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Tinos POV

"Tino! You better not run away nigga!" Q screamed at me as I currently was running away from him. But damn, that dude was fast as fuck.

Before I knew it he had jumped on my back and we collapsed on the floor of the game room in the pack house. I had been avoiding him like crazy.

One, because having to explain to my best friend that I have been keeping a secret sucks. And two, I have been held up in Koa's room.

Though we haven't done anything since the night I found out I had a cum fetish. Which was embarrassing to admit. Cause who the fuck has that? But that's not why. Koa hasn't touched me. Other than a kiss or when we cuddle at night.

I'm scared I scared him. But I don't think that's possible...he liked it.

Damn, maybe I did need to talk to Q.

"Okay, okay. Get off of me." I pushed him off but he just laid flat on the ground next to me.

"You gon' explain or what?"

"While on the floor?"

"Yeah, you're staying right here." I huffed in annoyance and rolled my eyes. I won't lie and say the ground wasn't comfortable either though.

"Fine, I have these depression attacks. I've had them for some time, and you happened to witness it."

"How long is 'some time'?"

"Like two years." I shrugged. But Q slapped the back of my head quickly and I winced in pain.

"What the fuck was that for?"

"For lying to your best friend for two years! That's what."

"I guess you're right, I'm sorry man. I should have told you." I decided just to give in because he was right. Q should have been the one person I should have told. He has always been there for me and will be no matter what. "We cool?" I asked raising my hand.

"We cool." We clasped hands but neither of us moved off the floor.

We just stared at each other. Now that was out the way there was so much I wanted to tell him. But how do I even begin?

"I have a cum fetish!" The words barrelled out my mouth and I slapped my hand over my mouth. I inwardly groaned at my childish ways as I waited for Q to speak.

"Nigga what?" A look of confusion sat on his face as he looked at me.

"What do you mean what? Exactly what I said. And I am ashamed." I huffed out.

"I'm just confused about what the hell a cum fetish is." I groaned and rolled onto my back, knowing that I now have to dig myself into a deep hole.

"It's when you like cum...a lot." I could feel my cheeks heat up at the confession.

"Oh, okay then yeah. Jonah has that too. He has that shit BBAADD." A laugh burst out of me. I don't know why I was nervous to tell him. "So this means you've sucked Koa's dick? How was it?" He raised an eyebrow at me and I playfully shoved him.

"Obviously it was good."

"That's what I like to hear! I'm happy you both worked your shit out."

"I mean yeah, I guess." I sighed as I looked at the ceiling.

"What's wrong? Somethings wrong."

"We haven't since that night, and I'm nervous if I was too much." I could feel the embarrassment start to warm the tip of my ears.

"Hmm, I see. Well, I got a question." I turned to him and waited for him to continue. "Those times that you have, who has initiated?"

I thought to the past few times. I mean I initiated the first kiss but all the other times, that was definitely Koa. Then I was hit with a pang of guilt.

"Yeah, that's what I thought. He is probably wanting you to make a move, ya know? So he knows that you're attracted to him."

"Of course I am! He's fucking hot. You and I both know this." I yelled a little too loud, which caused some of the passing pack members to look in the room but continued.

"Anyone with eyes can say yes, objectively that is a good-looking dude. But have you told him?"

It took some deep thought, and I have given Koa compliments. Or my version of compliments but I don't think I have ever said I thought he looked good, or he was the most handsome man in the world. Which isn't fair because Koa showers me with nothing but words of affirmation and reassurance. And I see that...Goddess I suck as a mate.

"Well there is your answer, you need to initiate, let him know you want him just as much as he wants you."

"Damn Q, you're so smart." I teased and sat up quickly, Q following me as well.

"Can't believe we sat on the floor and talked about dicks for ten minutes." He said as he clapped my shoulders and started pushing me out of the room.

"If only our sixteen-year-old selves could see us now."

"Go, get out of here. Go have sex with your man."

