Let's Move In Together

TANNER*

Taking Kaysen and Cora out tonight was fantastic. I went on the carousel with Cora several times; that happened to be her favorite thing to do besides hitting the moles. Cora tried some other games, but most of them, she was too young to play.

Kaysen and I decided to take Cora to the park afterward so that she could run off all of her energy.

I let Kaysen rest while I went down slides and ran around with Cora. I haven't had that much fun since I was in grade school. I could tell having Cora around would bring me back to life.

Cora had been stuck to me all night long from the moment I walked into the door. It was most likely the plush doll I had gotten her. I couldn't help from getting something for her; Cora has not let the doll go for a second.

I had a hard time leaving after dropping Kaysen and Cora off at home. I wished that I could stay with them. I need to sit down with Kaysen and discuss with her about at least getting her own place. I would help her pay rent.

Also, there is a matter of insurance. If she has some, it's most likely bare minimal. I needed to see what I could do to get Kaysen on my insurance or pay her medical bills. I know for sure I could get the babies on my insurance once they were born. I'm not sure about Kaysen, though, since we aren't married.

Hell, Kaysen and I haven't spoken about telling people she's pregnant or anything. Her parents don't even know; I would still be clueless if I hadn't gone to see her yesterday.

Kaysen and I have so much to talk about, but her not having her own place hinders us from doing that. Things needed to change, and soon.

I got home and drank a beer to wind down and then hopped in the shower. Once I got out of the shower, I went to my living room, grabbed another beer and sat down on my couch, and turned on the tv.

Something told me to check my phone, so I grabbed it and saw that Kaysen had texted me.

'I need to find an apartment for Cora and me. Would you like to help me look for a place this weekend?' Kaysen had texted.

'I would love to. I'm not sure if you would like to live near me, but these are the best apartments in town, and two-bedroom apartments are available. We would need to act on this quickly, though, because the fall semester is about to start, and college students will snatch them up,' I texted back.

'I have money saved up, but it may be a bit pricy for me, especially since I'm pregnant with twins. I need to save as much as I can," Kaysen texted back.

'I'll pay your rent; that's the least I could do since you are carrying my babies,' I texted back.

Ten minutes went by; I chugged my beer and waited for Kaysen to reply. Then my phone began to ring. I saw that it was Kaysen and answered.

"Hello," I said.

"I can't allow you to pay my rent, Tanner. I can take care of myself. I have to figure out how to make things do in case you and I don't work out." Kaysen said.

"Either way, Kaysen, you are carrying my babies, and I'm going to take care of you all, especially after they are born. You are not going in this alone, do you hear me. So yes, I'm going to pay your rent and your medical bills, for that matter. We need to find you a house, not an apartment. You'll need a place for the babies when they are born, and Cora needs to have her room," I said.

"What if I don't carry to term? What then, Tanner? What if I lose them?" Kaysen said.

"Excuse me; I'm confused. What are you talking about?" I asked.

"I can't talk to you about this over the phone Tanner, there's a lot you don't know," Kaysen said.

"Well, I'm calling in tomorrow. You can come over, and we can talk and then see about finding you and Cora a place to stay," I said.

"Ok, I'm dropping Cora off with Kristine at nine o'clock, and I'll be at your place no later than ten. Is that ok," Kaysen said.

"Yes, that would be perfect. Sleep well Kaysen, I already miss you, and it hasn't been but two hours," I said.

"I miss you as well, Tanner, sweet dreams," Kaysen said and ended the call.

I don't understand what Kaysen is talking about. Why would she lose the babies? She's young and healthy and has had Cora. There should be no reason for her to fear losing them.

Why is Kaysen so hell-bent on doing everything alone? Why does she keep talking about us as if we have already ended this relationship when it has only just begun?

I hopped up from my couch and grabbed another beer, and turned on a random movie on Netflix. I needed something to get my mind off of Kaysen and the babies. Nothing worked, though, so after an hour, I went up to my room, brushed my teeth, and laid down.

I grabbed my phone and texted Blaze to let him know something urgent had come up that I needed to deal with and that I wouldn't be there tomorrow.

I dimmed my lights and put some relaxation music on, and fell asleep. The peace was short-lived when I woke from a bad dream two hours later.

In my dream, I lost Kaysen and the babies. In the end, I had no one.

Kaysen*

Tanner is not going to take my news well. I'm not taking it well. One minute there was a possibility of me having cervical cancer, and the next, I was pregnant with twins.

The percentage of me losing these babies is high due to having two depo shots. And the doctors can't do anything about me possibly having cancer until after I give birth. I don't understand what God has in store for me. Why couldn't I be healthy, have these babies and be happy with Tanner?

It took me forever to fall asleep, but once I did, I fell into a dreamless sleep.

***

I woke up, took a shower, and made myself look as good as I could with how nauseous I felt. I made sure to pack my anti-nausea medication just in case. I thought maybe I would be lucky this time around and not have morning sickness, but I don't think I will be that lucky.

Cora woke up just after I had finished up, and I got her ready, and then we left for Kristine's.

***

I have now arrived at Tanner's loft, and I'm unsure how to break the news to him. Maybe I shouldn't have told him until later on when I knew the babies would be ok.

I knocked on Tanner's door and waited for him to answer. Tanner opened the door a minute later with an energy drink in his hand. I wondered what that was about. Tanner hugged me as I walked in and followed me to his living room, and we sat down on his couch.

"Are you ok?" I asked Tanner; he looked as if he hadn't gotten much sleep.

"I was worried about you and had some nightmares throughout the night. Something would happen to you and the babies in each one I had, so I didn't get much sleep," Tanner said as he took a few gulps of his drink.

"Oh Tanner, I'm so sorry. I should have told you last night, not that it would have helped, I'm afraid," I said.

"Kaysen, please tell me what's going on; I can't breathe right," Tanner said as he placed his hand on my belly.

"I might have cervical cancer, the doctor had to take a blood pregnancy test before they could do a procedure on me to test my cervix, and that's how I found out I was pregnant. Also, I got my depo shot two weeks ago. So those two things combined with the fact that I'm pregnant with twins makes me high risk for having a miscarriage," I told Tanner as I stared off into space.

"Well, I'm not letting you out of my sight now. You can't expect me to stand on the sidelines and not help you; I won't do it, Kaysen. I want to be there for you through it all: every high and every low. We will find a place for me, you, and Cora. I'm going to hire a house cleaner. We are going to do this together, Kaysen. Please don't push me away because I'm not going anywhere," Tanner said.

"Ok, let's move in together," I said, and Tanner kissed me on my forehead.

Writer's Note

Things are moving fast for Tanner and Kaysen. Feel free to👍Hugs and Love Sapphirian J. 🥰