Chapter 330

I just gaze half amused and raise my brows at him to communicate my deep lack of being impressed. He seems to get the hint and relents with a chuckle and a wink.

Alexi lifts himself over me on his strong muscular arms and gazes at me for a long moment, once again stopping the shenanigans and making me even more impatient.

“You on top.” It’s more of a suggestion than an outright command, and I frown at him a little before moving to change positions without question. Forgetting the whole tosser thing and just eager to get him inside me.

It is a preferred position for me as it makes you feel like a man’s penis is reaching so much further and you get to control what’s being done. Not that I think with him it will be needed, although I’m sure it will be even more mind-blowing in this new position for us.

Alexi has never instigated me on top any of the times we had sex and it’s not a coincidence. I was in the game long enough to know that dominants like him, with a penchant for bondage and humiliating women, never allow a woman to take control of sex at all. Never do they let her get on top and give her any sort of power in the games. It’s a dominance thing, all about control and teaching their sub where their place is. Alexi may not be a full-on proper dominant in that scene, but he has those tendencies and the alpha male is strong in his DNA.

On top a woman can choose the intensity, speed, how hard or how long. She can stop and start, move and even lead herself to her own orgasm if she desires. It’s a huge thing for someone like him to suggest that, right off the bat, I take the lead. He’s a born commander, and he just handed me his crown.

Alexi showing me I’m his queen, and with me, he’s an equal and no longer trying to control me. My heart fills up with the realisation that this is just another hint at how much he is trying to be someone else for me. Romantic in his own little ways and affecting changes for only me.

I get up on my knees, letting him turn and nestle where I have warmed the bed and left it a little damp from my wet hair and slide over him to get in position. No hesitation in my new power over him. I just act like this is the most natural thing in the world for us while scoping out that sexy body as I move, placing hands on his six-pack and stopping to trace out his abs as I climb onto him. Body pulsating with need.

His erection is already standing waiting for me and I guide him slowly inside me effortlessly as I get on, so slick from his attention that I basically just move onto him and can nestle right down. Filling me, stretching me in places that have yearned for this, and I groan with the instant pleasure of having him inside me again. The perfect fit. It’s a sensation incomparable to anything else in life. An inner craving that gets instantly fed.

Alexi could turn me into a sex addict with his equipment and that satisfying, intense throb of being completely full in all the right places. It travels right up to my inner stomach and makes every part of me tingle crazily.

I exhale as the last few millimetres slide into me, my arse nestles on him comfortably and I slowly move my hips forward and back into an easy slide to feel him out. Instant satisfaction at just being joined again. That pleasurable wave consuming my pelvis and lower abdomen and twirls up inside of me like a serpent.

Alexi’s hands slide up my body and he palms my breasts, both at the same time, searing heat of those large, hot hands, eyes devouring me as he does so, and I’m left feeling completely worshipped.

That craving bursts into a full-blown spasm of pleasure and my eyes instantly snap shut amid moans I cannot contain as I rock and grind on him. Alexi’s hands skim across my chest and back down as I move, before coming to nestle on my hips, helping me find my rhythm as I ride him slowly.

My hands are flat on his chest as I rock and glide my body and bring myself to heightened pleasure with every thrust. I don’t even try to conceal how good this feels. Moans and low rumbles from deep inside me as I bite on my lip and try not to bang him like a sex deprived crazy woman just to reach climax quickly. I want to savour and enjoy every second of this. I forgot how he feels in this way when it’s not mad chaotic sex like the night I thought he died.

Alexi is letting me have full control and surrendering himself to me fully with no interference. Keeping his hands loose on my waist so I’m the one deciding on the speed of movement. It feels amazing.

A man who puts importance in using sex to manipulate, control and punish is giving me the reins and letting me fly. It’s the biggest way he could show me that this is not what I feared it would be when it finally happened. He isn’t using this power to control me again. He is giving me the lead in sex, so I always know I’ll be safe with him this way. When I’m at my most vulnerable, he is letting me control what we are doing for the safety I desperately need to feel secure with him.

He’s making me trust him when I’m at my most unsure.

It’s as huge as telling me he loves me all over again and I start to cry softly as my body builds to a crescendo of intensity, suddenly overwhelmed in all my senses and unable to stop it. It just leaks out of me from nowhere and I get so instantly emotional I cannot stop.

“Hey, what is it?” He stops the motion of us and leans up, using his elbow to prop to a half sitting position while the other hand comes to wipe away my tears, stilling me, and we sit motionless. His abs more prominent like this as I focus on them with a slightly embarrassed blush creeping over me. My body tingling and heated to the core, prime to explode in climax, but my emotions seem to just dissolve me into a mess, and as the waves of a growing orgasm fade, I look at him tearfully, sniffing back the tears as my heart feels fit to bursting.

“Nothing. You just … this is real. This is something … we’re really doing this.” I blurt out, wiping my face and feeling stupid that I had this kind of epic revelation while fucking the man I have longed to have for weeks. I have turned into a complete sap and it’s embarrassing. It’s like my brain just had an epiphany of huge proportions that we are no longer just dating; we are in love, we are a real thing, a couple, an item, a something.

I have a someone.

Me—little unwanted Lisa.

One who has seen and knows the deepest, darkest awful parts of me and yet, here he is. It didn’t faze him in any way. He’s not going anywhere. He accepts me in all my scarred and ugly dark glory.

“Glad you finally caught onto that.” It’s a smirk, a wickedly cheeky one that breaks my tearful episode instantly and replaces it with a giggle instead. He’s good at knowing how to swing my mood with a sentence, even if it’s usually on the negative end and he’s being a smart-arse dickhead.

