I do not deserve happiness

Alpha KAI Point of view

I put my arm around Alaska and hold her close to me as we walk. "I can have one of the men bring a car, so you do not have to walk," I say to her.

Alaska looks up at me. Her eyes are wet. She is crying and upset. "It was wrong of me to think that I could be happy. I do not deserve happiness," Alaska sobs. She lays her head on me. I stroke her hair.

I nod to one of my warriors. "Get a car," I growl at him.

Alaska lifts her head. "No, I need to run. I need to clear my head," Alaska says.

"Then let's run together so we can clear the air. You are coming with me now, and you know that. You are mine, and I expect you to come with me," I say to her. I lift her chin so that our eyes meet.

Alaska nods and smiles. "I know that I am yours now, but what if I cause trouble for your pack. Just look at what happened here today," Alaska says.

I look around at the bodies. "They should not have been on my land," I growl.

Alaska looks around at the chaos. It bothers her. She feels responsible, and she is hurting. It pains me to see her hurting so much. I never thought a time would come in my life when I was more worried about someone other than myself. I have always been a selfish wolf, but now I worry for her.

Alaska breaks away from me and begins to run. I give her a few moments to get ahead of me, then I leap into the air and take my wolf form, following her into the woods. She needs to think, but I do not want her alone, just in case, there are any more wolves around that want to harm her. I can protect her, but I must always know where she is, and my sweet head, strong Alaska, will hate that.

Alaska is so independent that this is going to be complicated. How will I keep my eyes on her all the time? Until there is a resolution to this mess and I know she is safe, she must be under constant guard. I also have to deal with Beat Finn. He will have to fall in line or leave. I have a feeling he will try to kill her.

Alaska runs until she is almost back to the pack house. She slows down and then stops. She looks back at me, still in her wolf form, and begins to walk toward me.

"I do not want to stay at the packhouse. If we are going to be together, then we have to stay in a home that is only ours," Alaska says.

"A little late to make demands," I say, looking at the mark I left on her chest. She is mine, like it or not. She carries my mark. I wonder why Beta Finn never marked her. Maybe she would not let him or was waiting for some reason.

"I am asking, please. If we are to be together, can we please have our own space?" Alaska says.

"Yes, we can, but you must be protected until we get this sorted out. I think the pack house is the safest place for you when I am not around, but otherwise, we can stay at my house. I mean our house," I say.

"Thank you, Alpha," Alaska says.

Alaska turns away from me and begins running again. I follow her as she runs toward my house. She stops when she reaches the front porch and shifts to her human form. I look at her. She is so beautiful and all mine. I shift back into my human form. Alaska is looking at me and smiling.

"What is it?" Alaska asks me.

"Other than the fight and the slaughter and the scare today. I am so fucking happy," I say to her, growling as I approach her naked body.

"Yeah, me too," Alaska says.

When Alaska smiles at me, something feels different. I feel alive and happy for real. I did mark and mate with her. I took her as mine, and now I feel different. I wonder what the warriors will think about this?

This pack has always been made up of single wolves and whores. The she wolves are here to serve me and my warriors needs, but not now. Now I think things will be different, or everything will fall apart. As I look at Alaska, I know that it will all be worth it no matter what happens.

I move toward her. The entire world seems to fall away, and she is the most important person to me in this world right now. I cup her face and pull her close to me. I take her mouth, kissing her with a passion that I have never shared with anyone.

Our breathing becomes labored as our tongues dance and our bodies touch. "I want you more right now than I can explain," Alaska says to me, breaking our kiss.

I reach down and pick her up, carrying her into our house. She touches my face and smiles at me. She begins laughing uncontrollably. "What is so funny, woman?" I ask her.

"It is funny that I thought you were a hopeless arrogant man whore, and now I am with you. I am your mate. I think that it is comical, that is all," Alaska says.

"Well, I am still a man whore, but you will have to fill all my needs," I say to her as I carry her into our bedroom.

"I am eager to try to fill all your needs," Alaska says.

I guess it is comical. She shot me down hard, and now she is naked in my bed and all mine. Her body is marked for me only; she will be my wife, my luna, and my partner.

I lay her on the bed.

"Fuck me, Alpha," Alaska says as I crawl between her legs.

"I plan on it. All night Alaska. You are mine," I growl.