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She had already asked the doctor repeatedly to confirm that it was nothing serious. It was just a symbolic observation period, she just needed to pay slightly more attention. The woman didn't dare to fall asleep either. She was afraid that if she were to sleep too deeply, there would be no one to take care of Gong Fan if he should wake up.

Actually, she knew she wasn't sleeping deeply, but in any case she couldn't sleep. Her mind was filled with the image of a lonely and disappointed Gong Fan. He was as lonely as a person trapped on an island.

Earlier, she had wondered why he had suddenly become so cold. Now, with chagrin, she realized that it was probably as Mu Yazhe had said. The boy had probably overheard their conversation the night before.

Yun Shishi regretted her words, even though they had been carefully considered. Now, as she stared at his sleeping face, she began to regret those words all over again. Gong Fan was also her child. How could she give him up just like that? But on second thought, she did not want to put Youyou at stake.

If she were the one being put at stake, she would not even hesitate to take a gamble and risk her own life, no matter the price. However, if it were Youyou being put at stake, she could not risk losing him. She did not dare take the risk.

The ward was huge.

Despite the fact that they were transiting into spring and it was always difficult to find room in a ward during transition between seasons, Mu Yazhe still tried his best to negotiate and finally secured a luxurious ward.

There were two bedrooms and a living area. Mu Yazhe and Little Yichen slept in the other room. Initially, Mu Yazhe had said that he would stay and accompany them. When he was sleepy, he would just rest on the sofa for a while and let Yun Shishi and Little Yichen sleep in the other room. However, Yun Shishi could not fall asleep. Even if she was sleepy, her mind was preoccupied and she simply refused to sleep. Mu Yazhe understood and knew that she wanted to cherish every second she could spend with Gong Fan, so he said nothing.

He only told her to wake him if she was tired, so that he could take over and let her sleep.

Although Yun Shishi agreed verbally, how could she bear to go to sleep?

She couldn't sleep well.

Youyou's matter had once caused her great mental anguish.

Ever since he was born, he was in ill health. She had always tried her best to nourish his body. It had not been easy to finally nurse him back to health. Now, instead of things being better, they were worse.

They had an issue that came in the form of Gong Fan.

Beside Gong Fan's bed was an accompanying single bed that could be folded to become a chair. She lay on the single bed, but from time to time, she would sit up and look at Gong Fan's face. As she looked at him, she subconsciously started to cry. She felt that she was unworthy of being called a good mother.

Back then, Little Yichen had told the boy that he envied him because he had his mother by his side since he was a child, but it was now Yun Shishi's frustration that she had kept him by her side out of her own selfishness.

If his situation had been under control when he was young, things might not have come to this now. Or, at the time, if the boy had stayed with his father, he wouldn't have ended up with a split personality resulting from those dark memories of being bullied during his childhood.

However, how could there be any medicine for regret in this world? There was no use regretting it now. Unable to sleep anymore, Yun Shishi sat on the edge of the bed and carefully lifted Gong Fan's right hand.

Because he had been put on a drip, his thin arm had become swollen from the water. With a gentle pinch, a dent that would not recover for a long time would appear. His entire arm, including the back of his hand, was unbelievably cold.

Her heart aching, she breathed into the back of his hand and rubbed it gently.