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I've been sitting here on the jetty for a while now. The wind blows through my hair. They fly backwards and whip back and forth there. A few birds fly over the small pond and chirp happily and carefree. I wish I was carefree. But there was one more thing I need to do. Kinda funny. I always knew what would happen next. I could always tell exactly what was going to happen and I was almost always right. Right now is the first time I'm not even sure if Derek is even going to come. But as the saying goes, hope dies last. However, this uncertainty is killing me. After all, maybe I don't even deserve to tell him the whole story. Who knows.

A quick sound. So he found me after all. How do I know it's him, I don't know. Was just a feeling. Although I'm happy and relieved that he came after all, I'm still nervous. How will he react? Will he even listen to me? Will he still accept me? Wow. One thing is just becoming clear to me. I didn't want to accept him and now I'm sitting here, afraid of the same fate. irony of life.

He sits down next to me so that his scent fills my nostrils. gorgeous. I would miss him if he really won't accept me. Always think positive, right? But somehow it never works for me. So we're sitting here. Naked as all things were torn due to the wolf transformation. But it didn't bother me at all. Even if he sees me like this, I somehow don't care. After all, I have other worries. Both of us look straight ahead or at the pond. We both said nothing to each other. My nervousness increases. This uncertainty is driving me insane.

"How did you find me?" I broke the silence After all, I don't have a smell, so that's a valid question. Or?

"I have no idea, just followed my instincts." he says just as quietly as I asked my question. So he feels something for me right? You can tell that from his answer, right? Oh man. This fucking uncertainty is killing me.

Again this silence spreads. But this time it was pleasant. I don't know why, but I feel comfortable and safe. Even if I don't say anything, I feel welcome and that's what makes it so pleasant. His presence means so much to me. He tried to come here. Egla how long he considered coming here, only that he came counted. Even though I've probably been sitting here for hours. He had come. So I still mean something to him.

But that's not the only thing. I can also tap into this thought thing between pack members and overhear or join in the conversation. When I met you I was terrified that if you knew everything you wouldn't accept me. Just like everyone before you. When you went to the same school too, I just pretended on clueless and scared people hoping you'd just leave me alone someday. I was breaking down inside myself, but I didn't realize it yet..." I started to talk. My gaze is straight ahead. A few tears came out of my eyes, but I don't wipe them away. I want my feelings in front of him.

"Wow. Please don't ever think like that again. I just need you. I want you the way you are. It doesn't matter whether you're a human or a wolf. And as a wolf you're just beautiful. You're something special and shouldn't hide like that anymore. But I have one more question." he says and looks at me questioningly.

"Everything you want." I said truthfully. He should know everything he wants. I owe him that.

"How do you know Ryder?" somehow I knew the question was going to come up. I took a deep breath in and out.

"When I ran away, I ended up in his territory. But I didn't know that until he found me. I told him I had a mate, but he wanted me and took me against my will. I was so exhausted from the long run that i couldn't resist. He rushed me into a room. But I refused to eat or drink anything until he called me. I took my chance and ran away. On Monday suddenly he was at school and threatened me that something would happen to you if I didn't come with him. Especially not you. That's why I wanted to go with him." I tell him. He tensed up but I don't care because he listens to me and doesn't blame me. And for that I thank him. "But you know, when I was with Ryder. It was only then that I realized how important you really are to me. It was only then that I realized how much I actually need you. I also wanted to tell you the truth about myself, but I just didn't know then. Please forgive me." my voice was quiet at the end.

I look at him for the first time. He looks at me too. He smiles at me sweetly. I automatically had to smile too.

"I still have to get rid of one thing." I say seriously. He looks at me a bit uncertain, but also interested. "I love you." I smiled. His eyes lit up. His hands were on my cheeks in a flash, pulling my face towards him. My lips met his. That was my answer. He still accepts me and will stay with me. Even after everything that happened, he still wants me. My feelings just blow me away. More than ever before. I was relieved and that made it even nicer.

"You look great. My parents will love you." Derek said pulling me into a hug from behind that I just savored. A few days had now passed. I'm still amazed at how much I love and need him. Every fiber cries out for him when he's not around. If only for a few seconds, it's unbearable.

Actually, he wanted to mark me for a long time, but I didn't want to. First his parents should accept me before I come into his pack. It was just important to me that everyone accepts me. Understandable right? But so far, nothing has gone better. The pack members and especially the little ones constantly want to see the famous white wolf. Everyone is just so nice to me that I immediately took them to my heart. I feel like one of them already.

But in a few minutes I'm going to meet derek's parents. I am so nervous. What if they don't like me? Or don't think I'm pretty enough to be her future luna? Or able enough? So much could happen.

"You worry too much." whispered Derek and gave me a light kiss on the neck. I relaxed instantly and just nodded. At the same time, I loved his fucking effect on me. But it also has its downsides, because I couldn't refuse him anything. And by that I really mean nothing. For example, yesterday we talked about family and children and how many we would like to have. Of course I said one or two, but dear Derek would like five. As if I were some kind of birthing machine. Of course I said that too, but Derek then said that he would somehow push it through. Basically, I have nothing against so many cute little kims and dereks, but there would be so many. And with our temperament, if the little ones had that, they would no longer be able to control them.

"Na komm. Sie warten bestimmt schon." bricht er die stille und löst sich von mir. Ein letzter Blick in den Spiegel und einmal tief ein und aus atmen um dann mit einem lächeln in den Raum zugehen. Ein älteres Pärchen sitzt am Tisch. Sie sind ca. In den 50ern. Als wir am Tisch ankommen, schauen beide zu uns hoch und grinsend uns an. Sie sehen so mega nett aus.

"Hi, I'm Kim." I say shyly. My heart was beating faster than usual. Oh god I'm nervous. I always worry too much about what could go wrong. I should think more positively. The woman quickly pulled me into a tight hug, which I returned in surprise. When Je finally pulled away from me, the man wrapped me in the next hug. His body was muscular and very broad. His face was very similar to Derek's. The same facial features. He only got his mother's eyes. She also has chocolate brown eyes, but unlike Derek's, they showed everyone's emotions. But compared to her husband, he seemed rather powerful and strong. You like Derek.

"Child, I'm Elisabeth, but call me Lisa. And this is my husband Jack. Dubb's even prettier than Derek told us." Lisa starts talking. I look at her a bit taken aback but nod and smile the whole time.

"So, sit down first." says Jack. His wife gives him a meaningful look. And then came this eye contact. Wow. All the love and other feelings they both had for each other came out. Just wow. Even if only through that brief eye contact, it was just incredible.

"So you managed to drive my little boy to despair." she said. I swallowed. I didn't want to be reminded of what I was doing. I know myself that I made mistakes.

"Don't worry kid, I was like that. Somehow we have to keep our men under control." I laughed lightly. She was definitely very similar to me and I want her right away. We both laughed.

"Yes / Yes." Jack said annoyed. But we just kept laughing until we calmed down after a while.

"But I have to say one thing to Derek, he's really lucky with such a pretty mate. And she's a wolf, too." gushed Lisa. I felt myself blush slightly. Derek gave me a sideways beam, which didn't make it any easier.

"And our grandchildren too. They will certainly be beautiful with a mother like that." she continues to rave. I blushed a little more, but Derek looked at me dreamily. He was probably just imagining me with a baby bump.

"What about grandchildren?" Lisa suddenly asked us. I blush and look at the floor.

"Mom." says Derek indignantly and gives Lisa an indignant look...

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