no more denying

Vanessa’s pov,

That night I decided to go for a walk under the stars. I felt confused, and I needed to clear my head. Hopefully, the cold night air would help with that. Ever since the marking, my head felt a bit scrambled. Colin had some typical traits of an Alpha asshole that I usually despised. He was arrogant, cocky, and everything that came with it, but over the last weeks, I had also seen another side. He was also fair, honest, smart, and loyal to his family. The way he treated everyone in his pack as equals and the troubles with his siblings showed me that. He was respected and feared but in a totally different way than the other Alphas I met. He treated me with respect, and he wasn’t scared to tell me how he felt. Besides that, he was also very handsome and only a look in my direction could make me weak in the knees. I sighed as I looked at the clear, dark sky above me.

“Spirit?” I asked.

“Yes?” She answered eagerly like she already knew exactly what I was about to say.

“I think I am falling in love with Colin.”

I swear I could feel her roll her eyes at me when she howled, “Thank goodness that took you long enough to admit. Now you can finally accept the mate bond.”

I grinned at her impatience, “I will, but now is not the right moment. I need my mind sharp, and god knows what will happen when I accept the mate bond. I can’t have any distractions when we go to Russia. If I make the slightest mistake, everything would have been for nothing. No, I will tell Colin that I accept the mate bond when we have defeated Vlad.”

Spirit grunted, annoyed, “We have waited this long what is an extra couple of days?”

I turned around to walk back to the mansion, and it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. It had been quite exhausting to fight the attraction between him and me and part of me couldn’t wait to tell him. But first, we had a party tomorrow and after that, some very important days would follow. Fate would be decided that day not just for me but for many more. I could only hope that all my preparations would lead up to a good outcome. Just thinking about it made my body full of adrenaline, so I decided to go for a run in wolf form instead of sleeping. Spirit ran for hours over the Irish hills until the sun came up, and we had to return for the feast.

The house was covered in green decorations, and I already heard violin music playing from the speakers. I quickly changed into a green corset with a green silk skirt, and when I came back, the house was loaded with pack members. I was surrounded by green leprechauns and fairies. The happy atmosphere immediately struck me, and I laughed loudly when Annie grabbed my hand for a dance. The rest of the day I danced, ate, and laughed until my body could no longer stand straight up. When the night fell the guests started to leave and I went into the living room to sit next to Colin who was sitting by the fireplace.

He smiled at me and said, “Seemed like you enjoyed yourself today.”

I rested my head on his shoulder and sighed happily, “I did.”

Colin kissed my head, “You know everyone left by now. It is just my family left so you no longer have to pretend that you have affection for me. You can relax now lass.”

I lifted my head and looked deep into his eyes, “I am not pretending Colin.”

His eyes lit up like a storm, I could see lots of emotions going through his mind. My heart was beating loudly while I just waited for him to say something back. His eyes went soft, and his gaze went from my lips back to my eyes. The air was buzzing with electricity while he softly brushed my lips with his thumb.

“I thought you would never say it,” he whispered hoarsely before he took my chin and lifted my head so he could press his lips on mine. We kissed before but this time it felt different. I felt safe and warm while my stomach was tingling with excitement at the same time. I threw my arms around his neck and pressed my body against his. I needed to be as close to him as possible, my body was aching with an irresistible force that pulled me against him.

His hands went through my hair, and I needed all my restraint to pull myself back so that I wouldn’t jump him while everyone was watching. I looked around the room panting loudly and noticed immediately that everyone had left, and the doors were closed. Seemed that they got the message before we did. Colin noticed the empty room as well and his gaze immediately landed on me again. He watched me with a hungry stare, his eyes filled with lust.

I did not need any more encouragement and ripped off his clothes as fast as I could. Colin did the same to me and then carefully laid me down on a blanket in front of the fireplace. The fire was crackling loudly symbolizing our burning passion for each other. Normally he was very dominant during sex but this time the mood between us was different. My skin felt like it was on fire in a good way when he left a trail of kisses. He left no place untouched, and it was like he was everywhere at once. My breasts, my thighs, and my neck all shivered under the touch of his hands and mouth. I moaned softly when he entered me slowly and started to move his hips. I grabbed his face and kissed him passionately, tasting him while his scent clouded my mind.

I thought about nothing else than him inside me making my body tingle with every thrust. Our bodies seemed to blend together in perfect harmony, and I grabbed his butt urging him to go faster. He picked up the pace and looked deep into my eyes. His voice was low and hoarse when he said, “I fucking love you, Vanessa.”

I stared back at him and whispered, “I love you too.” Before pressing my lips on his again and losing myself to the growing tension and electricity flowing through my whole body. Colin started to moan as the thrusts became deeper and harder. Sweat dripped off his back as I pulled him closer and moved my hips faster against his. The tension was building with every movement, and I arched my back and moaned his name when we finally exploded together. I closed my eyelids and light flashed behind my eyes as I rode down the feeling of ecstasy that came in waves. When I finally opened my eyes again, Colin was already staring at me lovingly. I smiled and softly pressed my lips against his and in that moment nothing else seemed to matter.