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Carolina's POV:

"Carolina?" I hear his voice calling. A thudding sound hitting over and over again. Is he coming? What did I do? Is he going to hurt me?

I ask myself hugging my knees to my chest. I can see myself, like I am an onlooker to the scene unfolding in front of me. I want to scream at myself to get up and run, but my voice is gone, I can't move, only watch.

The thudding sound is getting louder and suddenly the door to this dark room i'm sitting in swings open. Noah stands there his face covered from the darkness but his eyes glowing in the dark. I see myself crying, covering myself like I will just disappear.

But I don't

I just sit there as he walks to me and grabs me. Dragging me out of the room by my hair, screaming and kicking in fear.

As the door is slammed shut I hear a earth shattering thud. Making myself sit up in bed, back in the room Jaxson gave me. Tears were falling down my face and I could tell there was no stopping them.

I try to calm down but it's no use with the thunder storm going on outside. I slowly stood up and walked out to my room and to Jaxson's door. I knocked lightly not wanting to wake him up if he is in a beep sleep, but he opened the door after a few seconds.

He was wearing only boxers, he wiped the sleep away from his eyes and looked to me. Even through it was dark he somehow saw the tears running down my face.

"Oh Carolina." He said lightly, pulling my into a warm hug. "Whats the matter?" He asked now wide awake.

"I-" I was about to explain but then another round of thunder sounded, I reacted and gripped onto Jaxson tightly only being able to say "I'm scared." He held me tighter and lifted me up a bit off the ground.

He started walking to my room, probably to lay me back down, but I didn't want to go back there were my nightmare happened. "Stop." I said to him lightly. "I don't want to go back."

He moved his head back to look at me a little confused. "Why don't you want to go lay down? You seem really tired." He said. "I had a nightmare in there. And I don't want to be alone." I told him.

I took a deep breath, like I do every time I do something out of my comfort zone. "Can I stay with you?" I asked quite covering my face in his neck. "You know I wouldn't mind that. Just make sure you are comfortable with it." He told me. I nodded my head still holding onto him.

He turned around and walked into his room. I hadn't spent much time in here but it is definitely Jaxson's style. Dark black carpet and white walls. Nice gray couch sitting in front of his hanging TV, and his soft as air king sized bed, that he lightly places me down on.

He pulled on some sweat pants before walking around the bed and laying down himself. I slowly got under his fluffy covers and tried to fall asleep. I jumped slightly onto him when thunder and lighting struck again.

He chuckled slightly at my reactions before kissing my face and calming me down. "It's ok, my little butterfly." He said to me, his voice sounding distance. I was drifting back to sleep but I fought against it. Not ready to enter that darkness again.

Jaxson must have felt me fight against my sleep cause started lightly caressing my face in a pattern. Over my nose, around my eye, back down my nose, and then around my other eye. Making a figure eight over my face.

It was calming and forced me into sleep. But I didn't have that nightmare. No, quite the opposite really. I was laying on the soft grass next to Jaxson, the hot sun being our blanket and the sounds of birds being our lullaby.

It only felt like seconds when I was awoken by the loud sound from the alarm clock. It was 6 in the morning and I was not getting up yet. I wanted to go back to the meadow. I turned off the clock with out another thought snuggling back into Jaxson, who accepted me in his arms.

Jaxson's POV:

This was amazing. Her laying with me, holding herself to me. The little sounds she made every once in while. She was beautiful.

I pulled her more into me, glancing over her body to look at the time. It was 8 o'clock! That's the latest I have slept in, in a long time. I must have forgotten to set it or sleep through it.

I didn't really care though, cause I got to lay down and cuddled my mate. I don't know if this is just a one night think, but I hope it's not. I don't know how I will be able to sleep alone after this. But what Carolina wants she is going to get.

I was drifting back to sleep when my phone rang, I groaned quietly before reaching behind me and grabbing it.

It was Tyler.

"Hello?" I said my voice still a little rough.

"You missed the meeting this morning? You feeling good man?" Tyler voice says through the phone. I can hear light talking in the background, telling me he was still at the meeting hall.

"Yeah, i'm fine. I think I slept through my alarm." I said quieter. "Why are you whispering?" Tyler asks me whispering too.

"Oh, um. Carolina's laying next to me, and I can't move with out waking her up." I told him. He chuckled before saying "That's great man, she is really getting comfortable with you."

"Yeah, she didn't have a good night last night and wanted to stay with me." I said, giving a little more context to what happened. "Well I will let you get back to sleep then, you sound tired as well." He told me. And I was.

"Ok. I will call you later about that meeting." I told him before hanging up and setting my phone back on the table. Carolina was still sleeping, I could tell by her steady breathing and heart beat. I moved her a little higher up on me before settling back to sleep.

Carolina's POV:

I am warm, very warm. And there is heave weight on me, I was still laying on Jaxson. Cuddled up on him, his hair in a big mess. I reached my hand up and tried to fix it a bit, I don't know why I thought that would be a good idea.

He just stirred awake, looking at me with confused looks. This is a little weird. I am sitting up a little, both my hands in his hair moving it around.

A big yawn made him break our eye contact, he stretched his arms before returning his gaze back onto me. He pulled me down to come closer to his face, my breath picking up a bit before he just lightly pecks my cheek and a smile form on his face.

"Morning, beautiful. What were you up to?" He asked now leaning his face into my neck, this was new, but I just moved closer to him and let him.

"Your hair was everywhere." Was all I said. I hear him chuckle in my neck, tickling me a little. "You know that happens when you go to sleep, your hair gets messy." He told me making me chuckle a little.

