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I stepped out of the bathroom into the dark hallway and immediately heard the voices of the three from below, who were probably about to close their deals. Since I found Yuri really creepy, I didn't even want to imagine what he charged for his guards. I hoped it was just money though...

Then, when my gaze wandered to Senan's door and I heard soft music coming from it, determined to talk to him about everything, I padded towards it and knocked several times.

After the music inside got quieter, the door opened quickly and I was faced with a smoking Senan, who I could see immediately that he must have been crying.

I felt so sorry for him.

One look into his dark eyes was enough to know that everything Yuri had said really hurt him... Nevertheless, I finally wanted to know the truth.

The truth about why Rian treated him so badly. The truth about why things sometimes went haywire here and the truth about what really happened to Rian's mother.

"May I come in?" I asked uncertainly and waited a moment until he silently held the door a little further open for me. This time, I immediately looked behind the door and took a reassuring breath that there was no Jake hiding behind it.

Would also have been his death sentence.

"Let me guess. Now you want to know exactly what Yuri meant, so that you can then look at me with the same disparaging look as Rian does."

After he closed the door, I immediately gave him a sympathetic look and shook my head almost imperceptibly.

"I want to know why you're so broken and I'm certainly not here to judge you," I reassured him and then walked over to his couch to carefully sit down on it...

I shuddered briefly as images flashed in my mind of where I'd puffed on Jake's cigarette in this erotic mood, but I quickly pushed them aside and looked back up at Senan, who eyed me closely before taking a deep breath and tears again appeared in his eyes.

"My mother was a stripper and you know how it is. Mafia men go to their business dinners and romp with the women and have non-committal fun, but the night with Cathan and my mother turned out to be more than cheap sex."

My stomach clenched painfully at his words. Not only because I didn't even want to imagine that with Rian, but also because Senan has probably seen himself as a mistake since birth.

He drew on his cigarette again, nervously pacing back and forth in front of me, running his hand over his face in anger. Probably to wipe away his tears that I shouldn't see...

"I came here at the age of 6 because my mother was never home. But things were different here back then. Cathan lived upstairs with Elise and despite my illegitimate origins we were a really happy family. All the older But I became, the more my past caught up with me. I hated my mother for not being able to take care of me. Hated me for always thinking about her and then, in my already turbulent adolescence, falling into deep holes, Elise was there for me. So much so that she often neglected even Rian and Odran. She was a wonderful woman."

The last words only came out in a whisper and I could almost feel a wave of sadness wash over him, but I also knew that he didn't want any consolation, at least not yet...

"When I was 16, my mother died. From then on, hating myself had no limits. I literally started playing with my life. It didn't matter whether I drank to a coma or tried drugs, everything was just a game for me. I was walking a tightrope over hell and really only hoping that a light gust of wind would let me fall down."

He wiped away his tears again and I really wanted to get up to give him a hug, but he raised his hand, as Rian often did, to hold me in place.

"When Cathan, Odran and Rian went out to do some business one night, I had a very bad day. I had a fight with my then-girlfriend, I beat up Jake, and I was alone downstairs in the kitchen that evening Thinking about how easy it would be just not to have to suffer anymore. That one flash of thought, so brief yet suddenly so clear, made me run in a trance to the bathroom, knowing exactly where Rian's was sleeping pills. I went back to the kitchen, poured myself a glass of water, and then, without thinking twice, started pulling out the nearly full pack of pills and crushing them into powder."

He paused again and lit another cigarette with trembling hands.

"I mixed the powder with the water, sniffed it and was amazed at the time that you couldn't see or smell it. That made my whole project even easier for me. I prayed to God one last time and was about to start, but then suddenly Elise came into the kitchen. I was startled and thought at that moment that God wanted to stop me from doing something stupid, which I was more than grateful for at the time. She gently put her hand on my back, asked how I was and poured herself a glass of water as well. After reassuring her that everything was fine, I grabbed my glass and poured it down the drain while she disappeared back upstairs... But I had the wrong glass..."

I took a deep breath, knowing full well what this was going to lead to. Goosebumps ran down my arms and I almost jumped off the couch, having to move somehow from the shock.

What a horrible fate!

"It was a silly mix-up! I had drunk a lot of alcohol that day... and when Rian came home in the middle of the night and, as always, wanted to go up to her, I heard him scream and curse loudly..."

I had absolutely no idea what the brothers had been through since that night, but from what Senan had told me, it really was just a crappy accident. albeit one with serious consequences.

Of course, I understood Rian's anger, but also Senan's desperation and since I didn't know myself how I would have reacted, I didn't know at all what exactly I should be feeling at that moment. I didn't even know if I should say something...

The only thing I did after that was to run to Senan and hug him tightly, where he broke down crying, his whole body shaking uncontrollably.

"It wasn't on purpose," he sobbed, and my heart broke when I heard the deep pain in his voice.

"I know," I breathed in a trembling voice and immediately he clung to me even tighter and buried his head in the crook of my neck. "I know..." I repeated myself and then felt the tears running down my cheeks at the thought of my own sick mother.

