Guilty Pleasure V
Fuck this guilty pleasure. I’m here, acting like a complete thirsty woman who begs for his kisses and touch without actually saying it. By my actions, it seems like I’m initiating it all.
I can feel our body heating up. My hands couldn’t find whatever it was looking for. My naughty hands just managed to grasp his hair because of too much tension going on.
”Please,”
I’m not sure if that’s supposed to be a moan or a pleading. He’s drunk, I know. But he’s acting sane while I was the one who’s acting more drunk than him.
I reached for my cardigan and tried to remove it from my body without breaking our kiss. When I was half way there I felt him stop. I opened my eyes and stared at him confusedly while he rested his forehead into mine.
”W-why…” I couldn’t continue.
He’s panting heavily. He touched my cardigan and fixed it properly. My brows raised to that.
”This is not it- This is…” He shook his head while rubbing my shoulders and arms.
I cocked my head and tried to reach his lips again but I failed. I groaned lightly when he did that.
”What’s wrong?” I couldn’t recognize my voice.
”Alia, no. I’m drunk. And we still have a lot of conversations to do.”
I almost stamped my feet in frustration. “What conversations? We can do the talking tomorrow, please…”
I brushed my lips to his. I felt him giving up but his will is too strong. He sucked my lip once before letting go. My shoulders weakened just by looking at him.
”I said no.” he said with conviction.
”What is your problem?”
He shook his head - couldn’t answer.
I sighed heavily. I removed his hands on me and tried to remove myself in front of him since he’s pinning me on the wall. I was just too embarrassed right now. I’m completely throwing myself at him but declined. He’s right. He’s drunk and he’s being considerate.
“Alia,” he called me and pulled me like a spring to him.
I stared at him with almost no emotion in my eyes. I smiled lightly.
”You should go and rest.” I simply said like nothing happened.
He shut his eyes and muttered different curses. He’s still looking so handsome. Either he’s mad, drunk, sleepy or what, he’s still looking like a god.
”Fuck this. You’re turned on and I can’t do anything about it.”
Again, my cheeks flushed. Why does he have to say it in my face?
”Come on, you need to-” He cut my words.
”I don’t want you to think that I don’t want to do this with you. Fuck the heavens who knows how much patience I had to build in myself just to respect you.”
My lips parted in his statement. He tucked the fallen strands of hair behind my ears that’s blocking my face. This time, the heat a while ago had subsided. It seems like it has transferred to my eyes and now I’m gonna cry.
”How many times you tried to test me. Honestly? You are a pain in my sexual abstinence.” he chuckled. I couldn’t smile back.
”Fuck this is too corny for me to say. But I’m willing to have pain in the ass just to respect you in return. Out of all the men who did you bad, I want to be that single person who begs for you, who asks in bended knees because you deserve all the respect in this world.”
Tears escaped in my eyes as my lips started to tremble. He immediately wiped the tears that fell.
”Alia, how can I touch you when I want to be your refuge? You’ve been mistreated for your whole life and the only thing I want for you right now is to feel safe now that you’re with me. So please? Don’t try and test me again.”
Tears fell like crazy. Every word he said moved my heart and it hurts. Is it possible to be this happy while being hurt at the same time? He’s the only man who can do this to me.
I encircled my arms to his body and pressed my head to his chest just so I could hide my face that’s wet with tears.
I never had this much respect in my whole life. I forgot the meaning of it to the point that I’m acting like I don’t have one for myself. But I’m sincere. Now, my desire to give myself to him escalated.
”But I want to give myself to you.” I whispered in a tiny voice.
”Alia,” he sighed. He touched my face trying to make our eyes meet. “You can give yourself to me without us doing that. Not at this moment. You need to have all the help that you need and let’s see if you can say that again.” He tried to comfort and convince me.
I’m really out of my core right now. I’m questioning myself if I’m just of mind or my desire got stronger. I look up to him while still embracing him. He looked down on me, caressing my face, soothing me.
”I trust you.” I said.
His jaw hardened. At this point, I know I’m testing his patience again. I touched his hand and guided it to my peck. I shut my eyes remembering all that had happened in that past. I’m assessing myself. He’s right. This is hard for me as well, but I'm willing.
I stared at him. Full of longing and compassion. I part my lips and close it several times adjusting myself, trying to get used to it’s feeling.
”I want you Aciel.” I uttered, almost a gasp of breath.
In one brush of my lips to his, he fought back and kissed me with a hungry vigor. I celebrated when he did that.
”Fuck this. I don’t want you to do this out of lust, Alia. I want assurance from you.” he said while helping me unbutton his dress shirt.
”Say that you’re mine first.” he said.
I removed my cardigan completely, not minding any words he’s saying. He scooped my bottom and in a snap, my legs were wrapped in his waist. Kissing is easy, now that we’re at the same level.
He walked without breaking our heated situation. I don’t know how the hell he does that but who cares anymore. The next thing I know, he pinned me on the door of his room while he continued to suck and roamed every inch of my mouth.
“Say that you’re mine, Alia.” he said between our kisses.
I reached for his dress shirt because I wanted to feel him wholly. He helped me do that. The straps of my night silky dress fell to my shoulders. He put me down slowly as he kissed my collar bones and the blades of my shoulder.
”Please, say that you’re mine. Because I’m all yours, baby.”
