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Carolina's POV:

Today was going perfect.

Everyone was being very kind to me and slowly introducing themselves to me. So far a little girl has stayed with me through the whole thing. She came up to me first with a cute little pink dress on "Hello, Luna Queen, my name is Carolina too!" She said reaching her arms up for me to lift her into my lap.

She has sat with me and talked with me. Jaxson was sitting behind us smiling at me watchin me interact with the young girl.

"Carolina." I assume her mother said reaching her arms out and picking her up from me. "I hope she didn't bother you Luna Queen." She said bowing her head to me.

"No, not at all." I smiled to the young looking women. "She has been really helpful actually, introducing some other pack members to me." I smiled waving at the little girl making her giggle.

"Well that's good, but we have to go. Goodbye Luna Queen, and Alpha King." She bowed before leaving to her mate.

I turned around to look at Jaxson. His eyes already on me. "Are you having a good time?" He asked moving right behind my putting are faces together. "Yes, what about you?" I asked him.

He laughed lightly at me. "I was having a lot of fun watching you interact with little Carolina. She really liked you." He told me. "Well, I really liked her." I told him giggling now cause his breath was tickling me.

"I know this isn't the time but do you ever want to have kids?" He asked lightly. I looked to him meeting his eyes. It was clear to me that he did, but I wasn't sure. I have never thought about it.

I took a beep breath before saying "I don't know. I have never really thought about it. I didn't think I would ever get the chance." I looked away from him and took a minute to think "But the idea sounds nice. Us with little ones." I said smiling to myself.

He let out a sigh. "It would be nice. wouldn't it. I like the sound of 3 or 4." He told me making me laugh.

"That does sound nice." I hummed and leaned back against him.

"Don't get to comfortable, another visitor is heading over this way. I'm going to use the bathroom and then we can dance the night away." He told me lightly pushing me to sit up and standing up. Before walking away he kisses my hand and walk away.

I watched him walk away till a strange smell hit me. And not a good one, almost like wet trash but like its covered in something to make it smell sweet but it just combines into something weird.

I looked up at the female in front of me. She was wearing a nice dress and a veil over her face. She was older looking but still strong.

"Hello, Luna Queen." She said. Every time some one has said that to me it was polite but this time it was filled with sass and a tint of disgust. I looked at the women confused.

I just nodded my head not sure what to say. I looked at her confused and waited for her to continue, but she never did, just handed me a piece of paper.

Suddenly the light went out and everyone screamed. I felt something scratch my face and run past me. I reach my hand to cover my face and bend down in pain.

As the lights switch back on, the lady once in front of me gone and blood dripping down my face. "Carolina!" I hear Jaxson's voice as he runs into the room and reaches me. "It hurts, i'm bleeding." I don't know what i'm saying now. I am scared and frightened.

"What happened, are you alright, can you see?" He spit balls questions at me.

"That lady that came up to talk to me, she handed me this and then the lights went off and I think she scratched me and ran past me." I told him tears now mixing with my blood, stinging me even now.

He pulled me to him "Go tract any strange scent, and get the pack doctor, now!" Jaxson ordered.

He picked me up and started carrying me out of the room. People around us was wishing me the best and asking if I would be ok. Before we left the room he turned around and addressed everyone. "Your Luna Queen will be fine. She is strong, just a little shaken. I will make sure she will get the care she needs, thank you all for this lovely evening and for being patient."

Everyone bowed their heads and Jaxson turned around and started walking out again. I waved my hand to the group as my goodbye.

Jaxson quickly brought me to a unoccupied room upstairs. He laid me back on the bed and told me to relax till the doctor got here.

My heart was pumping and it was hard to calm my breathing. Jaxson noticed my struggle and laid down next to me caressing my cheek. "Breath, for me." He said, and that's all it took. I laid still till the pack doctor came.

It wasn't Dr. Tina but a different Doctor. A male doctor named Dr. Shane, Jaxson wasn't sure about him at first checking me, but he was the closest Doctor and he kept his distance and only touched my face where the cuts were.

He also let Jaxson hold on to me and sat me in his lap to keep him calm. I honestly felt bad for him. He was getting death glares from not only his Alpha but his Alpha King.

Once he finished I thanked him, and made Jaxson thank him too.

Jaxson then lifted me up again and carried me out of the pack house. He placed me in the car that Micheal was already in and we drove home. Once we got there it didn't take me look to fall asleep in his arms.

Jaxson's POV:

When I had walked away from Carolina at the party I had felt confident that everything was going great and that Carolina was safe.

But I guess I let my want for her to be safe and happy, blind me from the fact that she is still in danger. And to be a good Alpha King, a good mate I have to protect her.

I opened the door upstairs, away from the party to wait for the pack doctor, and let Carolina have a moment to breath without everyone watching her. I walked into the room that once belonged to me and turned on the light.

I used to live in the pack house while I was training to get close to the pack.

It still had some stuff in it and here if I need it, like today. I lay Carolina down and move to close and lock the door. I can hear her sniffling and crying, which hurts me more then I ever thought it would.

"Carolina, butterfly," I started calling to her and pulling her to me.

I wrapped my arms around her to comfort her, I wasn't sure if I was making this worst or better cause she continued to cry out. But her grip on me tighten and telling me not to let her go.

I don't know how long we were like that but there was a knock on the door. I lightly moved her, she grabbed the blanket that was under us and wrapped herself in it. It was a cute move to comfort herself. I turned away from her before moving to the door where the doctor was.