I lay in my bed and Rian's, totally agitated, staring numbly at the white ceiling above me...

After Senan preferred to be alone after a long hug, I left him alone, briefly disappeared into the bathroom to put on very tight black pajama bottoms and a white crop top and then looked for this room here.

Since I wasn't wearing the TV or anything else, I could hear over and over again the loud laughter and talk downstairs and it seemed totally inappropriate that they seemed to be in a good mood while Senan choked on his guilty conscience alone and I was still completely absorbed in my fear of the stranger.

Idiots!

Full of energy, I tore the blanket off my exhausted body and got up in a hurry to put an end to the hustle and bustle down there for the day.

Yes, I certainly didn't have to interfere in my husband's business and yes, my dress wasn't the best at the moment either, as everything was very revealing, but I couldn't take the laughter anymore mentally...

Also, I wanted Rian with me after this exhausting day, so he kindly had to be there for me too!

As soon as I reached the top of the stairs, they stopped their wild conversations and looked at me in different ways.

While Nero was visibly happy to see me, Odran immediately avoided my sight and my gaze wandered from him to the many empty bottles of alcohol on the table.

So that's what they mean by arranging business!

Then my eyes met the beautiful grey-blue, but he looked more angry than pleased at my appearance.

Before I could even take a step, Rian jumped up from his chair and came toward me, while Juri's loud laughter rang out.

"Get back upstairs now," my husband growled, but as he stopped right in front of me, I saw that sparkle in his eyes and also that he bit his lower lip seductively.

Apparently he liked my cleavage...

"Why?" I replied with a shrug and turned past him. I didn't know what made me so angry at that moment and why I was acting so provocatively, but I couldn't get out of my head that some hooker had his cock in her hand just a few days ago.

bitch!

"Keeva," I heard Rian behind me, but I skilfully ignored him and smiled and sank into the chair next to Juri, where Rian was sitting before.

"I like it," said the Russian, pushing a glass towards me, which I then gratefully accepted while looking at Rian, whose anger at my behavior was written all over his face.

"And you clarified everything?" I turned back to Juri, who immediately looked at Odran and Rian.

"Yes. A bit of money here, a few prostitutes there," he said in Russian and I immediately stared at him in confusion.

I must have misheard!

"Prostitute?", I repeated him questioningly and at the same moment felt a hand on my arm, which suddenly pulled me up from the chair, so that the glass almost fell out of my hand.

"Rian!", I admonished him bitingly, but he almost yanked me to the stairs with too much strength to then drag me upstairs and finally stop in his room behind the locked door.

"What the shit is!" he then yelled at me, but I was so angry at everything myself that I didn't pay any attention to anything from him.

"What the fuck? I might as well ask you that!"

His facial expressions became ice cold and I watched his chest under the tight white shirt in fascination as it tightened more and more.

“So that's what it meant when you said you were bursting with anger.”

"Keeva! You can't dance around half-naked in front of other men and expect me to tolerate that!" he growled, about to grab my chin, but I quickly swatted his hand away and took a step back, so his eyes met me immediately stared even more angrily.

"But you can tolerate having your tail touched?!", I countered, so that he stood there speechless for a moment and ran both hands through his black hair, shaking his head.

"Is that what you're interested in??? There's a psycho standing in the middle of the golf course who wants to hurt you and you're lying in bed at night thinking about which women are getting on my cock?"

"Women!?" I repeated, stunned, and wanted to pass him to the door, but he suddenly grabbed my waist and pressed my back against the wall behind me.

Why did I think that was cool now? I must have been completely insane!

His eyes locked on mine, igniting a storm inside me, and before I knew it, his lips were storming mine as he slipped his hand into my hair and pressed me even tighter against the wall behind me.

The heat between my legs was becoming almost unbearable and longing for the high only he could give me, I wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed even tighter against him, feeling his already hard arousal against my abdomen.

I almost went mad with desire!

"I like it when you're jealous," he whispered in my ear and kissed down my neck, making me groan softly and close my eyes, surrendering completely to his guidance.

No wonder after such a day!

His hands found my bottom and without much effort he picked me up and immediately I was clutching him as I tenderly began to caress his neck while the scent of his perfume filled my nostrils and seemed to cloud everything in my mind.

The tension in the room was palpable!

"I want you," I begged, my voice shaking, and he immediately carried me over to the bed to lay me carefully on it.

He knelt between my legs, unbuckling his belt and looking at me with that expression that made everything inside me tremble.

He just looked at me like that and I loved it!

"You want me?" he breathed, getting up to get rid of his black dress pants before putting his hands on the buttons of his white shirt. "Then undress."

I didn't think twice, just did it and raised my upper body slightly to get rid of the spaghetti top. I didn't have to worry about my tight pajama pants, because he literally ripped them off me, so that I then lay completely naked and willingly under him, which made me look at him in fascination.

"You are just-"

"I know!" I cut off his compliments and, eager for his touch, pulled his neck down to tuck him between my legs while I sucked on his lips and he groaned in excitement...

