Chapter 36 His Secret

Levi's POV

"Stupid. You're damn smitten bro."

I immediately dropped a fashion magazine when I heard Cali's irritated voice. I saw him smile like a dog again because I was caught looking at his photo. