Led by anger

Vanessa’s pov,

I was still fuming the whole way back home. I was angry not only at Colin for tricking me like that but also at Spirit. She went against me with total disregard for my feelings.

“I told you I did not want to be claimed!” I snarled at her.

Spirit sounded just as angry as I felt, “You ruined our only chance to be with our mate! How can you still think of that human if our werewolf mate stands in front of us? You should be intoxicated just by his scent. You are a disgrace choosing a human over your own kind!”

I growled, “It is not about Duke! I don’t want to be someone’s property.”

Spirit huffed, “You keep lying to yourself if you want. We both know it is about Duke. No sane werewolf would reject the mate bond. If you want to be so independent and know everything so well then be my guest. I won’t help you anymore until you see reason.”

“Come on Spirit don’t be such a mule. We can work this out.”

But all I got back was silence.

When I arrived home, Julietta was already waiting for me. She noticed the flaming rage in my eyes and quickly took me to my office. I told her what Colin had done and she looked at me with a stunned expression on her face.

“Wow what a loser. Being so cocky and then that is his way to win over your heart? Pathetic.”

I laughed and we made fun of Colin for a while, but it did not help to cool down the anger I felt inside of me. Who did he think he was? Having the audacity to want to claim me and create a conflict between myself and my wolf. What I needed now was to be in control and forget about the last couple of days. I stared at Julietta who was only wearing a skirt and a tight blouse. Her breasts were so tightly squeezed that the buttons of her blouse seemed to explode at any moment.

I walked to the desk and shoved all the papers off with one swift movement. Julietta looked at me wide-eyed and asked, “What are you doing?”

I growled, “Lay down.”

Julietta hesitated for a moment before her eyes darkened when she understood what I wanted. She laid down on the desk and watched as I ripped open her blouse and pushed her skirt upwards, exposing her caramel-colored skin. A shiver went through her body when she saw my eyes were lighted with desire. I lowered my head between her legs tracing a path with my mouth and tongue. I bit her gently on her upper thigh enjoying the surprised moan that escaped Julietta’s lips.

I kissed her higher and higher until my mouth was against her damp panties. I softly wrapped the material between my teeth and pulled it out of the way. Breathing the scent of Julietta’s arousal, letting it wrap around my senses. I softly opened up her lips with my finger making Julietta gasp from the light touch. I looked up straight into her eyes as I leaped forward and pressed my tongue against the tight bundle of nerves that made her arch her back in desire. Stroking it in a rhythm that made Julietta roll her hips and panting my name. My body was tight from arousal as her tights trembled around my head. I thrusted a finger inside her wet entrance and listened to her moans turn into pants as I moved my tongue faster. I could feel the pressure inside her building as I slid in another finger and pressed against her sensitive spot from both sides. I brought my other hand up, gently playing with her breast.

“I am going to come,” Julietta gasped, and I worked my fingers faster as I ravished her clit. Julietta moaned loudly her fingers clenched in my hair as the orgasm crashed over her. I removed my fingers looking at Julietta riding out the waves of her orgasm until she was left breathless.

I thought that pleasuring Julietta and being in control would take the edge off my anger. But it still remained and somehow, I felt guilty on top of it. This was ridiculous because I was single and I did not owe anyone my loyalty, especially Colin. But somehow the feeling lingered and I found it hard to concentrate on talking with Julietta afterward. I did not even remember what we talked about and when she went home. Somehow, I made a mess of my life in a matter of days. Making stupid decision after stupid decision. I cared for Julietta deeply but I was not in love with her so it was just plain stupid to get physical and give her hope. She said no strings attached but when was that ever true?

Besides I never even dealt properly with the broken heart Duke gave me and now I already had another man fighting for the pieces that were left. Making fun of him with Julietta had also felt wrong in a way. Honestly, it was a huge mess and without Spirit her advice I had no idea what to do with it. Maybe Elswith could offer me some wisdom?

I walked to Elswith her home through the dark of the night feeling the cold air ripping at my clothes. When I knocked the door it already opened again, revealing Elswith sitting at the table ready with some tea.

She patiently waited for me to speak while I blew against the hot damp rising from my cup.

“You probably know that I found my mate. I just don’t understand how someone like him can be my mate. Someone so arrogant and full of himself how is that a good match for me?”

Elswith stared at me in a way that made me feel like she knew every single thing I had done. Making my cheeks flush as embarrassment piled over me.

When she finally spoke, she said, “I don’t have a clear answer for you as to why Colin is your mate. All I can tell you is that the Moon Goddess intertwines 2 souls for a good reason. Even if that reason has not revealed itself yet doesn’t mean it won’t in the future. The mate bond is the most special bond there is whether that is because your personalities are such a great match or because you will need each other to fulfill your destinies.”