Chapter-38

Author's pov

" He killed my baby," Maryam accused and then stood up from the bed with great difficulty.

Taking a few painful steps she walked near him and grabbed his collar tightly. Yardan hasn't recovered from the shock yet.

" Why did you do that?" She asked calmly.

Though her voice was calm it was heavy with anger. Her eyes were burning, her nose was flaring and her body was shaking.

" You heard the doctor. You miscarried the baby due to mental pressure," Yardan tried to make her understand.

She questioned him," You said the same thing after killing my second baby, didn't you?"

" I admit that I didn't want that child. But, I am telling the truth. I didn't kill this child," he answered truthfully because he knows that there is no point in hiding it anymore.

She asked further," Is there any guarantee that you are saying the truth?"

This time the doctor interrupted," He is saying the truth."

" You bastard!! Keep your mouth shut. You supported this murderer when he was planning to kill my children. A doctor's job is to save life not kill innocent children. Why did you do that? Because of money, right?" Maryam screamed at the doctor still holding Yardan's collar.

The doctor understood that things are now out of hand. So, he decided to leave. He looked at Yardan for permission which he got instantly.

The doctor will just step outside the room, Maryam told the doctor with her cold emotionless voice," You are equally responsible for my baby's death."

The doctor lowered his head while she shouted," Look at me."

When the doctor raised his head at Maryam she told him," Remember my face. I am gonna make you shed blood tears. Just wait and watch."

Yardan understood that Maryam hasn't taken her neuro medicines. That's why she is talking aggressively. Signalling the doctor to leave he looked at her who was still grabbing his collar.

" Maryam, I didn't kill this child. It was an accident," He tried to convince her and the next moment he was holding his throbbing cheek.

Before he could recover from this shock she shouted bursting into angry and painful tears," What did my children do to you that you killed them in my womb? Why? They were innocent. They had no enmity with you. Then, why did you become so cruel to them? Tell me, why!!! They were your flesh and blood too then how could you do this to them?"

" Maryam, listen to..........." he tried to say something but another slap stopped him in the middle.

Shaking his body vigorously she screamed," Why?"

" Why are you silent, son of a bitch? Tell me," Maryam continued screaming like a mad woman.

Yardan has lost his patience already by her slaps and continuous screaming. Grabbing her upper arms tightly he looked into her eyes. Maryam let out a painful yelp because his hold was too tight.

" Because of Yamir & Omaira. I didn't want them to face what I had faced. I didn't want them to be the victims of negligence. I wanted your attention only for them," Yardan screamed back shutting Maryam's mouth.

Then, he continued saying fuming in rage," I have seen how stepmothers turn evil. I know how stepmothers are. No matter how much they admit that they accept their husband's children from a previous relationship I know that all these are lies."

" I have seen this negligence. I was just a boy, suffering on the bed from fever, instead of taking care of me, my stepmother decided to go on a trip. That too with my father leaving me behind to suffer alone," He lashed out at her who just blinked her eyes.

He said with too much pain and anger in his voice," Every single day I would just roam behind my stepmother for affection. Like a lost puppy, I would follow her everywhere but either she would be busy with her children or having sex with my father to produce another bunch of kids. I was nothing to her."

" You always wondered why I treated you coldly? Was Mehzabin's only reason behind my behaviour? No!! I didn't want my second wife to control me. I didn't want my second wife to turn me against my children from my previous wife. I didn't want to be your puppet just like my father turned into a puppet of his second wife," He told his whole perspective but Maryam was way too numb to understand his words.

What's there to understand? He never tried to open up to her than how can he expects her to understand his perspective that too when she lost her baby?

" I admit I killed two of your babies. Whatever I did, I did for Yamir and Omaira. I felt your children as a threat to my children so I killed them. If it's necessary I will do it again," Yardan spoke out of anger but he didn't know his choice of words was leading them to destruction.

Maryam heard him silently but his last sentence triggered a strong nerve inside her.

" So, you just lied again that you didn't kill my third child?" She asked wiping away the tears from her face.

A frustrated growl left his mouth when he understood what he just said. Rubbing his forehead he paced here and there for a few seconds and then grabbed her arms again.

" I didn't. I meant to sa..............." He stopped because he didn't know what he was going to utter next.

Maryam didn't argue with him further. Returning to the bed she lay down there. Yardan realized that it won't be a good idea if he tries to talk to her now. Moreover, he didn't know what he should say. So, he just left her alone.

On the other hand, Maryam's mind concluded that Yamir and Omaira are responsible for everything. They are the reason behind her children's death. She remembered how her parents married her off to Yardan because of Yamir and Omaira. She concluded that they are the root of all problems. Because of all the trauma, she even lost her ability to differentiate between right and wrong.

" They are responsible for everything. I hate them," Maryam started chanting like a mad woman.

It's been a week since that incident and everything was calm in the Shamsi household. Yardan and Maryam didn't share a single word. Yardan wasn't understanding how to start a conversation while Maryam was lost in her world.

She was recovering physically but her mind was fucked up. Yamir and Omaira were dying for her attention but she didn't even glance at them. Whenever they tried to talk to her she would come up with excuses to ignore them.

Yardan thought she is behaving like that because of losing her baby. He thought she will be fine so he told the kids to be a little bit patient but he didn't know that Maryam is now a gone case.

Maryam was sitting in her favourite place. Near the window. Lost in thoughts. Every day her eyes would show pain and loneliness but today her eyes were showing patience. It seems like she was waiting for something to happen. She was holding her phone and checking it constantly.

" Mamma," Yamir tugged on her dress but she didn't bother to reply.

Omaira said touching her hand," Mamma, let's play hide and seek. It will be fun."

Looking at them coldly she answered," Leave me alone."

" Mamma, please," Omaira tried to whine but Maryam's rude voice brought tears to her eyes instantly.

Maryam shouted at them rudely," Your bastard father doesn't leave me in peace at night and you don't leave me at peace in the daytime. Get lost from my eyesight before I beat you into pulp."

Omaira burst into tears at her mother's rude voice but Yamir was stunned to react. He was wondering what was wrong with his mother. Why is she behaving like a crazy person?

" Take her outside of my room before I throw both of you outside," Maryam threatened Yamir who left with Omaira hurriedly.

Maryam's phone rang suddenly and it was an unknown number. Maryam received it hurriedly because she was waiting for this call desperately.

" Hello, Mrs Shamsi speaking?" A lady voice spoke.

Maryam replied," Yes."

" Come to XYZ hospital. Your husband's situation is critical......... " Before the lady could say anything further Maryam cut the call.

Then, having a satisfied smile she closed her eyes.