Guess he knows me better than I thought.

“Maybe you should finish the job and remind me what it is about your skills I have been missing. I’m all for being your master in bed, but right now, I need you to just take the lead and remind me what it is about you that first made me want you.” I raise a brow and a watery happy smile, handing over the baton and giving him permission to be himself. Needing him to be in charge while I compose my stupid head and get my shit under control. I don’t want to ruin this with waterworks and sappy girl hormones. I want him to take me. That wildly aggressive and controlling prick who first screwed me senseless on his couch and turned my world upside down.

Alexi nods. No hint of a question but more of a slight relief that he doesn’t have to play nice and be too docile in sex from now on. A hint that this was probably really hard for that domineering side and his control freak ways. Alexi will never be a passive and easy to command lover. He will always be a bossy shit with a need to be on top. I’m really awed that he would change it for me though.

Before I get a chance to blink or take a breath, he flips us over and is on top of me in an instant, sliding himself back into me with a confident thrust that silences my words and replaces them with a low groan. Back in control, where he likes to be, smiling down at me as he leans in and hits me with a kiss on the forehead. It’s a little sign of ‘baby, I will still be your gentle man, but maybe you better think up a safe word’. Moving into that sexy hostile mode of crazy sex and a lot of positioning.

I tense for a second and wonder if it really is wise to unleash him while I feel a little tender and raw, then think ‘screw it’ how bad could it be?

“Scream as much as you want, it turns me on.” That wicked, sadistic smile that warns me of his intentions riles my excitement, apprehension too and then Alexi moves into screwing me senseless.

Fast, hard, almost aggressive as he pins me to the mattress and gives my body what it has needed since the first time we ever had sex. He lifts my legs and wraps them around his waist, holding one of my wrists to the bed tightly as his mouth devours my throat, my jaw and my lips. Igniting all that burning passion from within me.

It’s literally the opposite end of the spectrum to what he started, and I couldn’t be quiet even if I wanted to. We’ve had so much sexual chemistry since the day we met which has only intensified and been escalating for weeks on end. He is making sure we release a lot of that right now.

I admit I have a moment of concern that maybe I won’t handle him in all his unleashed crazy glory, and I might have to bail and get back on top. The first few minutes of being body slammed to the bed while howling my lungs out like a panting porn star has me rethinking the wild one’s dominant ways.

Thrusting, pounding me into the bed, manoeuvring me around the room in every way possible until we both drip with perspiration and the groans and moans and grunts and cries are echoing around us like crazy. We are definitely not quiet. And even he, the master of silence, is adding to the noise in ways I’ve never heard him before. I guess he too is letting go of a little control and allowing himself to be unguarded with me.

It feels too good though. An internal deep kind of satisfying sex that makes my body sing and positions that even a well-used whore like me has never been in before. He’s adventurous anyway and not shy about telling me where, how and what to do. I don’t think I ever got a full-on play of this side of him until now, and I bloody love it.

If I thought we had hit our best sex in any of the other times we have done it, this then I was wrong. Alexi ends up with me up against the headboard, gripping me by the hips and legs. I’m half sitting half clinging to him as he kneels in against it, pulling my legs up ridiculously at a right angle to my body so he can insert his penis and thrust it into me with gusto while I struggle to inflate my lungs.

My back and head bouncing against it as he drives home all six foot of his power and length and fucks me senseless into oblivion and makes the whole bed rock. Creaking like crazy and so sure the headboard might snap off and the fireplace tumble down on my head.

All I can do is obey like a limp ragdoll, body on fire with excessive heat and perspiration from our efforts, moan my lungs out and scream as my body mini climaxes under his skilful touch and thank the gods I’m flexible. I’m practically folded in half and he just seems like he’s having a good time.

After having my ankles at my ears, at one point my arse bouncing around when he had me around his waist while standing in the middle of the room, and the upside-down pleasure of a sixty-nine when we indulged in a lot of oral, then this one is a bit of respite on my flexibility. Alexi is insatiable and has more stamina than most mortals. Not to mention a lot of upper body strength and ability to hold me in almost any angle and still perfect that art of thrusting his ample manhood into me.

I don’t think I have ever experienced a sex romp quite like this, and I wonder how much he has been holding back in all the times before. Unleashed, he truly is a goddamn porn star on Viagra and maybe cocaine. No wavering energy on his end, and I thank the gods he has a disorder that fuels his energetic side. My body is beyond tingling, sweating like a bitch and red all over from the amount of grasping, rubbing, banging and being pounded against the mattress, floor and furniture. I don’t think a lesser woman could keep up with him.

As I near what feels like a huge body-ripping orgasm, building up from my toes, I cry out so loudly his dog starts howling from somewhere else in the apartment; freaky like an actual wolf, and I wonder if I’m actually in some X-rated twilight rip off. That, of course, gives me the urge to giggle and threatens to intervene on my third orgasm.

The last two were smaller, toe-curling, but this one is building to nails breaking on his back proportions. Knowing the dog can hear us is a little off-putting, considering he has a team of men and a maid all sitting downstairs, and I’m suddenly aware of the creaky bed springs, the bangs as the headboard hits the wall, and just how loudly I have been screaming for the last God knows how long. We have been thumping on the floor when he had me on the sideboard and it kept tipping back too. I may never be able to look at any of them again. I’m sure he broke one of the vanity’s legs while I was flat on my back on it and he was penetrating me right up to my tonsils and holding me down by my breasts.

Move over Mr Grey. Alexi doesn’t need a red room when he has plenty of fun on normal everyday furniture.

Now that is what I call skill.