*****

I was pacing back and forth in Koa's room, waiting for him to walk in. I had a plan and I needed to stick to the plan. He would be coming back from training and the plan is after he showers and gets in the bed, I would cuddle up next to him. Tell him he smells good, and then lean in to kiss him and badda-bing badda-boom. Then Papa gets his pasta.

His thick smell hit my nose, and it made my heart spike in anticipation. I was ready for this. I had a plan. I would stick to the plan. Which means I should sit down and not stand here like a weirdo.

I hopped onto the bed and grabbed my phone to pretend like I was doing...something. The door opened a moment later and he walked in and I immediately wanted to start drooling. His thin shirt clung to his chest with sweat. his hair was pulled back tightly on his head with sweat beads surrounding it.

His shorts squeezed around his powerful thighs and his butt. It made me want to get up and grab it.

"Hi, my dolcezza." A smile covered his face as he looked at me. I realized he stopped moving a long time ago and I just sat here gawking at him. I could feel my face heat up in embarrassment at the thought of how weird I must have looked.

"Hi." I squeaked out.

He walked around to the side of the bed I was on and leaned to kiss my forehead. But it wasn't until he was this close I realized just how much I missed him. It had only been a couple of hours since I had last seen him but I couldn't go another minute.

I lifted my head to meet his lips and give him a small kiss, but once we started I realized I needed more. I tried to create something, but Koa pulled away too soon.

"I will shower and be right back. Perhaps we could take a nap." He stretched his wide and thick body with a yawn and stepped away leaving me.

Something was wrong with me. Seriously. Because just the thought of knowing that Koa was in the bathroom naked was getting me hard. And the anticipation of what was to come once he was out.

It took a few more minutes until he was done. He opened the bathroom door, steam flooding out of it, and a towel loosely on his hips. The water dripping from his hair down his face and his chest is on display for my eyes only.

Before I knew it I was up on my feet toward him. Koa looked at me with a bit of confusion but also curiosity.

"What is wrong, my dolcezza?"

I wrapped my arms around around his wide shoulders and his hands went to my hips. What was wrong? I needed Koa that's what. He has awakened a beast that has been dormant for over two years.

"You know I find you attractive right? Like I am very attracted to you." I could feel my ears heat up from the admission, but he needed to know. Even if saying such things made me feel uncomfortable. Only because I hate being vulnerable.

"Are you?" He smirked as he looked down at me.

"Yes, I am. I think you are very handsome, Koa. I know I haven't said it before so I'm saying it now." I kept my gaze focused on his chin, unable to meet his eyes. He was just so overwhelming sometimes, but I liked it.

"Thank you for the compliment." He put his hand under my chin and forced me to look up at him. He leaned forward pressing his lips to mine and I moaned at the contact. Needing more than just this. I needed Koa's hands everywhere.

I tried to get some kind of speed but Koa pulled away from me again. I groaned in annoyance and pulled away from him.

"Koaaaaa." I whined out as I plopped onto the bed, flat on my back.

"What?"

"Koa, stop pulling away from me. I'm trying to make outtt!!" I sounded like a whiny child who just got told they can't have ice cream for dinner. Though Koa just chuckled at me as he moved to stand in between my legs.

"I know you are."

"Then why won't you let me?" I covered my eyes with my arm, as I waited for the answer.

"Because Valentino good boys ask permission. They don't take." That made my dick twitch in my pants and I could feel Koa's eyes on it as it moved. I didn't realize that Koa was so dominant. "Move your arm and look at me." I did as told and I lie there staring up at him. "Tell me what you want."

He crossed his arms as he loomed over me. My breathing began to pick up pace with anticipation.

"You know what I want." I groaned out in annoyance. But Koa stayed silent and waited patiently. There was no breaking this man. "Koa, come on. Can you stop?"

"I haven't even started."

"Please, will you just...please." I took a deep breath and sat up and was now faced with just his chest. "I need you." The words were faint as they came out of my mouth.

It was the voice of desperation. But it did the job because Koa let out a deep growl and was on top of me in an instant.

"Good boy."