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Kim's point of view

How can I be so stupid? Couldn't I have just run away? The others could have done it without me. Well done Kim. Now four of the pack know I exist. I hope the black guy didn't see me. He couldn't find me. He and I. That simply does not work. I am a lone wolf. He's a pack member. I am different from the other wolves. He's a big gorgeous normal wolf. We don't match.

I rushed away as fast as I could. Just go away. Aimless. Just one way away. My body couldn't take it anymore, but I just had to get away. My wolf was screaming for my mate, but my mind knew it couldn't. If he knew what I am, he would never accept me and that would break me.

At some point I stopped. I had come to a clearing. In the middle was a small pond with a short jetty. The trees around the clearing let in enough sun. The lush green meadow was adorned with flowers of various colors. My breathing slowly calmed down. This place seemed so peaceful and free. Completely cut off from the rest of the world. Time didn't seem to exist here. I trotted slowly across the meadow to the jetty. At the very front at the top I transformed back. I dropped to the top of the pier and dangled my feet in the water. I could see my reflection in the mirror. My blond hair was tousled. My eyes, which are usually so bright, looked desolate and sad. A tear rolled down my cheek at the thought of today.

After a while I got up and went back to the meadow. When I got there, I turned back to the pond. With a lot of running I jumped into the water. The fresh and clear water enveloped my naked body. I felt free and safe. I swam for a while until I swam to the meadow and sat in the green. The sun enveloped my body, which was cold from the water, with a blissful warmth.

This place is already my favorite if I only knew where I was. Where am I anyway? What time is it? Shit. Dad and Chris must be worried about me. As if stung by a tarantula, I got up and transformed back. I quickly rushed in the direction of where the smell of the pack was coming from. From there I picked up Chris' scent and ran over there.

Already at the edge of the forest I saw Chris in the living room, who was worriedly pacing up and down the living room, which means I had been gone too long. I turned back into a human, grabbed the hidden clothes from me and went to the living room door. When Chris saw me he let out a relieved breath and half ran over me.

"Where have you been for so long? I was so worried. You were gone five hours." Chris whispered into my hair.

"I had to think." I answered as convincingly as I could. I wanted him to worry, but Chris just knows me too well.

"If you want to talk, you know where my room is." he says urgently. I just nod.

"Later." I said reassuringly and broke away from him. I needed a shower first. "I'll take a shower." I said to him and went upstairs. what a day

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"Kim. Do you want to talk?" he came into my room and looked at me worriedly. I sighed and nodded, knowing he would never give up.

"What happened?" he sat down next to me on the bed and wrapped his arm around me. I snuggled up against his chest and told myself about my mate and the clearing where I spent most of my time.

"Kim. I'm so happy for you. You found him. He'll accept you, believe me. So don't worry. Also, don't worry because they saw you, as long as they don't know what you smell like as a human ." he said reassuringly.

"You know, he and I will never be compatible. Deep down, I hope it's just a crush and not that he's my mate. And I hope -even though I know it probably won't be true- that it is is." I said slightly sad. I knew I was lying, but I couldn't be with him. That simply does not work. I just know it.

"Sleep first." I nodded and snuggled up to him. "I'll stay here too. I promise." he added. I nodded again and closed my eyes.

All the time I only thought about him. The whole time he was failing me somewhere in my mind. He was always there. I've been trying to sleep for hours. Chris was already asleep but I couldn't. He was there as soon as I closed my eyes. It's already killing me not to be with him, how should it be in the future? My wolf cried for him. He wanted him with him. snuggle up to him. kiss him be his. My wolf wanted to be tagged by him. He finally wanted to go to him, but I couldn't. A shipment stood between us. Inside, I was fighting a battle with myself. I'm going to break this. If he knew who I am, would he feel the same way? All of these questions. all those thoughts I can not anymore. Tears rolled down my cheeks.

My alarm clock woke me up from my sleep. Immediately my thoughts went back to him. I thought about him a lot last night, but it wasn't as bad as the night before last. I quickly got ready for school. That means. Shower, brush your teeth, get dressed and go under. I decided on a blue high waist shot and a red crop top with a slight back cutout. Add black high heels and you're done.

