Devirginized

I slammed my hands on the table as I sat down. People didn’t bother to look at me for sure, they’re busy in their own lives. We’re at the cafeteria, it’s lunch break. I always love the bell for saving me from anything in class but now I want to kiss it to save me from shame.

Alta glanced at me. “Oh what happened?”

I sighed heavily then threw my head back while closing my eyes.

I will fucking fucky kiss the bell later after this!

“Hey! Steia! You left me!” she screamed.

Why does he have to shout when we’re just side by side?

I open my right eye to gaze at her. “That came right away! You didn’t wait for me anymore!” she said then sigh.

I closed my eyes again and remained silent. I need to calm down and think for a minute. What happened in the room went so fast.

“Hey, what happened? You look gloomy.” Her voice is more calm now.

I sighed heavily before lifting my head. “I was laughed at in the room earlier.” Her eyes furrowed.

“Huh why?” She opened the bag of chips on her hands and put a chip on her mouth while staring at me, waiting for my answer.

My shoulders slump as I rest it in the back of the chair. “I told them about what I saw last night,”

I heard her sigh. “Tsk! Why did you say that?”

“It’s for my presentation… And I needed to say it but they didn’t believe me,” I said while burying my face in my palms.

“You shouldn’t have said that, you know … Other people don’t believe that … To me, it’s okay for you to say,”

I removed my face from the palm of my hand and turned to look at him. “But you laughed at me too!” I said with a thin voice.

“Yes, but you’re not ashamed that I laughed at you, because I know why you’re like that, unlike them.”

“We want vampires even if we’re not sure if they’re real. I accept that you’re like that because I’m like that too. I know that, but you shouldn’t tell them because they’re not open -minded about it and they’re not receptive. They can’t understand us so when you really laugh,” he said softly.

I sighed heavily again. Alta has a point but I couldn’t get my mind off it.

Especially with the man who caused me to be embarrassed earlier. Only now have I actually seen his face in my four years here at Colmillos University. I wandered around here at school, there was no place or building I hadn’t been to. So why does that man seem to suddenly appear somewhere?

My eyes landed on him as he strolled down the cafeteria. His hands are in his jacket pockets.

He stopped slightly, he stood straight and it was as if his every move seemed to be calculated. I glanced at him. Its face was serious as it started somewhere.

Now that he was standing I noticed his body more. If I stand next to him I will look small because I am sure he is taller than me even though I am also tall.

It looks like he’s into physical activities or maybe gym? I don’t know but maybe one of the two choices, because of his buff body. He is wearing a baggy jacket but I can tell that his body is used without seeing it or even taking his clothes off.

Fucky! What am I saying?

Maybe it’s because of the embarrassment he gave me so this is how I think. I turned my gaze back to her. He was wearing school pants. My eyes went back to his face that I can no longer see now because he has turned his back in my direction.

He stretched his neck, making me see his pale skin. Hmm … He’s really pale huh? I didn’t notice it while observing his face a while ago, maybe because I thought that he just had really fair skin.

He even beat me! I immediately remembered that I had a few scars on my leg because I like to be bitten by mosquitoes when I go out to roam every night.

“Do you know him?” I asked Alta while not taking my gaze away from her.

“Huh? Who?”

“Is it Leo? Yes, that’s Mandy’s friend, my classmate in a subject.”

“No, not him.” I know Leo and that’s not this man. I turned to Alta who was narrowing her eyes to find what I was referring to. I would have pointed in the direction of where the man was of that disappearance.

My right eyebrow was raised. Where is that? Why suddenly disappear?

“Who is it? You know my eyes can read!”

“Suddenly it’s gone.” I wondered as I rolled my eyes all over the place. How fast does it disappear? I didn’t even have a minute to look at Alta!

“Who’s that? Crush you?” He said with a smile.

My forehead furrowed at what he said.

“Fucky, no!” I can’t seem to like that man. Yes, he is handsome and looks delicious but don’t. He embarrassed me so much in the room earlier.

What if I love reading novels? There is nothing wrong with that ah? Maybe I’m overly fond of vampires but it’s not right for him to really talk to me with humiliation!

“Then who?”

“Your man embarrassed me in the room.” My answer.

“Really ?! You’re embarrassed ?! It’s like the other way around… You’re the one who’s embarrassed ah? What happened to the power of your red hair?” It even touched the end of my shoulder length hair.

I took another deep breath before he answered. “I don’t know, it’s annoying because I haven’t even defended myself, I can’t get a rebate! That man is fucky! I hope he’s handsome!”

Alta’s eyes widened. “Are you referring to Antonio?” he asked.

I shook my head. “No.”

He shook his head. His right eyebrow also rose. “I don’t want one to unite the handsome in your class so just tell me.”

“I don’t even know his name.”

“Do you have a handsome classmate? Really? What’s new?” He wondered the question.

“I don’t know. We’ve been here at school for four years but I’ve never seen that face. Even in our previous class. It’s not really familiar… So maybe it’s new.”

But if he’s new, why do my classmates seem to know him?

“Then there’s two new transferees in our school now,” Alta stated.

My eyes narrowed at her. “She embarrassed you then Bella girl.”

I raised my right eyebrow at her. “Bella girl?” She nodded.

“Yes. You look like Kristen Stuart who performed as Bella in twilight.”

“I know that, Alta.” I rolled my eyes at her.

“So she’s a transferee huh?”

