Chapter 21

ADRIA'S POV:

"I am sorry my angle. Don't be scared, please. I am sorry for whatever I did to you earlier. We will get married soon and I promise you that I will treat you like my queen. Cause you ARE my queen, baby"

A whole week passed but his words were still echoing in my mind like they were said just now.

After breaking almost everything in the room and declaring that I am gonna get married to him Austin hugged me and whispered those words in my ears. After that, he kissed me passionately and we slept hugging each other.

Since then Austin has been EXTRA sweet to me.

Honestly, this guy confuses me to no end. One moment he is all sweet and lovey-dovey with me and the other he behaves like the Satan he used to be.

Yes, I said "he used to be" cause it is the truth. He changed, a lot I must add. The man who whipped me till I bleed is gone and the one who is with me is someone new. Someone with emotions.

I have seen Austin restraining himself many times. It's like he is working on himself, trying to control his anger. And it's noticeable. He even managed to stay calm many times when I asked him why he wants to marry me.

Obviously, he did not answer. Instead, I was been bombarded with different questions like, 'Why? Am I not good enough for you?', 'Do you still hope that I will let you go?', 'Are you still dreaming about marrying that pathetic EX- boyfriend of yours', and many more.

The anger in his eyes was too much. His fists were balled up and the veins of his temple were almost popping out. Yet he did not harm me. And that felt strange.

As I said he is been extra sweet and caring too. And I love this side of his.

Wait! What did I say just now? Love? LOL.

How could I even use that word? I mean I like him when he is nice with me, I like the way he makes me feel when he is around me, I like his touches, his kisses, I like the way he speaks, I like the way he looks, I like the way he smiles but this is not love..... Right?

No, it cant be love cause it is wrong. Even me liking him is wrong. I cannot like him, I cannot feel positive towards him. I have a boyfriend, a boyfriend I love and care. And I cannot like him because he destroyed my life, hurt my father, took away my freedom. He destroyed me and my family.

I cannot like him...

It's wrong..

He is the enemy...

He is bad....

He is Satan...

He hurt me...

He... He... Fuck! No matter how much I keep reminding myself I cannot bring my heart to hate him. It's like my heart cannot stop itself from getting attracted to him.

I don't know what to name my feelings as but all I know is that it feels weird. When Austin is close to me I feel weird in my belly, my breathing becomes fast and my thoughts foggy.

His one touch is enough to make my legs turn into jelly and my panties wet. Damn! he is hot. What am I thinking again?

Well, he is hot but still.

Fuck! now you guys know how fucked up and confused my thoughts are. And this is what I am dealing with since god knows how many days.

I was brought out of my thoughts when the door of the room opened.

"Hey", Austin entered the room and sat beside me on the bed.

"Hii", I said shyly looking down to which he just let out a chuckle.

The next thing I know is, I was lifted up easily and made to sit on his lap. Austin pulled on the end of my ponytail gently so as to arc my neck and place small kisses all over my jaw.

"I remember you were all feisty and wild when you first came here and I somewhere liked that fire in you. I hate that I am the reason that you are so broken now. I am sorry. I was just afraid to lose you. Afraid to lose my love again", he said still kissing my neck.

I was shocked, did he just say that he loves me?

"Yes baby, I love you. I admit that I took you caused you looked like her but I love you for who you are. I love your innocence, your smile, your childish attitude, your craziness, in short, I love everything about you. Even the fact that you cant cook", he chuckled and kissed the corner of my lips. "I love you. And that's want to marry you", he said looking straight into my eyes.

I just looked down. I was damn confused.

"Say something", he said but I stayed quiet not knowing what to say. What the hell is happening? What made him change? What made him love me?

"You kept asking me why I want to marry you. Now I gave the answer. So please say something", he said and lifted my head up and made me look in his eyes.

Sincerity and love, his eyes screamed these two emotions.

"I.. I don't know what to say", I replied honestly.

"I understand. There is no need to say anything right now', he said while moving a strand of hair behind my ear. "But I promise you. I will show you how much I love you. I will show you how much I care. I broke you and I promise to fix you. I will bring your old self back"

As soon as he finished talking he smashed his lips on mine. His lips were warm and soft, they felt so good against mine.

The kiss was enough to make me forget everything. Now the only thing in my mind was Austin, his touch and his lips.

Suddenly he pulled back leaving me all needy.

"Asshole", the word was out of my mouth before I even knew. Austin's expression changed. His angry young man look was back again and that was enough to scare me shitless.

I tried to get up from his lap but his hold on me tightened. I was shaking by now.

"I.. I am so..sorry", I shuddered.

His expression changed immediately. And what he did next was fucking unbelievable. Austin fell back on the bed and started laughing like an idiot.

he pulled me along with him so now I was startling him while he laid under me, still laughing loudly.

Damn! if he is handsome always I cannot even define how good he looks while he is laughing. His eyes almost closed, his white teeth on full display and his face held a shine. Something which reminded me of children. Innocent and pure.

"God! your expressions were so funny", he said still laughing. But I was dazed. He was the most beautiful creature god might ever have created. I was staring at him continuously to even realized that he has stopped laughing and now was staring back at me and within seconds I was under him.

His lips landed on mine as he kissed me passionately. The kiss was enough to put my whole body on fire.

My hands automatically travelled to the buttons of his shirt but he stopped me.

"Not now, kitten. Trust me all I want to do right now is rip that dress off your body and fuck you senseless. But no. I have said you some disrespectful words. I want to repay my mistake and make you feel special. We won't fuck. We will make love, on our marriage night I will worship your body and tell you that you are not a mistress you are my angel, my love, you are special", with that he kissed me again.