Chapter 45 Naziha

With tears rolling down my cheeks, I sniffed thinking about my life. I had the chance to forever live in happiness, love, wealth, and serenity but I fucked up.

And now I felt so sorry for myself. I shouldn't have done all that I did. Yes, I should've listened to Ahmad when I had the chance to. Actually, he had told me not to worry about his father and to put my trust in him but I was so dumb.

If only I could move us back to the past so I could fix all my mistakes but is there anything like moving backward or forward in life? Nay, that wasn't part of life and would never be part of life.

Last year I saw Humairah, our former cook with him. To my surprise, they had gotten married and even had triplets together. One surprising thing was that, she was carrying another child for him.

Well, when I was still with Ahmad I had suspected they were in love but I didn't take it serious even after catching them in the dining table eating together. I had a lot on my mind, you know?

That time I was worried about conceiving for the Zaki Family, giving an heir to the company. I really thought I could fool Allah but I was so wrong, the clergyman I put big hope on used and dumped me.

He made me believed he could give me a child by sleeping with me for three good weeks. In those weeks, he had asked me to fully submit myself to him which I did. I should have known he was nothing but an agent of Shaitan (the outcast).

Ahmad was a kind person, if I hadn't left him I believed he would definitely forgive my sins but I thought I had to leave. That was the punishment I chose for myself, and now I couldn't stop regretting.

The man I married after him was a nice man, he had tried to make this life a paradise for me but he died in a war with some terrorists at Maiduguri.

I kept living my life, thinking about him until I met Ahmad again. Since then, I began thinking about Ahmad instead and every damn moment until one day I decided to visit him. I was just tired, I was tired of thinking and dreaming about him... you know?

Sometimes I would see him making love with me in my dreams, and sometimes I would see us showering together. I tried so hard to take him off my head but I couldn't.

I had once rejected a job offer from him not because of anything but because I didn't want his presence to make my life uneasy, but now I realized being far from him was more painful than closer.

As soon as I arrived at his company, I mean the Headquarters. I requested to see him but the securities wouldn't let me in, they told me I could not see him just like that without booking an appointment.

Actually, most of them weren't working there when I was his wife. I told them though but they wouldn't believe me. I kept arguing with them until a black highlander arrived at the gate.

The securities quickly opened the gate for it and just as I was about sneaking in, one of them held me and pulled me back. It was so aggressive that I fell to the ground and got one of my ankles dislocated.

That moment, I began mourning like a little baby. The person in the black highlander came out and asked what was going on. Before the securities could reply her, she asked them to carry me and get me into the car which they humbly did.

Thus, I realized she was Rania - one of the wives of Ahmad - the moment she called him and told him what had happened.

"...it's those security guards! They got her injured so I am taking her to the hospital..." She continued with the call while I listened to their conversation.

We arrived at the hospital shortly after and I was quickly attended to. The ankle was painfully relocated, after which I was taken to a ward.

"Sorry for what they did to you, I will make sure I have them sacked" Said Rania as she pulled a stool and sat closer to me.

By looking at her, I realized I was nothing but a filthy loser. She was so beautiful and her skin was glowing like, I don't even know how to describe it.

How lucky was Ahmad? I believed if I hadn't messed up, she wouldn't probably be in his life right now. Same as Humairah!

"I am so sorry" She added.

"It's okay, I understand" I huffed giving her a crooked smile.

"Alright" She smiled back. "Do you have a family? I mean, someone we can call and notify about your condition?" She asked.

"Yes but," I painfully shut my eyes. "That was then"

"They died?" She curiously asked.

"I don't want to talk about it" I said gently opening my eyes.

Ever since I started a new life, I hadn't met my siblings. Ya Hannatu and Ya Nabil. I isolated myself from them and recently when I tried reaching them I couldn't find them.

"Sorry for asking" Rania said as she picked up her ringing phone. "Hello, Ahmad" She adjusted her sitting position. "Yes, she's fine" She smiled. "What, where?" She wrinkled her brows. "But I told you not to worry!" She deadpanned. "Okay then, come to the Private Ward B. It's just us there" She apprised before ending the call.

"He's here?" I asked to be sure.

"Yes" She nodded gently. "By the way," she continued. "Who were you looking for in our Company?"

"Ahmad" I said gulping hard.

"Ahmad?" She puzzled.

"Yes, Ahmad Jaafar Zaki" I completed the name.

"Okay, but what do you want from him?" She folded her arms across her chest.

"Actually," I cleared my throat about continuing when Ahmad Salaamed into the ward.