HE HAS A SON?

Chapter 38

TWO HOURS

It has been two hours of me crying nonstop after hearing that shocking revelation, it wouldn’t have bothered me if I have no feelings for Aziz, but I do. And it hurts to know he had loved someone before, to the point of thinking of marriage with her yet he insists that nothing of that such should happen between us.

And it was all my fault, I shouldn’t have fallen for his charm and let him have me whichever way he can, I should have respected our boundary and not crossed that line with him. Should have never admitted my attraction to him.

I couldn’t blame him, I was the one who offered myself to him on a platter of gold. I had let him think of me as a sex object so he never saw any other thing when he looked at me apart from sex and he would never see any other thing.

The expression on his face when I told him not to touch me flashed through my memory and I chuckled darkly, he only felt hurt because he would lose a good and obedient fuck buddy, he has no feelings for me so he wouldn’t even feel remorseful that he would lose me.

I should have seen all the signs, he didn't say I was the only one he had ever been with, in fact, he had told me he won't sleep with me until I admit my attraction to him. I could recall Aziz telling me he never sleeps with a woman who isn't attracted to him and he had made me admit and accept what I was feeling before he let me have his cock inside me.

Now that I think back on it, I realized I didn't have a real relationship with him, they were just fuck buddies who didn't bother to know personal stuff about each other except sleeping around. I had underestimated my heart, thinking I would not fall in love with him because he is my stepbrother and all we have going for us was just sex.

I forgot about the fact that he might have been my stepbrother, but he is also a man… a desirable one at that. How did I think we would be more than just fuck buddies to each other? How didn't I see that Aziz has no feeling for me than the feeling of lust?

“Ma'am,” Tessa called, pulling me out of my thoughts. I looked at her PA's face and smiled sadly.

I decided to come to work and not let either Aziz or his bitch called girlfriend to ruin my mood or my career, but I need no soothsayer to tell me that there are trails of tears on my cheek. I just couldn’t stop crying after Aziz told me in his words that he loved and wanted to marry her.

My heart wouldn’t stop aching…

“Don't tell me you believe what that crappy woman told you? Who to say she isn't lying for all it's worth? You know how desperate this so-called crush can be, they can go out of their way to make up things that aren’t even real just to have that one person they desire.”

I chuckled at Tessa’s words… if only she knew how true that woman's words were, she wouldn’t be trying to defend Aziz so much right now… but she didn’t know.

If Aziz hadn’t confessed his feeling for Lena this morning, she probably would have believed everything Tessa is telling her and accepted that it was all the plot of an addicted crush who is only trying to push her and Aziz apart, but then the logical part of her brain had kicked in after Lena left her company yesterday, the question that she knew were true dancing around her head.

‘How did Lena know who to come to if she isn't telling the truth? How did she know that I and Aziz are screwing each other in the first place?’

All these were enough to prove to me that all I thought were real was actually fake. When I started to fall for him, I began to put some things in place so we could have a good future but it seems that was impossible now.

“I need to be alone,” I whispered to Tessa, who nodded her head and walked out of the office leaving me alone to my thoughts.

This is it! What I was so afraid of when I refused to have a deep relationship with any man… Heartbreaks. Call me crazy and stupid but right this moment, I crave his touch and that soothing voice of his.

Now I understand why I was addicted to him, why I always wanted to feel him inside me every single day. Why I couldn’t get enough of him… it was because I was fucking in love with him.

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“Who brought you to California?” Aziz stormed into Lena’s hotel, grabbed her, and slammed her hard against the wall. “Who the fuck told you where to find me?” he yelled.

Lena smiled at him and tried to wrap her hands around him but he hits her hard against the wall, her back aching at the pressure.

“I can’t believe you are doing all of this for a girl you have no feeling for,” she smirked at him and tried to get out of his grip. Her action enraged Aziz and he grabbed her neck, squeezing it hard.

“You should also know that I can destroy things that want to be a hindrance to me getting what I want, right?” he pinned her with his feverish gaze. “I have broken all ties with you for more than five years now, so I want you to crawl back to whatever god-forsaken hell hole you came from. I want you to disappear before I am forced to kill you with my hand just like I have always dreamt to do.”

“I can’t do that babe,” she placed her palm against his chest, trying to irk him up but he caught her hand and shoved it off.

“Do you want to really die then?”

“When we break things off back then, I thought that was all and I wasn’t going to ever see you again but then I started getting sick, so I went for a test-”

“And?” Aziz was so done with her shit.

“Your son is four years and ten months old,” she smirked.

“WHAT!!”