In the kitchen, Chris was already fully dressed and was tying up his bread.

"Na how are you?" he asks when he sees me.

"Fits." I'm just saying. He understands and turns away again.

"Let's go to school." he says. I nod in agreement.

"I drive." I said quickly. He knew he wouldn't get a chance to speak again, so he gave up with an annoyed groan. Grinning, I sat behind the wheel of the Audi r8. i love this car so much.

Shortly before school I accelerated again and drifted into a parking lot. Chris laughed.

"You love the show. That will never change." he laughs.

"I'd rather be noticed than ignored and kicked around." I laughed back.

I dramatically opened the door and put my legs outside. Finally I got out. The students stare at me. Chris got out of the car laughing and looked at me. Now it's time to be cool to most people. I can do it. The students keep staring at me. I entered the school building with Chris. All eyes were on me again. Argg. Really. How bold it is to point and whisper at us.

"Are we a movie theater or why are you all staring like that?" I shout aggressively but still coolly into the crowd. Immediately everyone looked away. Except for three boys. One looked at me with a grin. whatever Such a bad boy would like. They leaned on some spints and almost undressed me with their eyes. How I hate that. Sure, I like to dress figure-hugging, but why not when you have the figure. Also, I love the show, but whisper boldly and gape at myself stupidly. Bahh.

I ran snootily in their direction because I had to go to the secretary's office. Chris walked beside me but didn't seem to have noticed the boys. Because otherwise the big brother instinct would come out and since he had a lot of muscles and wasn't exactly considered weak, there were sometimes problems, although I can protect myself. But he's half that way, but I still love him. The three still stare at me. so please

"Take a picture. Last longer." I said without looking at her. Out of the corner of my eye I saw them stare at me in disbelief and stare after them. I provocatively emphasized the swing of my hips as I walked, but not too extreme. After all, I don't want to be bitch.

The secretary gave me and my brother the timetable and the books. Now I stood in front of the class. Since I was late anyway because I couldn't find the room, I had to knock. As a sounded in I entered the eye room. Everyone stares at me.

"Ahh. You must be the new one. Please introduce yourself." said a little old man. He looked like a dwarf or something in that he wasn't that tall and had a. Had a long beard. He also had long eyebrows. His harp was silver gray. All in all he looked quite nice.

"Hi...emm...I'm Kimberly Summers but call me Kim. I just moved here. Any questions?" I say emotionless with a fake smile. A couple of boys answered and a girl. I picked up the girl.

"How old are you?" she asks hastily.

"Emm...16." I said quickly. Finally, I took one of the guys off.

"Do you have a boyfriend?" he asks with a dirty grin. All the Andean boys put their hands down. As if I want anything from them.

"Maybe, maybe not." I said quickly. The girls burst out laughing while the boys eyed me coldly.

"Well, I'm the math teacher, Mr. Crus. Please sit in one of the free seats. If you have any questions or don't understand something, just point up and ask, okay?" he says kindly. I nod politely. Wow. Was he nice.

My gaze wanders through the class. Two places were free. Once next to a nerd with lots of pimples and greasy long hair and once next to one of the three guys from this morning. Great. If I didn't probably have eyes I'd be sitting next to the nerd, I'd rather be sitting next to him than next to Mr. I-can-everything-and-love-nothing-more-than-me. But life is so shitty.

"Hi, I'm Jason." he whispers to me and comes very close to me.

"Hi and I'll puke if you come any closer." I said sweetly. First he looks at me confused, but quickly recovers.

"I get up recalcitrant." he says seductively.

"And I like rest." I said annoyed. so please As if I want him. I only want one, but that will never work. And there it was again. I don't even know his name. But still he does not disappear from my thoughts. I hate myself for going into the woods at all. I never wanted to meet my mate. I always knew it wouldn't work. Sadly, I tried to follow the lesson. Thank God Jason left me alone. That only made it worse. I wish my mate would sit next to me and fight for my attention. I wish he was here and would do anything to be near me. My wolf will go mad without him. I can't stand it anymore. I'll break inside if I have to do this any longer.