I'm Pregnant

TANNER*

I sat there for a while until I calmed down and could see straight. I'm such an idiot for walking away from Kaysen. How selfish could I possibly be?

I thought I was doing the right thing, but it was the worst thing I could ever have done. All because I'm hell-bent on not getting married or having children; for reasons I can't seem to figure out.

No, the main reason, as my therapist has pointed out a couple of times, is that I don't feel I deserve those things. Maybe my therapist is right? Maybe deep down, I want those things, to be married and have kids; I don't feel I deserve them, though. I don't know; I don't know what is wrong with me that I can't get my crap together enough to have a woman like Kaysen. So now I'm right back at square one, thinking I should let Kaysen go like she bluntly stated I should.

I was about to start my truck and pull out when I heard a knock at my window. I looked up to see Kaysen's sky blue eyes and melted all over again. Her eyebrows furrowed, and she crossed her arms around her chest. I motioned for Kaysen to move away from the truck so that I could get out, and she complied. I opened the door and hopped down from my truck.

"Would you like to go get something to eat?" I asked Kaysen in the hopes that she would leave with me.

"No, I'm on my way to pick Cora up from my mother-in-law. I can sit with you for a moment, though," Kaysen said, and we walked over to the passenger side of my truck, and I helped her climb up into the seat.

I then ran over and got it myself and started the truck so that the air conditioning would cool us off; the August heat in West Texas is unbearable.

"Look, Tanner, I thought we could have had something, but you bulldozed over the whole thing. You didn't even give us a chance to get to know each other. I don't know if I want to get to know you at this point. I'm willing to try, but you're going to have to show me that you're not going to tuck tail and run," Kaysen said as she fidgeted in her seat. It seemed she had more to say but was keeping it to herself.

"I'm sorry that I left; I thought you deserved better. I felt I needed to end things before everything got too serious. I thought about you the whole time I was gone; I thought about calling you several times. I do want to be with you; I want to get to know you," I said as I grabbed her hand and held it in mine.

"Let's start with being friends and dating. No sex, we have to figure out if we are a match beyond that," Kaysen said as she retracted her hand.

"Yes, I understand; I'm willing to do anything, Kaysen. Just tell me what I need to do, and I'll do my best to make you happy," I said.

"You only get one more chance, Tanner, so you better make sure this is what you want. Don't screw me around. Let's try the dating thing for a while, ok, and if we feel we could be more then, we can become exclusive. Just know I haven't had sex with anyone else or dated anyone else since you, and I don't care to either. You can see other people if you want to for now," Kaysen said as she looked out the window.

"I won't lie to you. I have dated a couple of women since you, but I didn't have sex with them. You have done something to me, Kaysen; I have no desire to be with anyone else. As I said before, you are it for me, Kaysen; I only want you. So I will do what I need to do," I said as I reached over and cupped her cheeks, and brought her to me.

I looked deep into her eyes, "only you, Kaysen," I said and kissed her.

She turned and put her hands through my hair, deepening the kiss. Then she pulled back.

"I want you, Tanner; I hope this works out, don't hurt me," Kaysen said as she reached for the handle.

"Hold up, I'll get that for you," I said as I hopped down from my truck and went over to help her climb out.

I put my hands into Kaysen's hair and brought her to my chest. I took a deep breath of her heavenly scent of coconut.

"I'll do anything; I'll make it up to you, I promise Kaysen. Thank you so much for giving me this chance," I said as I kissed Kaysen's forehead.

"I need to go; I was supposed to have picked Cora up from Kristine an hour ago," Kaysen said as she pushed away from me.

"Could I possibly come by later and meet your parents and Cora?" I asked as I watched Kaysen walk away.

"Give me a little time. I'm not ready for that yet, but soon ok," Kaysen said as she got into her SUV and drove off.

I've got my work cut out for me. I know two men who can help me out with this situation, and that's Jace and Blaze. Hell, maybe even Lyra and Vega could help me out. They are still a bit peeved at me after what went down with Mae and me, but getting a woman's point of view would be terrific.

***

"I'm surprised she didn't tell you to piss off," Lyra said as she walked off to the kitchen.

"She did, and I ran to my truck and cried; I don't know what's happening to me. I spent two nights with Kaysen; that was it," I said as I held Bethany. She's gotten so big I can't believe she's five months old already.

I sat there and held my beautiful baby niece, and a thought popped into my head on how amazing it would be to hold a baby of my own someday. That's a first; I've always been repulsed by the idea of having kids of my own. Kaysen is changing me in so many ways I can't begin to understand. Kaysen and I would make beautiful babies together, though.

"Well, it seems to me that you may be in love, Tanner," Vega said as she put Vivian down on the floor.

"After only two nights, I don't think so; there's no way," I said as I gave Bethany to Lyra and walked over to pick Vivian up.

"It was love at first sight for Blaze and me, and look at us. Same for Vega and Jace. It would help if you didn't fight this, Tanner. Contrary to what you believe, you do deserve to be happy. Don't let this one get away," Lyra said as she sat next to Blaze on the couch.

"Take the advice we have given you, and run with it. Roses and all that sappy stuff, we women love that stuff," Vega said.

"If you hurt this one, Vega and I will whoop your ass," Lyra said, and she and Vega giggled.

"Ok, thanks, guys, it's getting late; I better let you all go so you can get the babies to bed," I said as I handed Vivian to Vega, said goodbye to everyone, and left.

KAYSEN*

I know I should have told Tanner that I'm pregnant, but I couldn't find the words. How do you say to a man who doesn't want kids that you are pregnant? Plus, if he runs away again, I'm okay with doing this independently. Plus, I have my parents so that I wouldn't be entirely alone. How long would I be able to hide the fact that I'm pregnant, though? I give it two weeks tops, and my parents will figure it out, but Tanner, who knows. I need to tell him, though; I know that. Either way, if he leaves again or whatever he deserves to know.

I was lying in bed thinking about Tanner when my don't worry be happy ring tone went off. I had a feeling it was Tanner, so I answered.

"Hello," I said and propped my pillow up.

"Kaysen, it's me, Tanner, I know your in bed already, most likely, but I would like to see you. Can I come over?" Tanner asked.

"Yes, I have something I need to tell you. So yes, that would be fine. Is this your cell number?" I asked Tanner.

"Yes, it is,"

"Ok, I'll text you my address; text me when you get here, and I'll sneak you in," I said.

"I'll see you in a few Kaysen," Tanner said and hung up.

I texted my address to Tanner; I'm somewhat glad my dad had talked me into staying here for a bit longer. It means that sex is pretty much out of the question. Tanner does things to me that make me want to pounce him, even though I'm upset with him.

***

Tanner just texted that he was here, so I'm making my way through the house. I let him in through the back door; I hope none of the neighbors saw him coming through our side gate. That would be a hard one to explain.

We made our way quietly back to my room. Tanner looked around, surprised to see all of the red, blue, black, and silver.

"I like Texas Tech University colors, and I'm addicted to blue and silver," I said as Tanner, and I sat on the bed.

"You keep on surprising me, Kaysen," Tanner said as he put a hand through my long locks.

I couldn't hold the news in any longer, so I blurted it out as quietly and fast as possible.

"Tanner, you're going to be a father; I'm pregnant with twins,"

Writer's Note

I wonder if he's going to freak out? Feel free to 👍 and find out in the next episode 😍 Hugs and love Sapphirian J 🥰