“Duh, Steia I just said! You’re so fucky!” She said in disgust.

“Stop that Alta, it’s none of your business!” I said.

“Why can only you say fucky ?!”

“Oh fucky yes!” I laughed.

My day passed by so fast and now I’m just here in our house in my room reading a book, as I usually do. But my eyes are kind of dry now and sleepy so I don’t know what I should do. The only thing I’m sure of is, I don’t want to sleep yet. I closed my eyes for a while.

“Ugh! Yes!” He thrust faster as I scratch on his sexy back.

“That’s it! Ugh! More…”

“Fuck!” He cussed as he looked at our bodies intertwined with each other. His neck is a red now so as his eyes that makes me more wet. Those red piercing fucky eyes!

I stretched my neck so he could see it. He dived in and kissed it while nibbling it a little.

“Come on, baby… Harder!”

He did it as I told him to do. He pushed me on the bed harder. I heard the crack of it but he did mind it. He keeps on thrusting inside me. “Ugh! It stings! I love it! Fucky! Oh!”

“Harder please! Break my bones! Ugh!”

“Ahh!” I screamed as I felt my bone break.

I sighed when I woke up from sleep. Fucky! That’s my dream again! My clothes were wet, my sweat was dripping from my forehead down to my neck.

My room is air conditioned but I sweat a lot. I look down at the middle of my thigh. I can feel the sticky liquid there. It’s not just my wet clothes but my femininity.

Fucky! My dreams are getting worse now, since I saw vampires in the forest.

My sexual urge is getting hotter and intense now. It’s becoming more common.

Fucky!

What is happening to me? I know that I promised myself that I will give my purity to a vampire that’s why I’m still a virgin now but… Fucky! I don’t even know if I’m gonna lose it or I’ll die a virgin!

Fucky no! So maybe my body hurts because my femininity feels like she’s about to be destroyed by vampire masculinity! It knew I had seen a real vampire! That will excite children to be destroyed!

Fucky!

If so, maybe what I saw? I need to find out more if it’s true because I don’t think such things will stop happening to me until I get married to a vampire.

I don’t know if I will blame myself for promising to have sex with a vampire. Now I am falling behind in many years of experience. Somehow I still know how because of porn and what I read.

I got out of bed and looked at my reflection in the mirror. My hair is messy and my forehead is sweaty. I couldn’t help but caress the hair. I need to color it again because it’s black again, which means my hair is getting longer.

Fucky! I didn’t remove my contact lens! I immediately removed it from the eye. Fucky! Fortunately, I wasn’t blinded or anything! I heard that when you were using the contact lens, he fell asleep without removing it, the contact lens rotated behind the eye and remained there.

Fucky! Thank goodness!

My eyes are not blurred, in fact they are very clear. I stared into my eyes, something entered my mind but I immediately removed it. I shook my head and took a deep breath.

Fucky no. I don’t want to be remembered, the unit won’t stop me from those memories. I turned away from the mirror and rolled my eyes across the room.

My forehead furrowed at what I saw under the bed. I picked up that protruding thing. I stared for a long time at this square object.

It’s my painting from when I was a kid. I put it beside my bed table. I kneel down again and delve under my bed. When I saw it I reached for it.

I took a white postcard that was in my belongings, after all I didn’t have anything else to use so it was just for my class. The contents of my paintings are small, some are dry but still possible.

Maybe there’s nothing wrong with trying again?

I laid them on the floor, I was just about to start painting when there was a knock on my door.

“Adra!” I turned there.

“Adrasteia! Open this door!”

“Why me?” I asked to open it. His clothes were torn when I saw that they were not well worn, he was obviously in a hurry.

“What happened? I heard moans and screams in here.” He promised. I felt the heat creep up on my face.

It’s because of my fucky wet dreams! Is my voice so loud? Did I moan while sleeping ?! Fucky!

“N-nightmare, Mom.” I stammered.

I looked down because of embarrassment. “You’re painting again?”

I lift my head up and look at her, she’s staring at my things on the floor, her eyebrows are furrowed. My heart pounded inside my chest and my hands started to shake.

Fucky!

I close my eyes tightly. I looked back at him who was now staring at me. I already know that stare.

“What did I tell you about painting, Adrasteia?” she said seriously.

I looked away then turned my eyes back at her.

“I know, Mom,” I said softly.

His face was clear. “Throw those away. He lets you do whatever you want, just don’t do that.”

I took a deep breath. I turned over the painting tools.

“Adra darling…” her voice was soft.

“I know, Ma.”

I gaze at her. She’s smiling sweetly at me. I felt her warm arms wrapped around me as she hugged me. “Go to sleep after throwing all of that okay?”

She pulled away. I nodded. She stared at me for a minute. “I love you, Adra.” She kissed me on the forehead then smiled at me again.

“I love you too, Mom.” All I can give her is a bitter smile even if I meant what I said.

She’s out of my room now.

My eyes darted on my painting years ago. That is the reason why I’m so drawn into novels and vampires now. Maybe if I didn’t quit painting before I wouldn’t know about Edward Cullen.

Fucky, that’s so miserable if that thing ever happened. I don’t want to be a plain girl after all. Maybe everything has a reason. So there’s a reason why I’m so into vampires?

Maybe.

I felt the hot liquid in my womanhood again! Fucky! Why is this? I don’t even think it’s dirty! I just mentioned the ‘vampire’ was heating me up.

Fucky! I really need to be devirginized by a vampire now.