I was shocked it wasn't Dr. Tina cause that's who I asked to take care of Carolina, but instead it was Dr. Even at the door. "Hello, Alpha King. Dr. Tina would have like to be here but she is having a lot of trouble at the hospital. She sent me to help the Luna Queen."

I was ify about this. And I think he could tell. He was older then me and I know he had a mate of his own but that didn't mean I wanted him near mine.

I looked behind me to Carolina she was hurt and he could help her, which is the only reason I moved out of his way and let him move to Carolina.

As he worked on Carolina's scratches I held her and acted like he was not there.

It took him 30 minutes to help heal her and make sure she wont get scars from them. She still had some tears running down her face. And the pain of the cleaning stuff he is putting on her face isn't helping her much.

Carolina POV:

I had only gotten to sleep for a few minutes till the doctor had come.

It wasn't Tina which was weird, for me and for Jaxson. I could tell by the way he was holding me the whole time that he was not happy with him being so close to me.

And I was not happy with the burning feeling he caused while tending to me cuts.

Once he had left I was ready to go back to our room in our bed and not who every's room this is.

"Jaxson." I called but it was quite and if Jaxson wasn't a werewolf he wouldn't have heard me. But he is so he moved to look to me from the door he just closed behind the doctor.

"Yes?" He asked. "Can we go home?" I asked lightly tears peaking in my eyes.

He looked at me with sadness in his eyes. He moved to me and picked me up again. I held myself to him as he carried me down stairs and out of the house.

Micheal was there waiting for us.

Once we got in the car I feel back asleep not awaking to the next day back in our bed. My face a bit sore and stinging. But Jaxson was laying with me and holding me like he always does. Making me feel safe.

Carolina's POV:

It was the next day, and I didn't really know what to do with myself. What are you supposed to do after getting attack?

For the first time in awhile I woke up with just me in the bed. I was confused where Jaxson had gone. I could tell he wasn't in the bathroom so where could he be. He normally always waits for me to wake up before getting up.

Maybe it was something important, but then he would have woken me up to take me with him so I could learn what to do. But no, i'm just in bed by myself confused.

After thinking about what to do next I just decided to look downstairs in his office for him.

I didn't get changed or anything just started moving through the halls.

I haven't learned how to get around this whole place yet but I can find my way through it a little better now. To the important parts at least, which is a start.

Once I am finally in front of Jaxson's office I can feel him in there. I lightly knock on the door before opening it and walking in.

He was looking down at some papers with a frustrated look on his face, but once he whipped his head up to look at me the frustration melted away. I'm happy I can still make him relax with me just being in the room. I wonder if that we someday change? I hope not at least.

"Morning Butterfly." He said gesturing me to come to him. Which I quickly obeyed and moved to sit with him like I had been for many days now in this office. "You weren't there when I woke up?" I asked after a few seconds of quite.

He sighed and laid his head on my shoulder. "That's correct. I had a lot of work to do after what happened yesterday. I need to make sure that you and everyone else is safe before I can relax." He told me, holding me to him like I was in trouble.

"Can I help?"

It seemed like a simple question to me, but it seemed to stump Jaxson.

"I don't know. This stuff can get pretty messy and after yesterday I would feel better if you were as far away from it as possible." He told me. I understood that he wanted to keep me safe, but isn't it as dangerous for him as it is for me. And aren't we both leaders to this pack.

I thought he would want my help. He has been so excited every time I offered to help. Whats different. Why the change.

"I don't understand." I said lightly.

The frustration now returning to his face as he tries to think of what to say.

"Are we not both King and Queen. Is it not my place to help you where ever I can and for you to do the same for me. Together." I asked saying what I thought this was supposed to be like. That's what Carol said it should be.

"Yes, that is how this is supposed to go but," He stopped. "But? But what's different, why can't I help? I can help, I promise." I asked perking up showing him I'm ready to help.

He just chuckled and shook his head. "What happened yesterday, happened cause I wasn't protecting you. Because I wanted you to be in the open and seen as Luna Queen. I didn't protect you and I'm sorry. But I'm not letting my mistakes go unlearned. I need you safe. No more scars or pain for you. I need you to help me with somethings, but this, this is something I have to do."

His words were filled with emotion and they seemed to make sense, or at least I wanted them to, but they just didn't. Wouldn't the work be easier with two people, wouldn't we been more safe with 4 eyes instead of 2 looking out for everyone. What if something else does happen and everyone is blindsided cause we didn't know what was going on, I didn't know what was going on.

Who ever said ignorance in bliss was stupid.

It's only a temporary safety that will be shattered once reality catches up with you.

"Why can't it be something we have to do?" I tried. Even though fighting with someone like the Alpha King seemed hopeless to me.

His eyes were filled with sadness now that I didn't mean to put there. "It just can't." Was his final statement on the matter.

Can't

Can't has been a word I described my whole life on.

Can't get away

Can't fight.

Can't be strong.

Can't be a good Luna Queen.

Jaxson has never been one to use that word with me. He has always told me I can. Why not this, what am I missing, am I really that weak and stupid to see whats going on that I can't help. Is Jaxson seeing that now too.

I didn't know what to do with myself after that. I just wanted Jaxson and I think he wanted me so I sat with him for awhile till breakfast was called and me and him ate our food in silence.

The rest of the day I was in the living room, not watching anything and reading anything, but thinking. Thinking ways to better myself and get stronger.

To make the word can't go away, and never come back.