I didn't want compliments! I wanted to forget for a moment!

RIAN POV.

I knew she needed me at that moment. She wanted to forget, repress and let me take her completely and of course I couldn't imagine anything better after this really turbulent day.

She willingly lay beneath me, her arms wrapped tightly around my neck and I closed my eyes in that moment to take in her sweet scent deeply.

Somehow slightly like peaches... That's how she smelled when I saw her for the first time.

I was pulled out of my thoughts by her soft lips sucking on mine and rose slightly to examine her closely, placing my hard erection right in the middle of her and making her blush again from my intense stares.

Her body trembled slightly beneath me and I just loved it. Loved watching her beautiful eyes during penetration. Loved how nervous she still seemed and I loved how her fingernails lightly scraped the skin of my back when I pushed her so hard she couldn't breathe.

"Come on," she breathed suddenly impatiently and I had to admit that I even liked it when she was so demanding, almost begging to feel me inside her.

With others I would never have allowed myself to succumb to any demands, but with her my heart suddenly started beating wildly at the feeling that she only wanted and needed me.

So while she kept pressing her pelvis against mine with a disappointed sigh and I watched her with a dirty grin, she suddenly grabbed my shoulders and pushed me off to the side so that I was now lying on my back and looking up at her in surprise.

"Do you really need it that much?" I laughed softly and despite her red face, she glared at me irritably and immediately sat down, legs apart, directly on my hips while I placed my hands on her waist and observed her perfect breasts.

"Shut up," she breathed, eyes closed, placing her hand on my hard cock to place it right at her center, making me gasp in anticipation.

Very slowly, breathing heavily, she lowered herself onto me and took my erection up to the stop, which caused me to close my eyes, moaning with pleasure.

She just felt incredible. This moist warmth, which caused me to feel an unprecedented tingling in my stomach, was so incredibly good that fucking with her almost became a drug for me.

But not only that...

She was so perfect too...

As she placed her hands on my chest and slowly and eagerly began to ride my cock, I stared at her in fascination, gripping her waist even tighter to move with her rhythm, penetrating deep into her over and over again let.

"Rian," she moaned softly, and when I opened my eyes again, looked up at her and bit my lip at the sight, she groaned and let her head fall back, clawing at her with her fingernails as she circled my breast.

"You're so horny," I blurted out as I got goosebumps all over my body and eager for her full lips, I raised my torso and placed my hands on her ass as she wrapped her arms around my neck and for completely stopped moving on my cock for a short time.

She looked deep into my eyes while I was deep inside her and suddenly there was a moment between us that completely overshadowed even the hot sex.

I put my hand on her warm cheek, breathing hard and she only breathed in gasps while she looked at me with her mouth slightly open and ran her fingers through my hair.

Would it be a good moment to tell her how I felt? Probably not...

My heart already knew. Already knew it since I caught her in the pool, but my mind still didn't want to accept that I could feel anything like love for a woman.

"Everything alright?", she breathed quietly and stroked my slightly sweaty neck while I looked at her thoughtfully and carefully pushed her off me.

Her questioning expression showed me only too well that she had absolutely no idea what was happening, but I was so upset with my feelings that I couldn't talk about it. At least not yet...

"Yes," I reassured her with a mild smile, laying myself between her legs to penetrate deep into her again.

She pulled me down the neck closer to her and as I slowly increased my pace, my heart beating faster and I grabbed her tightly to thrust deep into her again and again, she began to suck my lips very tenderly.

And then something changed in me...

I didn't want to just fuck her without mercy like usual. I wanted to feel her, to touch her, and even when I then ran my hand ever so gently down her side, causing goose bumps all over her body, it felt absolutely tingly under my fingertips, which then kind of scared me...

I didn't recognize myself at all!

So while I slowly pushed my cock between her warm walls and sucked her seductively on my lips, I thought about what the difference between fucking and making love was...

She made me into a guy who just had flower sex... Fuck!

I stared at her wide-eyed and she started to put her hands on my cheeks, but I grabbed her hands and got up, startled, pulling my cock out of her.

"Turn around," I then commanded as coldly as I could, and she frowned at me before willingly getting on all fours.

I immediately grabbed her hair and penetrated her with such force that she wanted to let her upper body sink, whimpering slightly, but I pulled her up to me so that her back hit my chest and she took a deep breath at this sudden hardness.

I knew she wanted that touchy-feeling now, but I couldn't, so I fucked her as hard and hard as I could, before long she dropped her head back onto my shoulder, shaking slightly moaning loudly, but I immediately put my hand over her mouth to silence her.

Her entire body tensed and after I pushed hard into her a few more times, her walls contracted so tightly around my cock that I, too, climaxed deep inside her and my entire body began to tremble.

She immediately yanked my hand from her mouth and gasped as I gripped her tightly, pressing her back even tighter to my chest.

"Rian?" she breathed suddenly, breathing heavily and I thought she would complain about my demanding nature, but when she turned around slightly with her mouth open and looked at me with her big brown eyes, I almost stayed mine racing heart stand .

"I love you!".