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I started therapy the next day, a loving and compassionate woman, experienced in helping victims of sexual abuse. I went twice a week for a month, then down to once a week. She's helped me a lot.

I had a gathering for all my friends two weeks after Mom and Dad went home. I explained some of what happened to me, told them I'd bugged them and why. On the whole, they understood, though they've been a little chillier towards me than they used to be. I can't say I blamed them, though they were happy I wasn't the one who listened in on them. They were glad to know they'd been turned off as soon as we found Sydney was the culprit, and happier still when I removed the bugs from their homes. The chill seems like it's starting to thaw and I'm so happy because I cared for them so much. I was closer to Maria now than I used to be, but she was the first one to find out and steered me in the right direction. I'd licked her cunt, I'm sorry, pussy, and that was a bond I didn't share with any of the others. It was something I hadn't repeated, but Maria knew I wasn't into girls and didn't expect a return engagement. Still sex was sex, and I suppose we always feel a little closer to one we've shared it with.

Tiffany has been stalwart, a rock of Gibraltar. I couldn't ask for a better friend.

My divorce finally went through. Tanner gave me everything I asked for. His family was more resistant, but they eventually capitulated. I was a quasi-wealthy woman. Tanner enclosed a letter with the divorce decree. I hadn't spoken to him since the day he walked in on me.

In the letter, he apologized for what he'd done. As I somewhat expected, Oliver had used the leverage he'd gained from knowing of Tanner's family's incest from Geoff to leverage Tanner into turning me over to Oliver. Geoff had a bigger part to play than I realized. He was friends with Oliver from the Club and when he found out about Tanner's family, helped give Oliver the blackmail material needed to control the Mason's. When Geoff heard Tanner say I was a virgin and unwilling to have sex with him, Geoff told Oliver, which is when he became interested in me. Tanner told me Oliver really did seem to believe in the sex magic bullshit, and Tanner had believed it at first, but what he'd thought was magic, was probably Oliver blackmailing people to do what he'd wanted. He'd found out afterwards his junior partnership was given to him because his boss was blackmailed into giving it, in addition to the 'carrot' of having sex with me, which opened the boss to even more blackmail. He believed Oliver talked about sex magic so much to make people believe he had special powers, whereas he mostly had good blackmail recordings.

Kathy and Stan were chosen to help control me. Both had long associations with Oliver. He confirmed what we already knew from the conversation held in Sydney's room that both Stan and Kathy had sex with me while I was drugged. He also admitted to never having left the US, working for his company in Memphis where they had a branch office, staying in a hotel there. Oliver's idea to make him lie about it. He also admitted Sydney frequently came to Memphis to have sex with him while he was away from me.

Tanner said Oliver told him to demand a child earlier than we planned. It was to put pressure on me and make me more frantic and prone to errors in judgment, thus resulting in my alteration of my agreement.

Tanner said he and the rest of his family were all moving, him to the west coast, the rest going elsewhere. He said he wasn't having sex with them anymore, though I wasn't sure I believed it. He told me he really had loved me and the whole thing hadn't been the fraud it felt like. He realized he was sick and was seeing someone for it. He asked me to forgive him, but I'm not my Mom, no matter how much I pray, so I question if I'll ever forgive him. He said Jackson crushed his testicles rather badly when he kneed him in the groin and he may never be able to have children.

Probably for the best if his line died with him, and I wished Sydney was sterile as well. In all, it was a rather open and honest confession, about two years too late, by my estimation. If I'd known about the incest, I'd never have married him, nor would any other decent human being.

With the money from my divorce, I repaid Tiffany back for all the money she paid to Caponero Investigations. Jolene remains my close friend and I've never asked about Stan and Kathy's boating accident. It's none of my business really, and probably deserved if she did do it. What they'd done, including using a date rape drug on a young, vulnerable woman meant they were not good people.

Not wanting to do nothing with my time just because I had some money, I started swimming again, and using Suki's connections, started working as a live model. Sometimes, I was nude, other times, I wasn't. Being nude wasn't much of a problem for me anymore. The pay was good and I was used to holding still for long periods of time.