4240 The Other Side 209

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Good heavens.

Frustration gripped Yun Shishi. What on earth had she done? How old was Youyou? Why did he have to go through such cruelty?

"It's all my fault!" She buried her face in her hands, looking grief-stricken. "At the time, I should never have kept him with me for my own selfish reasons. I obviously was in no condition to give him a wonderful childhood. I should never have taken him back. It was all my selfishness and my fault!"

Alice's heart actually ached when she saw how distraught the other woman was. She had no children, but she could understand such feelings. She imagined that the Yun Shishi would have wanted to give him the best that the world had to offer. And yet the reality was… She did not have such ability!

Alice smiled helplessly. "Who says you haven't given him wonderful things?" she said faintly.

With tears in her eyes, Yun Shishi looked up at her in surprise.

Alice smiled. "Aren't you the best thing that ever happened to him?"

Yun Shishi was stunned. She opened her mouth in surprise, recovered, and brushed away her tears. Listening to the boy's sub-conscious conversation with Alice earlier on had been like a stab to the heart. However, after hearing what Alice said, she had mixed emotions.

"Don't give him what you think is good. And don't blindly blame yourself for everything. Life is irreversible. Nothing can ever be undone. Take it all in your stride."

"Alright, thank you." Yun Shishi added, "And to think I was wary of you earlier. I didn't expect you to be so much more mature than I thought."

"You are only worried and confused because you care too much." As she spoke, Alice flicked through the printout of the monitoring report and drew hard on her cigarette.

Yun Shishi looked at the intricate lines that criss crossed it and was confused. "What is this?" she looked up and asked suspiciously.

"It's the frequency of his sleep quality. This part shows data before he goes to sleep. And here, after he goes to sleep." Alice pointed at the paper and remarked, "You notice here that after he falls asleep, his brain waves become even more intense?"

"What does that say?"

"That says…" Alice frowned and said, "It means his quality of sleep is terrible."

"Quality of sleep is bad?"

"Uh huh." Alice said, "What we fear most in patients with multiple personalities is poor quality of sleep. If the quality of sleep is poor and the mental pressure is too strong, then the patient can easily fall apart. A person's willpower is often weak. Sometimes it can seem so strong you think it's indestructible, but often the more indestructible a person appears, the easier it is to crush them with a straw. Therefore, good quality sleep is critical to maintaining good mental strength. If a person doesn't sleep well, it becomes easy to slip into a state of anxiety."

Yun Shishi nodded. "It's no wonder I've been feeling recently that the boy's mental strength has been deteriorating. During the day, he seems depressed and preoccupied."

"The boy relies heavily on you."

"Uh huh."

"But such dependence might not be a good thing. Sooner or later, he'll have a family of his own. It wouldn't be a happy thing for him to rely on you all the time."

Yun Shishi nodded grimly. "I know that, too. I agree that he shouldn't be relying on me so much."