”Ahh~” I moaned and wet my lips when he bit my skin lightly.
That simple move is enough to make my head turn. I grabbed his hair and cocked my head giving him access. I whimpered and tried to keep it all to myself as his tongue skilfully glided into my skin.
He stopped kissing me midway. He grabbed my hand and that’s the only time I was able to snap to my senses. He made me sit into the edge of his bed. I looked at him confusedly.
He knelt in front of me with his tired and sleepy eyes. He kept on brushing my skin like he couldn't get enough of it.
“Allow me to take you, please.” he said.
My eyes blinked in amusement. “You don’t need to beg, Ace. I’m giving my whole self to you.” I kissed his lips in seconds.
”Then say that I’m your boyfriend now. We can’t just do this, Alia. I want to have a stand in your life.”
My lips parted. Boyfriend? The one I see in books and movies. If he’s gonna be my boyfriend then I’ll be his girlfriend?
”Boyfriend?”
He nodded and played with my hair. “Yes. I’m committing myself to you, and you must commit yourself to me too.”
He watches me. He’s waiting for my answer patiently and with hope. Slowly, I nodded my head. I heard his light gasp.
”Okay.” I said under my breath.
”Okay?” he echoed.
I stared at him. “I’m your girlfriend now.”
The side of his lips hung into his ears. He had a few seconds before he attacked my lips again. This time, it’s different. He kissed me slowly and surely. Like he’s trying to cherish every second of that moment.
The straps that’s falling on my shoulders were helped by Aciel. With delicate and sure movement, he undressed me. My brassiere showed up and I cleared my throat because his eyes that’s staring at my body were making me blush.
Lot’s of men have seen my body but with him, I’m the most embarrassed. He had probably seen lots of bodies that’s better than mine. Those bodies that are not abused and over used by everybody. Not like me.
I laid to hide the tears that’s welling up in my eyes. He went on top of me. Because the lights are dimmed, he didn’t notice that. He planted small kisses on my chest as he unclasped my brassier. And there, my breasts showed up in his face. I watched his face, eyed it like his greatest possession. I tried to cover it but he stopped me.
”You are beautiful, no matter what.” he said before kissing my hardened pecks.
My back arched because of unbelievable pleasure I’ve never felt with someone before. His kisses are removing all my insecurities and bad memories about this. He nibbled my other nipple while he ate the other one. He palmed it once and my eyes almost rolled to the back of my head.
His kisses went down to my tummy. I whispered and moaned his name at the same time. Our eyes didn’t leave each other while he slowly got down there. He parted my legs so he could get in between.
His finger that’s teasing my skin is now slowly removing the single cloth that’s left in me. His composed and slow moves are making me hungry. I’ve never experienced this kind. All of it was all in rush and complete lust. Now, this is different.
”Aciel, please~” I bit my lip.
”Shhhh”
When my underwear was completely removed, his fingers touched my private area and I moaned his name almost reaching the edge I’m hanging on. His single touch can make me cum and that’s embarrassing. That just proves how much I desire him.
He’s facing my womanhood and that made me shy. ‘I know, Aciel. You’ve seen better.’
”A-Ahh!” I screamed in pleasure when he kissed me down there.
His warm mouth made a sound as he kissed my womanhood. My hands are grasping his sheets because I feel like I’m being hanged on a cliff and jumping from it will free me.
”Hmmm”
He moaned when he’s kissing me. I felt his tongue getting inside of me. That shook my body like crazy. My legs are shaking as he did not stop kissing and eating my sensitive bud.
My raspy voice uttered his name once again when in a short span of time, I came again. I felt tired and limp as his mouth left me. It’s not yet stopping there. He came to my top again as his finger was gliding my wetness down there.
”Where have you been, my Alia?” he uttered.
I touched the packs on his stomach. I gulped as I reached for his belt so I could unbuckle it. He clicked his neck and groaned when I did that, slightly touching his crotch.
”Waiting.” I moaned.
His patience hit the roof. He did the honor to remove his belt and pants, together with his boxers. I gulped when I saw his shaft sprang free. Proudly standing tall.
I didn’t have the time to think anymore. He positioned himself above me. I can’t help but to feel turned on watching his face that’s busy gliding his thing to my sensitive private area.
He palmed my right breast like as if he’s holding it for life as a support to get inside me. I touched his chest as well and felt the sweat in there like the AC is not yet on high.
”U-Ugh~” his manly voice echoed in the whole room when he slowly got inside me.
My nails automatically scratched his skin when I felt him whole inside me. I almost choked when he thrust himself inside of me. He’s kneeling while supporting both of my legs so he can get enough access.
I don’t know where to turn my head anymore because of the pleasure he’s giving me. He’s so massive that I can feel him reaching the limit of my insides.
”A-Ace,” My raspy voice moaned.
I opened my eyes when he planted small kisses on my lips. I smiled as our bodies continued rocking each other. I wiped the beads of sweat on his forehead like this is just nothing.
”I love you.” he whispered and kissed my lips.
The ball of pleasure inside me continued to grow. After seconds, he pumped me fast and hard. No voice came out of me anymore when I reached the level of pleasure again. I came. Again.
The bed sounded like its’ almost breaking. Aciel groaned loudly before he slowed down. My body is weak and my lids are falling. He showered me with kisses and I’m out of my senses anymore.
”I love you so damn much.”
Then I passed out.
