#1756 - It keeps raining (I’m working hard to update every day)

The rain came in torrents.

Duanmu Huai and Ruoye Mu sat on chairs by the window, looking at the rain outside. Under the streetlights, it was dark all around, and the dripping raindrops hit the glass, playing a chaotic rock song. Duanmu Huai drank coffee, and Ruoye Mu held the mango juice in his hand, and neither of them spoke.

But surprisingly, this feeling is not bad.

Staring at the mango juice in her hand, Ruo Yemu remained silent. She was not a talkative person and was unwilling to deal with strangers. But next to Duanmu Huai, Ruo Yemu felt very relaxed because she could feel that Duanmu Huai was different from others and did not care about her that much.

To be honest, this is actually easier for Ruoye Mu.

Ruoye Mu actually doesn't like being noticed too much, whether it's classmates or friends. Even if they just want to know about her situation out of kindness, it's a yoke for Ruoye Mu. Sometimes, she really wants to escape from it all and start a new life in a place where no one knows about her.

That's why Ruo Yemu chose heavy metal music, hoping to vent her inner emotions and relieve stress. Only when she played the guitar could she feel the pressure that was suffocating her, and the pressure of life would be relieved, making her feel like a drowning person floating on the surface of the water, barely able to breathe.

However, that was only a short period of calm respite. Soon, school studies, piano, ballet, acting and other courses, and even her mother's shrill laughter, would turn into invisible shackles, pulling her into the bottomless abyss again.

So Ruo Yemu actually envied Duanmu Huai, he could do whatever he wanted and didn't care about other people's opinions at all. Of course, there were people who hindered him. But Duanmu Huai was able to ruthlessly defeat any obstacle that dared to stand in his way. He never doubted his choice and never wavered.

This made Ruoye Mu very envious.

If I could face all this more firmly like Duanmu Huai, would anything change?

but……………

"That's right."

Duanmu Huai suddenly spoke, interrupting Ruo Yemu's thoughts.

"I don't think I've asked you yet, why did you join the band in the first place?"

It was not surprising that Hachiman Hailing would join, as she was a part-time soldier. However, Duanmu Huai was quite curious as to why Ruoye Mu would join his band.

“………………Because Xiang invited me.”

"So you agreed?"

"Um."

Ruoye Mu nodded slightly, while Duanmu Huai rolled his eyes.

"You and Xiangzi have such a good relationship?"

"We... grew up together."

“Oh, I see…”

Duanmu Huai nodded.

"So you're using Xiangzi as a shield, right?"

"………Selfish……………"

"That's right. In the final analysis, you are just using Toyokawa Shoko as your excuse."

Duanmu Huai put down the coffee cup in his hand and stared at Ruo Yemu.

"You do whatever she asks you to do, because she is your important friend, you want to meet her expectations, you want her to feel at ease. Because as long as Xiangzi is happy, then you will be happy too... Do you really think so?"

"I……………"

Duanmu Huai's voice was not loud, but every word he said was like a huge hammer hitting Ruoye Mu's heart.

"Don't get it wrong, little girl. Toyokawa Shoko's sadness and joy belong to her alone. The same goes for you. Your sadness and joy also belong only to yourself, not to anyone else..."

"So what!!!"

The scream broke the tranquility of SPACE. If Toyokawa Shoko were here, she would definitely not believe that her childhood sweetheart could actually make such a sound.

"Is there anything wrong with doing this for Xiang?!"

Ruo Ye Mu put her hands on the table. The mango juice had been knocked aside by her. She stared at Duanmu Huai, and her face, which usually had no expression, was distorted for the first time.

"I want to make Xiang happy. I am her good friend, and this is what I should do! No, this is what I must do! Because, because......"

Having said this, Ruo Yemu gradually lowered his head.

"These are all that belong to me..."

"Guitar, cucumber, Xiangzi?"

"……………………"

If Ye Mu did not say anything in response to Duanmu Huai's question, it would be tantamount to his agreement.

"Why do all these little girls have such heavy emotions?"

Duanmu Huai snorted, shook his head and sat back in his chair. How old are you? You are still thinking about all kinds of heavy topics. Look at how heartless Ruby is. Yanaijian also eats and sleeps all day long. They are the same age. Why does Yemu think about these boring things every day?

"Of course, if you think this is good, then it doesn't matter, but do you really think this is good?"

"…………………I don't understand………"

"I mean, you might hate Xiangzi."

"I……………"

Faced with Duanmu Huai's words, Ruoye Mu's confused brain suddenly froze.

Hate Xiangzi? Her?

How is that possible?

If Ye Mu subconsciously wanted to refute, from a rational point of view, she and Xiangzi grew up together, and the two families were relatives. She always thought that she was Xiangzi's half, she needed Xiangzi, and Xiangzi also needed her. They were one and the same, and they would never be separated.

But... just as Ruoye Mu opened her lips, her inner instinct stopped her.

Hate Xiangzi? Is it really impossible?

I regard Xiangzi as my half, and I give everything for her, thinking that this is all right. But is this really all right? Xiangzi thinks that her existence is natural, and I also think that Xiangzi's existence is natural. It would have been fine if it continued like this, but...what if Xiangzi betrayed me?

What if she only thinks about herself? What if she doesn't care about Ye Mu at all?

Do I really not hate her?

At that time, wouldn't everything that once supported me turn around and become a poisonous fang that hurts me?

“I…I think I tried very hard…”

When he came to his senses, Ruo Yemu found that his words came out of his mouth as if they were out of his control.

"I know Xiang is in a difficult situation now, and I have always wanted to do my best to support her, so when Xiang found me and invited me to join the band, I agreed. Because I think I can help her, which will really make us happy, but......"

"but?"

Duanmu Huai poured another cup of coffee, squinted his eyes and looked at the girl in pain in front of him with interest.

"…Xiangzi is necessary to me, but am I necessary to Xiangzi?"

That's right, the disgusting strange feeling that had been lingering deep in his heart turned into concrete words at this moment, flowing out from Wakaba Mu's trembling lips.

For Wakaba Mu, all she had left was Xiangzi.

So what about Toyokawa Shoko?

"I don't know about that. I'm not a worm in her stomach."

Duanmu Huai shrugged his shoulders and put a piece of sugar in the cup. His calm and indifferent voice, like the gradually weakening sound of rain outside, extinguished the fire burning deep in Ruo Yemu's heart, and her originally blank mind gradually became calm.

"Student Duanmu, why are you telling me this?"

"Oh, because I'm bored."

"……………Why?"

"You came here because of something."

Duanmu Huai glanced at Ruoye Mu.

"I'm free anyway, so I'll just use this as a way to kill time, so I'll chat with you. I didn't expect a little girl like you to be so thoughtful... Are all musicians like this?"

“……………………”

Ruo Yemu bit her lips in dissatisfaction and stared at Duanmu Huai. Even though she was usually very indifferent, she felt a little angry at this moment.

Ruthlessly revealing the deepest secrets hidden in your heart, and then playing with them, and the result is just because you are bored?

I'm not a piece of wood, I can get angry too!

Ruo Yemu knew that he was always regarded as someone who couldn't speak, but now, Ruo Yemu felt that compared to Duanmu Huai, he was already very good at speaking!

“………………I’m going to take a rest.”

Suppressing her inner dissatisfaction, Ruo Yemu silently stood up and walked towards the lounge, while Duanmu Huai watched her back disappear into the darkness and shook his head.

"Sure enough, I knew this little girl wouldn't be so easy to deal with."

Duanmu Huai flirted with Wakaba Mu because, on the one hand, he was really bored and wanted to kill time, and on the other hand, he also wanted to solve the problems within the team. Hachiman Hailing was a part-time worker with impeccable professional ethics. There was no problem with Kurokawa Akane either, but the relationship between Toyokawa Shoko and Wakaba Mu was a time bomb in Duanmu Huai's eyes.

Especially unlike Wakaba Mutsu, who gave almost everything to himself, Toyokawa Shoko obviously did not seem to have such heavy feelings for Wakaba Mutsu.

How should I put it? It's like air. When it's there, you take it for granted. Only when you lose it, you realize how precious it is... That's about how it feels.

If it were someone else, they might just watch and watch silently, but Duanmu Huai is an impatient person. Instead of waiting for it to suddenly explode at a certain time period, it would be better to add fuel to the fire and set it off himself. At least he can control it, right?

So far, the results are pretty good.

Thinking of this, Duanmu Huai chuckled.

He was looking forward to what kind of chemical reaction would occur when Toyokawa Shoko and Wakaba Mutsu met again after this.

It must be interesting.