Chapter 12 The subject

"Cy. Are the Solida's torturing you?"

I lost my composure with the fish that Oli was exposing.

"Huh?"

Why is he asking that.

"Looks like you have a problem that you're not telling me."

"What is it Oli? Solidad's are always out of the mansion. Besides, you're vague, Solidad's aren't like that."

I pinned my loose hair behind my ear. I stopped because of the memory. Has he really left?

"Why do you look so sleepy? And you don't seem to be sleeping well."

He picked up the baskets filled with fish and pointed under my eyes. I can't deny it. I didn't sleep well last night for reasons I don't know. Why do I feel so guilty as if I did something wrong.

My heart is full of regrets. Full of unsaid thoughts and questions. If he really did leave, I don't know why I would still step my foot on it. Why can't I just accept that he's just one of the people who will go through my life. I forgot who I really was and where I came from. I chuckled at that thought. Is my flight already high and I also want to aim for him?

"Cy! See?"

Oli said with amusement which broke my weary. He shook his head and went to their house to put in the fish baskets. I hope that if he leaves, he will never return. Cause I don't want to push myself up to my limit. I don't know if I can still stop throwing myself to him if he did comeback again.

I just looked up at the peaceful sky. How can you be so peaceful while everything was a chaos here? In a vast plain blue sky, a very dim vague circumstances underneath.

Sometimes you don't even know what to believe. There comes a time when you want to follow the right, but the distance is far from what you want to happen. Isn't it ironic? Not every thief wants to steal, not every liar wants to lie. Not everyone without a family desires to lose a family.

What others have you like and maybe what you have others like. And I know, it's wrong to like you.

So don't come back. Because when you come back, I will claim you even if you are not mine.

"Why do you want to go there? Isn't it better to just forget everything?"

I watched my feet walk on the sand. Just smiling at what Oli said, it was a good decision that I included Oli somehow making me feel better. Oli was so scratchy at the smile I gave her.

Forget? Even if maybe that happens to me many times I will not choose to forget everything. That place was my only witness to how mom and dad loved me. I counted a few knuckle trees and realized we were close. I can already see the thick trees that serve as a division on this island and beyond.

It's still the same here and nothing has changed, I can see the huge steel and vehicles that are busy building the structure there. Oli came first and I restrained her, and touched the hem of her dress. He looked at me in astonishment.

"We can't go over. We're just here." I told him.

I wanted to dispel in my mind what happened the last time I went here but I remembered for a moment. He also stopped and just let me go.

"Cy, there!Passing the boulder."

I turned my gaze to the rock formation he pointed toand I realized that we could actually go there because it was no longer on private property. My face lit up and I nodded to Oli. It was a little difficult for us to get there because we had to go through the shallow part of the sea to get to the flat part of the rock formation. It seems to have served as a basement or small cave. From here I had a great view of the larger buildings.

Formerly small huts have been replaced by this structure. Lots of workers and huge vehicles. Everyone was rushing at his work as they were covered in thick dust that seemed to have created smoke.

"Go to sleep first Ava. Go inside."

I smiled at my mom as she stroked my hair with her hands. It was fun for Mom to mention her name.

"Isn't Dad coming home yet?"

Her eyes were exactly like mine. They are flattering and fit the beautiful shape of his face. Her wavy hair is perfectly flowing up to his butt. All I got from dad was my hair very straight but the natural color of his hair I got as well. Even its porcelain complexion. So my father wanted me to be named after him. Ava.

"I'll still wait for your dad. They might have a hard time talking to the governor."

Her palm cupped my face and kissed me on my forehead. Earlier in the afternoon, my father left with the others living here on our island. They also spent a few weeks back in the center to talk to the officials because we were being evicted from this island. Dad is one of the managers of the few houses here so for a few days Dad has been busy fighting for this island. Other than that I know nothing.

"So come in. We're going to church early tomorrow."

Her assurance was enough to make me feel at ease. I hugged him tightly and obeyed what was said. I was in a deep sleep when I heard some murmuring. I thought I was dreaming.

"That's Helen. She wants me to kneel in front of her."

It was not loud but frustration and rage was clear into my father's voice. I looked up and rolled my eyes. I think I was dizzy because when I looked out the window it was still dark. What time did dad get home? I heard my mother shush him.

"Me. I'm the one going there Javier. I'm sure he'll stop us if I kneel before her myself-"

"No! You won't do that Ava! We don't have to forgive him or anyone else."

Dad shouted. I heard my mother sob. But I was too sleepy to even hear all of their conversation. I was so drowsy that I felt my father's kiss on my head. I looked up and smiled at him. I was unconscious and I was back in my sleep.

Before I knew it. A loud and wailing surroundings I wrote. A fog of smoke was all over the place and because of this I could not see and I could only cough. My mother's coughing made me trace her on were she is. I could see that he was having difficulty breathing, because he had asthma and he could not stand this thick smoke.

"Mom."

My throat clogged and my whole being went cold when I realized fire was the cause of this thick smoke.

"Ava. Come out."

The mother sighed and I could hardly see her in the thick smoke throughout the house. The screams and cries I heard outside made me cry even more. "Where's dad, mom?"

I moaned as I shook at what he was saying. She was already squatting and welding weakly leaning on the side of the bed. We both coughed one after the other and even though I was having a hard time, I tried to lead him upright so that we could get out. I am very weak but every time I see Mother almost unconscious I try to straighten my mind.

"Ava!"

I don't know where else that voice came from but I was so excited to hear dad's voice. I smiled and looked at my mother and she was completely unconscious. And I can't take him anymore.

I stopped to see there was a fire on our way out. Simultaneously with Dad's very loud call was the plunge of the huge roof and there I lost consciousness.

Next came the grain of tears in my Eye which I immediately wiped away.

"Cy I told you you shouldn't come back here."

Oli said softly as she comforted me on my back.

"I can't forget it Oli." I wept.

This is just the last thing I remember of the two of them. Even a few thousand pains I will receive when I come back here. I can't forget this.

"Guys! Guys! Guys!"

We were all surprised when Alicia suddenly entered the main door of the mansion because she did say that she would be late for the conversation today. He was out of breath and wanted to say something but he couldn't speak as he gasped.

"Guess who will be our subject in the interview."

Alicia smiled as she headed to the sofa. We all stopped and looked straight at him. Follows his every move.

"Probably the Mayor. We don't have anyone else who can be the subject."

Oscar said with a laugh. He raised his index finger and shook while drinking a glass of Juice.

"And who?"

Mariel boredly said. Our eyesight was also correct and I was nervous again because of the way he looked at me. I just avoided looking at him. I remembered again what Levi had told me.

Does Jomar really like me? Alicia clapped a few times. And we were all just waiting for the name he would say.

"Lourd Vidalio."