer's deep breathing. I promise to worship him as long as I live.

I stood up straight and kissed his jaw and neck. I kissed his Adams apple twenty one times before I kissed his chin. I smiled seeing her close her eyes as I kissed her. I love you so much Rainer.

When I kissed his lips softly he immediately opened his eyes while drunkenly looking at me. He's so handsome with his drunken eyes. I licked his lower lip and bit it softly.

His patience seemed to be cut short because he suddenly pulled my neck and kissed me hungrily. He quickly put his tongue in my mouth. I moaned when he sucked my tongue.

I encircled my arms around his neck and kissed him deeper. Rainer softly caressed my thighs. I moaned a bit when Rainer's fingers found my wet folds. I groaned when he rubbed my clit. I moved away from him a little and caught my breath.

I looked at him in awe. His smirk plastered on his face when he saw my flushed face looking at him.

"Ahhh..." I moaned when he softly pinched my clit. He laughed while looking at me.

How did he learn this thing. Damn I closed my eyes as his finger slowly entered my tunnel. Breathless, I looked at Rainer as he lifted my right leg and hung it on his waist. .

"Ohh.. Fuck that's right baby." I couldn't stop my moan as Rainer quickly buried his two fingers in my core.

"Is this delicious?" Rainer asked curiously as he quickly inserted his finger deep inside my core.

Even though my heart is heavy because I know what will happen after this night, I can't stop smiling because of his question. Rainer never fails to amaze the hell out of me.

I chuckled and pinched his cheeks.

"Too much." I only said while staring into his eyes. Rainer smiled because of my answer. As if this is the biggest achievement for him.

"You're happy now?" He asked again while watching the reaction on my face.

I immediately nodded my head and gave him a smile. I'm always happy in your arms baby.

I quickly hugged him tightly when I felt that I was about to leave.

"Faster baby. I'm so close." I whispered in his ears. He rushed in and out when he heard my whisper.

Rainer thrust his fingers deeper inside me. My body shook after his desperate thrust. I bit his shoulder because I felt so good. I felt my juices flow to my thighs. I was still catching my breath when I felt Rainer pull out his fingers from my core.

I couldn't believe it when I looked at him to see that he suddenly put his fingers full of my juice in his mouth. My mouth parted when I saw how he deliciously sucked and licked my juices in his fingers. He chuckled while looking at my shocked face.

"You're so sweet. So damn much." he chuckled while kissing my cheeks.

Damn he learned so many things huh.

"Why do you seem to be getting better in this field?" I asked him while suspiciously looking at him.

He touched his nape shyly and quickly looked away.

"Are you watching now?" I asked as his eyes widened. He quickly shook his head. I laughed looking at his face.

"Why do you seem to know so much hmm?" I still can't believe it.

He bit his lower lip feeling so shy now. He smiled timidly at me and softly caressed my cheeks.

"I've read some books about how to pleasure your partner when it comes to these things. I just thought because you said whenever you are sad or when you are hurt, you will pleasure yourself just to forget your problems and pain. I thought you don't have to make yourself happy just by yourself. I am here to fulfill your desires and needs."

"You can use me Talliah. You can use me and my body if it will make you happy. I don't mind." He said seriously while looking deeply at me.

It was like someone caressed my heart because of what he said. I couldn't believe he was saying the words I never thought he would say.

I didn't even think he would do anything for me. He's reading books to learn. He wants to learn because he wants to make me happy. Am I this lucky to deserve him?

How can this wonderful man be ready to offer himself to me.

I can only imagine that he will be hurt as if he is killing me. How can I be the reason why he gets hurt?

I quickly applied our lips. He responded to my kisses with all his heart.

I combed his hair while staring into his eyes.