My Inner Demons

Beta Finn POV

The wolves dump me out about a mile from the pack territory. One wolf, Jeramy, took great satisfaction in pulling me out of the black SUV and dumping me on the ground. He knows I cannot touch him. At least he cannot touch me now. That will be a different story if I do not bring Alaska back to my father and breed with her as he keeps calling it.

I begin my walk back to Alaska and Alpha Kai. Maybe she does love him, and I cannot blame her if she is in love with another wolf. I have given her nothing but pain. I have tried to be kind to her and love her, but the truth is we are not compatible. We are only together because my father forced me to be with her.

The pressure my father puts on me to get Alaska pregnant makes it almost impossible for me to even be with her. He wants a daughter to replace my sister. What kind of sick shit is that? If I lie to Alaska and take her back to my father, then what? He will rape her and kill her after she gives him a child.

What if she has a boy? Will we start over and force her over and over to give him children. I cannot do this to her, but I am dead if I do not. What kind of wolf am I? A pathetic whiney wolf is the answer to that question. I can battle wolves three times my size but shrink under my father and his control.

I think about the good times Alaska and I had together. We had a lot of firsts together, and we enjoyed each other's company, but she has always been honest with me. She does not love me, but she wants to make things easy for both of us. She has always tried to do what is right. BUT IT IS NOT HER PLACE! Her brother is the one who should repay this debt, not her. None of this is her fault! Hell, none of this is my fault, but here I am, stuck in the middle of a lot of bullshit.

I reach the main gate. Henry is at the gate when I approach. I look to see a lot of security. Well, I guess it would be with my father on the warpath. "Henry!" I call out to him.

Henry comes toward me. "Beta Finn! Hell, we thought the Larringers took you," Henry says.

I shake my head. "They did. I need to see Alpha KAi and Alaska as quickly as possible," I say.

"Beta Finn is here," Henry calls out to the others. It does not take long for several Beta wolves to surround me.

"He wants to see the Alpha, so let us take him to see Alpha KAi," Jay Jay calls out.

"I have to see him. It is about Alaska, my wife," I demand.

"Alaska has taken the Alpha mark and will be his bride. Are you here to dispute this?" Henry asks me.

I look around at the other wolves. So, it is true. I had hoped to hear it from here. I understand, and I am not upset with her. I am upset she did not tell me herself.

"No, I am here to warn them about my father and his plans for Alaska," I say. My eyes meet with Henry. He is furious with me. I look around, and all of them are angry with me.

"I AM NOT MY FATHER!" I growl.

"Then why are you here asking for Alaska?" Henry asks me.

I look to the ground and think. This is it. This is the moment. I can tell the truth, or I can lie. I can say that my father plans to kill Alaska's parents, or I can say that he has already killed them. Either way, I am as good as dead. This is it for me, and I know it.

"I have to speak with Alaska about her parents. My father has them," I say.

Henry grabs me by the upper arm. He intends to harm me. I can feel his frustration and pain as he drags me. "Come on, we will all go together to talk with Alpha Kai," Henry says.

I pull back from Henry. "I can walk on my own," I say.

I walk behind Henry, and the other wolves follow. Henry decides he wants to flex a little when we are almost at the house. "Do not cause any problems, Beta Finn," he says, growling. I know he is only showing out for Alpha Kai.

"I was not planning on it, but I am ready when you are, Henry," I growl back.

I look up to see Alaska and Alpha Kai standing on the porch of the Pack house. Alaska looks beautiful but worried. I want to run to her and tell her everything will be okay, but I stand back and wait.

"Finn," Alpha Kai calls to me. I do not take my eyes off Alaska. She is my main concern. I do love her, but I know it can never be. I have to let that go.

"Alpha Kai, my father took me from the training camp. He wanted me to know that Alaska was cheating on me and that he had her parents," I begin, but I am interrupted when Alaska starts to cry.

"He took my parents," she screams. Alpha KAI immediately takes her into his arms. I can see it. The wild Alpha, the party Alpha, just look at him - He loves her.

"It is worse," I try to say.

Henry puts out his hand and pushes on my chest. "Stop," he growls at me.

"Are they okay?" Alaska asks.

It is now or never. Do I tell the truth, or do I lie?

"Alaska, my father, wants a child, and he will do anything to replace the daughter he lost," I say.

Alpha Kai motions for one of the she-wolves to take Alaska into the pack house so he can handle me without her watchful eye, or maybe so she is not upset any further. He ensures she is okay before he returns his attention to me. I am as good as dead.

Alpha Kai is face to face with me. I can see how angry he is with me and the situation. "Your father attacked us and tried to take Alaska. What do you plan to do about that?" Alpha Kai growls at me.

I kneel before him. I have to show loyalty. "I am not my father. He took me and asked me to come here. He wants me to lie to Alaska. He wants me to convince her that she has no choice but to return with me," I gravel at the Alpha's feet.

I did it; I told the truth. Now, I am a dead man. "What do you want?" Alpha Kai growls at me.

"I want a place to live. I want to be a part of this pack. I cannot go back my father will kill me. I can help you protect Alaska. I mean you no harm and will defend this pack. I will be loyal to you, Alpha Kai," I say.

Alpha lets out a low growl. I can hear his frustration. "Are they alive?" he asks as he walks away.

"No, my father killed her parents and he will kill her too," I say.