Chapter 22 To compensate myself for suffering
These heavy words made it impossible for Lu Ming to move away from the personal information column.
It made him look at it from the beginning.
Personal information: Former Blue Star resident, native of Chengchuan, China, third grade of high school, born in the women's room of Qihai Zero Point Bar, abandoned by biological mother Su. Later, she was discovered by the bar cleaners, who notified the bar owner to call the police, and sent her to Qihai Xingxing Welfare Home, where she was named Honghong.
He showed extremely high learning ability and hands-on ability in the orphanage. He likes to be quiet, loves books, and does not like to communicate with others. He often sits alone in the library corner, so he is targeted and excluded by other children in the orphanage.
When she was three years old, she was adopted by migrant workers Liu and Zhang and renamed Liu Ya. Later, due to a construction site accident, Liu and Zhang were paralyzed for life and unable to continue taking care of her. The adoption relationship was terminated on New Year's Eve of that year and she was sent back to the orphanage. The adoption time was less than one year. Year.
When she was five years old, she was adopted by Wang, who had been pregnant for a long time and divorced, and she was renamed Wang Chanjuan. Later, because Wang was forced by her parents to marry a cousin from the same village, the husband was not allowed to take the child, so the adoption relationship was canceled again and returned to the orphanage. There was not enough time for adoption. July.
When she was seven years old, she was adopted by Zhao and renamed Zhao Jiao. Later, she died suddenly because Zhao was playing cards in the middle of the night. After her family took care of the funeral arrangements, because she was not related by blood, there was no one to adopt her, so the adoption relationship was terminated and she was returned to the orphanage. , the adoption time is one year.
When he was ten years old, he was adopted by Yang Zhaojun of Yangcun and renamed Yang Xue. He studied at Yangcun Primary School, Village Middle School, and County No. 1 High School.
At the coming-of-age ceremony, she learned that the real reason why Yang Zhaojun adopted her was to make her his wife, and he forcefully hugged her that night.
When Yang Zhaojun was about to succeed, Yang Xue touched the lighter on the bedside.
The original intention was just to set Yang Zhaojun's clothes on fire to gain a chance to escape.
Unexpectedly, Yang Zhaojun spilled a bowl of wine while drinking that night and wet his clothes. In addition, he smelled of alcohol. When he encountered the fire, he quickly ignited and was engulfed by the fire.
Yang Xue's close-up save failed, and Yang Zhaojun struggled and charged, igniting more combustibles in the room.
In an instant, the fire burst into the sky, and the villagers rushed in at full speed. Yang Xue was afraid and rushed out of the sea of fire. When she learned the news that Yang Zhaojun was dead, she was mentally shocked and fled into the deep forest of the mountain behind Yang Village to hide. After March, we experienced a major transfer.
Now we are the 66666th batch of transferees, survivors and conquerors in the last days of Jialan.
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After reading this long piece of personal information, Lu Ming felt even heavier.
She was abandoned at birth, suffered bullying in the orphanage, and was terminated from adoption four times, each time experiencing repeated ups and downs between gain and loss.
I finally found my home, but at that moment when my life was full of hope, I discovered that everything was a lie.
People who love themselves have selfish desires hidden in their eyes.
He even showed his ferociousness towards himself in the end.
She tried her best to save herself, but God caused someone to burn her adoptive father and her former home where she had lived for eight years with her own hands.
Three months of hiding were accompanied by fear and pain.
Looking back on the past, life has been a tragedy.
The road ahead is ruined and the future is in chaos.
When I was at a loss, or was already walking dead, I also encountered a major transfer.
No one else could have endured such a tragic past.
In terms of misery, what happened to her was beyond Lu Ming's reach.
Looking at the person who is 1.60 meters tall but only weighs 35 kilograms, and has a pre-selection level lower than that of a junior soldier.
Lu Ming probably knew how much damage Yang Xue had suffered physically and mentally in the past three months.
People, once you start to lack the desire to live, the cells in your body will lose their energy.
A gray head overnight and a withered skeleton are all living examples.
With a deep sigh, Lu Ming closed the information bar, pushed open the warehouse door, and came to the front of the store.
He took out a piece (a box) of purified water and a box of instant noodles and placed them next to Yang Xue.
Then he took out the special crystals one by one from the space bag and said softly: "Earlier, I heard a few words from somewhere, and I thought they made sense."
"In this life, there are very few things you can choose."
“We are on a stage we did not choose.”
“The show was not the script we chose.”
"Some people are born with a happy family, parents who love them, and a life where they don't have to fight hard."
"Some people are born without even knowing who their parents are, and they will be betrayed by the people they trust most."
As soon as these words came out, Yang Xue, who was in a dull and empty state, slowly raised his eyes.
What reflected in her eyes was a handsome, masculine face, yet full of softness and warmth.
Her eyes were filled with complexity, pain, and a loneliness that was very similar to hers.
The man's hand kept taking out jade-like crystals out of thin air, and placed them in front of her seriously and steadily.
"Death is the simplest thing. Since you are going to die, why not make a choice earlier?"
"Since you didn't make a choice earlier and have experienced so many tragedies, are you really willing to give up again?"
"The past and the past are gone. If you feel that it was you who was wrong, then live to remember this sin; if it was not you who was wrong, then live on and use your own hands to make up for yourself who has suffered so much. ”
Putting down the twentieth specialized crystal, Lu Ming finished speaking.
After thinking about it, he took out the straight knife from his space bag and placed it beside Yang Xue.
Added: "Don't worry, this is your reward for letting me choose clothes. As for the use of these crystals, you will know soon; in addition, I will give you another proposal. If you have figured it out and decide to live, just accept it." Seriously observe the energy veins in those giant maggots, see the flow clearly, and look carefully at the characteristics. If it is you, you will definitely find something."
Everything has been done, and I have a clear conscience.
Lu Ming stood up and opened the glass door, looked at the rolling shutter door at the top, and raised his hand to pull it down halfway.
Yang Xue can easily reach this height. As long as she wants to live, she can pull down this protective line at any time.
After doing all this, with a smile on his face, Lu Ming drifted away.
Yang Xue in the clothing store kept watching Lu Ming's back until Lu Ming disappeared from sight and until the whole street returned to peace.
Lu Ming's words echoed in his mind, and a star gradually appeared in his empty eyes.
A feeling of hunger that she had never felt in the past three months swept through her abdomen. Yang Xue violently dismantled the packaging of instant noodles, bit into them violently, and swallowed hard.
Her gums were scraped with bleeding marks from the dough, and her throat was sore from the scraps of dough, but she didn't care!
It wasn't until she finished a packet of noodles and drank a bottle of water that she lowered her face again.
Feeling the pain from his lips and teeth, two lines of tears slid down his cheeks.
"Stay alive...I want to live...to compensate myself for having suffered so much."
His voice was hoarse but firm, and his eyes turned to the specialized crystal beside him and the straight knife that shone with cold light.
Yang Xue secretly kept Lu Ming's appearance and characteristics in mind.
