4326 The Other Side 295

He gave her a long, searching look that encompassed far too many emotions. "Because, as the saying goes, caring messes things up. Motherhood is great, but often, it's also blind."

Yun Shishi was startled by his words. She finally understood their profound meaning. The reason he was telling her this, was probably because he sensed that she cared so much for Youyou that she was blinded. In fact, she had neglected Little Yichen.

Perhaps achieving a perfect balance in the relationship between the mother and her two sons was quite impossible. However, she realized now that she seemed too biased.

She let out a sad sigh. "I understand what you're trying to say... The truth is, the mother dog cares about the pups and protects them, but because of her self-righteous protectiveness, she eats them and they never get a chance to open their eyes and see this world."

Mu Yazhe raised his eyebrows but said nothing.

Exasperated, Yun Shishi said, "He's been in poor health since he was a child, and I've always thought it's my fault. I've always... I've always regretted..."

Mu Yazhe was baffled. "What are you regretting?"

"I've always regretted keeping him by my side out of selfishness. If I hadn't done that, perhaps his health wouldn't have been so poor. So..."

'You want to make amends for what you think you did wrong?'

The woman nodded, ashamed.

"But isn't the way you treat Little Yichen wrong too?"

Yun Shishi was speechless for a moment.

"See, the boy kept watch over you all night. When you woke up, you were so anxious to locate Youyou that you turned a blind eye to his concern."

Yun Shishi was surprised. "You... you saw what happened?"

"No, I didn't."

"Then how did you.."

"I could tell from his expression, and yours."

She was appalled at how observant and sharp this man was. Her frustration grew. "Did Little Yichen really watch over me all night?"

"Uh huh. More than one night. I told him to take a break, but he wouldn't, and insisted on watching over you.'

Yun Shishi squirmed in pain when she heard that. Especially when she recalled how incredibly lonely the boy looked.

"In fact, no matter what, even if you hadn't kept Youyou by your side in the first place, even if I had brought him back to the Mu family with me, or perhaps he might have received the best treatment in the world. However, he might not have experienced so much love. If he hadn't been a link between us, we might not have met again. If we could go back to the past, changing any one thing could put all our lives in an entirely different trajectory and everything will fall like dominoes. I don't think anyone of us wish we could go back and start over."

As Yun Shishi listened to this, she kept silent. Mu Yazhe knew in his heart that she must be feeling sad. She realized that she was being too harsh on Little Yichen in that regard, and she looked crestfallen.

He didn't mention the boy directly, but asked instead, "Do you remember clearly what happened before?"

Yun Shishi was visibly taken aback. She looked up at him blankly with trembling lips.

"Do you remember? Yes?"

Seemingly trying to hide something, she replied, "No... I don't remember."