Chapter 44

Ashton

"I was running from Luciano," I said to Lautner causing him to frow at me. For some reason, I was feeling nervous at this moment. I was still hugging Lautner's body tightly, afraid of drowning.

"What?" Lautner asked in confusion.

"You asked me why I'm here and who are those people chasing me and Mason. Luciano was after me, those people chasing us is his assassin." I responded to Lautner and took a deep breath. After he told me about his experiences since their dad enlisted them in the army, until his love story with Aiden, it was as if someone was whispering to me to tell him my story as well.

"But why would Luciano's after you? Did you do something he doesn't like?" Lautner asked and I nodded softly in confirmation of his presumption.

"It's a long story but to cut it short, Luciano bought me from the auction and he trained me to be one of his assassins. I manage to escape from him and I don't have plans of coming back, Luciano treats me well but I'm scared that one day, I'll end up just like his assassin's. I don't know but I think I will kill myself if one day someone dies because of me." I told Lautner in a raspy voice because I couldn't help but be emotional as I told him what I went through when I was inside Luciano's yacht.

"Don't worry, Ashy, I know that Mason will do everything to help you and I'm also here, I'll help you too," Lautner said and smiled at me, I couldn't help but smile at him too.

"Thanks, Lautner," I said sincerely and leaned my head on his shoulder.

"Let's go to the tent, it's getting cold out here," Lautner said after a few minutes. I just nodded to him and clung behind him as he started to swim towards the edge of the pond.

I hugged myself because when the cold breeze caresses my body as Lautner and I walked towards our tent. We caught Mason inside the tent who was still drinking and when he saw us entering the tent he suddenly raised his eyebrows at us.

"Did you have fun fucking him, bro?" Mason asked sarcastically, he was a bit drunk based on the tone of his voice and his body was staggering even though he was just sitting.

"We didn't do anything, bro, relax your balls," Lautner replied and pulled a towel out of the bag and threw one of the towels in my direction that I catch immediately.

"Bullshít! It took you twenty minutes before you showed up here. What did you do? Stare at each other? Huh!" Mason said and laughed sarcastically, I just looked at Mason in disbelief as I start to wipe my wet body.

"You're drunk, bro," Lautner said and snatched the bottle that Mason was holding causing Mason to look at him like Mason's about to kill someone, if only looks can kill, Lautner would probably be dead right now.

"Give. It. Back." Mason ordered with a clenched jaw and tried to snatch the bottle from Lautner, but Lautner backed away quickly so Mason failed to snatch the bottle making him more pissed off than earlier.

"You're drunk, bro," Lautner said again and laid down the bottle he was holding on the side and started wiping his body.

"You're bullshít! Everyone's bullshít, I just want to be happy, I just want to feel like someone cares about me." Mason said suddenly and started crying causing Lautner and me to stop wiping our wet bodies and stare at him with a confused face.

"God! This is why I don't want you to get drunk, you're getting emotional." Lautner's comment.

"I don't want to be in this place anymore, I wanna go to another country, I want to get wasted with someone whom I love. We will be walking in an empty street, holding each other's hand, there will be a deafening silence around us to the point where we can hear our heartbeats. Do you also yearn for that, Ashton? " Mason said and tried to stand up but he staggered causing him to fall on the bedsheets.

I suddenly thought of what Mason had said. I don't know but I felt my chest tightened. I don't want to admit it but I know what Mason is feeling right now.

At some point in our life, we all want to meet someone we will love wholeheartedly. I even got to the point where I created an alter account on Twitter, hoping that I would find the right person for me there, the person who will relieve all the pain I'm feeling by just looking at his smile.

"I don't know, Mason," I replied to Mason in a weak voice, I don't know if he can still hear me since he passed out.

"I just want to be with someone I love." Mason murmur like a child, his eyes were already closed but I could see tears dripping from his eyes. I don't know if it was just because Mason was drunk hence he's acting like this or maybe that was what he truly feels.

Like me, he also yearns to find the person he will love and will love him no matter what.

My heart beat faster, I don't know but it feels like there is a heavyweight inside my chest. It was so heavy that I want to explode because of these inexplicable emotions inside me. When I could no longer bear it I turned my back on Mason and Lautner and went out of the tent, wrapping the towel around my body. I went to the lake and closed my eyes, the moment I closed my eyes, my tears slowly drip down my cheeks.

I can't help it, I placed my hand around my chest and gently rub it in hopes to ease the pain in my heart.

I suddenly burst into tears. I can't even explain why I'm crying now, it's just that my heart is so fucking heavy, and crying is the only way I know to somehow alleviate the pain I'm feeling right now.

"Are you okay, Ashy?" Lautner suddenly asked, I was busy crying my heart out that I didn't even notice that he was already standing behind me.

I shook my head.

"I'm not o-okay, Lautner." I boldly confessed to him and burst into tears, Lautner walked towards my direction and hugged me gently.

"I miss him, I miss him so much. I know I shouldn't be feeling this way, he sold me to a dangerous man. I should despise him, loathe him, abhor him for what he did to me." I said to Lautner and cry on his shoulder as he caressed my back.

"But after all those shitty things he did to me, I still want to come back to him. I still want to be home."