He blow air on my neck tickling me again, now on purpose.

He then laid his head back, shutting his eyes, still holding me. "I really liked waking up to you like that." He said a peaceful look on his face.

"I like it too." I told him. And even through that didn't really make sense I knew he knew what I was trying to say. "You know you could stay with me more often then." He told me and I moved to lay back down on him. I just nodded my head, something I will think about later.

"Do you have to get up?" I asked, knowing he had work he could be doing. "Yeah, but maybe in another hour or so. I want to enjoy this a little longer." he told me, putting his hand in my hair lightly holding me to him.

I did like this and this is something mates should be doing. So maybe this is what I can give to him to make up for what I haven't been doing. And thinking back to that wonderful dream, the warmth of that memory made me smile.

I want that to be real. And the only reason it isn't is because of me.

I glanced back up to Jaxson to see he was back to sleep. He looked peaceful again and even though he always is handsome he looks even more handsome right now. The light hitting perfectly. I probably shouldn't be staring.

But no one is around to stop me.

Jaxson's POV:

Carolina is finally all healed up. Her healing is faster then the doctors thought it would be, which helped her have a fast recovery.

We are planning out the introduction today and I am very excited. I know normally Alpha's don't have a big part in planning everything, especially things like this, but I want to be apart of it all. My mom and Carolina have been talking over the planning for the last hour.

We are doing something a little different then what my parents did with their introduction.

We are planning on having a gathering outside the pack house and do all the talking parts there and then moving to the open ball room we have for events, it will of course be decorated and there will be food for everyone, and everyone can come up and talk to Carolina in a slower pace.

I know she has been very tense about that part. Talking to a lot of new people at once is a struggle still for her, but I will of course be there to help things move smoothly.

"Jaxson?" I hear my mother call my name. "Yes?" I ask realizing I zoned out a bit. We were all having dinner now.

"I just asked you if everything with the pack is going good?" She told me.

"Oh, yes. Everything has been well." I say. I know my parents miss being the Alpha King and Luna Queen and being apart of everything. I try to keep them updated with important things.

"That's good. You are a great Alpha King Jaxson." My father told me. My father is a man of very few words, so when he chooses the words he says, he means them. "Thank you, I had a great teacher." I told him nodding to him in respect.

"And what about you Carolina? Do you have a good teacher, teaching the ways of being the Royal pack leader?" My mother asks teasingly.

Carolina just smiles sheepishly and nods her head. I look over her and feel myself longing to hold her. But I can't, at least not right now. She has been staying with me and it has been perfect. Every morning we lay and talk for a little, till we have to get up and join the world again.

"I think it is getting really late, honey." My mom says looking out of the window and then to her watch. "You know how we hate driving in the dark." She said as both her and my father stood up. The sun was setting now and it would be dark soon.

"Yeah, We will come over tomorrow to finish all the scheduling and everything. Right, Carolina?" I asked her, making sure she was ok with that. "Yes, that sounds good." She said still sitting.

"Well good night you two." My mom said with a little mischief in her voice. Behind the scenes she has been bugging me about grandchildren, of course she would never say anything to Carolina, but has no problem with me.

"Good bye, mom. Bye dad." I said to both as I followed them to the front door and closed it once they left and locked the doors for the night.

I walked back into the dinning room to see Carolina picking up the dirty plates and putting them next to the sink to be cleaned tomorrow. She seemed dazed out and in another planet. I watched her as she moved around till she stopped at the door way and looked off, with a big sigh.

I walked up behind her and placed my head on her shoulder, alerting her I was there, before wrapping my hands around her torso. "What are you thinking so hard about." I said next to her ear. My breath probably running against her ear, making her shiver.

"What if they don't like me. I know its stupid but what if it happens. What will I do." She said, a pain in her voice. Filled with worry and insincerity. "I know that won't happen, and if that doesn't reassure you then just know that no one will change my mind about you being my Luna Queen. You were made for this and you will show them that." I told her holding her tighter to me. "I know you will."

She seemed content with my answer as she leaned back against me and relaxed. She let out a big yawn before asking "Can we go to bed now?" I chuckled at her child like question.

I turned her around to face me and picked her up off the ground. She gripped on to me holding herself up a bit. "Of course we can." I said starting to move upstairs.

Carolina's POV:

I am still nervous about this whole thing. I'm not sure how this is all going to fall together, but hopefully when it does everything will work out. I want to be able to prove myself worthy of this title but at the same time I know that there is someone else out there who could do it 10 times better.

Jaxson doesn't seem to think so. He seems very confident in me and the packs reaction. But as I lay down on our bed I can't help but continue thinking about the different unlikely out comes of the introduction.

I think the plan is to have the introduction next week. Which is really soon. I am supposed to also be dressed in a golden dress, but Carol said she would help with that, seeing as there is nothing close to being fitting for this event in my closet.

I finally went through it and thrown out anything I didn't want, as I was moving into this room. I have really been enjoying my nights with Jaxson. He has been holding onto me and cuddling me as we fall asleep. He is just one big teddy bear.

I needed my sleep tonight if I was going to go through another day with Carol. She is very kind and lovely but also very energetic. I can see why she made a great Luna Queen. She has the energy to handle every duty that come her way as the Luna Queen.

Me on the other hand gets frustrated by the littlest things and can barely hold a conversation.

Jaxson must of felt my negative thoughts or was just stirring in his sleep, but he pulled me closer onto him. The warmth on him makes everything better and puts that sleepy feeling over me again. Tomorrow is another day.