203 What's Missed is Already Missed

"Do you still miss him?"

"There's no point even if I miss him. There's only Chu Fei'er in his eyes, why would he care about me? There are certain things that are not mine, and no matter how I compete or pull tricks, it's no use. If I remain true to myself, only then can I have someone who belongs to me." Miao Zifu closed her eyes. Thinking of An Yexuan, her heart still ached.

Yun Bixue watched Miao Zifu in such a state and felt that time was an odd thing. In a trance, her university days felt like a distance away. In reality, they had merely graduated not that long ago, but it felt as long as half their lives. Perhaps it was because too many things had transpired since then.

Pursing her lips, Yun Bixue said, "Duan Qiushu is doing well nowadays. I heard that he set up a gaming company, and he's earning substantial profits. You shouldn't feel overly guilty."

Miao Zifu's eyes gleamed with guilt. She had previously been blinded by love and greed. Even though she was staying here because of Duan Qiushu, she didn't feel an ounce of hatred towards him. Within her heart, she couldn't even pick out any of his flaws. "He's always been great. He was kind, filial, and righteous, and also so talented. If it weren't for me, he would already be leading a wonderful life."

"He's been hard at work and has yet to find a girlfriend."

After hearing that, Miao Zifu's heart trembled. Clasping her hands together tightly, she paused momentarily before taking in a deep breath. "Bixue, you should know that what's missed is already missed. Human beings are always dissatisfied, they can possess someone but still wish for someone better. I didn't know how to cherish him, so I should no longer bear any wild wishes. He deserves better. No matter what, I won't disrupt his life anymore." She had begun to turn to Buddhism and had a fresh enlightenment on life and on relationships.

Yun Bixue also agreed with her words. It was similar to her treatment of Su Lenghan—after letting him slip away, she no longer had those feelings. She only felt sentimental.

Yun Bixue smiled at Miao Zifu. "Miao Zifu, this is the you that I know, the you from our earliest days." It was such a strange occurrence. Several years had passed, and the two of them could still converse in such a calm and tranquil manner.

Miao Zifu's heart trembled and she smiled too. With tears welling in her eyes, she said, "Bixue, I have done you wrong. I'm just happy that you're treating me like this." It was only at your most desolate and hopeless moments that you discover who treats you best, and which friends that you should cherish the most. Recalling all the things that she had done in the past, she was rather regretful.

Looking at Miao Zifu, Yun Bixue couldn't bear to hate her. "I heard that your performance inside is great and you can be released soon. Do you have any plans?"

"I want to travel everywhere and also find my younger brother."

Yun Bixue laughed lightly, "Do you still remember me telling you that I have some leads on your younger brother? Do you want to meet him?"

Miao Zifu shot up and exclaimed excitedly, "Did you really, really help me find my younger brother?" At that moment, fervor surged through her, and she felt a tinge of hope amidst her desolation.

Yun Bixue nodded. "It's already been confirmed. The data is accurate." She then spoke to the person behind the door, "Why aren't you coming in?"

Zhou Zinan stared wide-eyed at Miao Zifu. His face revealed a hint of bashfulness and disbelief.

"Is that Zinan?"

Zhou Zinan also felt rather joyful. Hesitating, he called, "Elder Sister."

"Younger Brother!" As she spoke, Miao Zifu embraced Zhou Zinan with one swift movement. She bawled, "Where have you been all these years? I couldn't find you no matter how long I searched…"

Yun Bixue left, leaving the room to the sister and brother.

She sat quietly outside. The weeping inside wouldn't stop and she felt emotional listening to it. She also missed her own blood-related younger sister. The relationship between Ning An City and the Yun family was complicated, and thus she and her grandfather had sent her younger sister overseas to pursue her studies. In order to protect her, they had little contact.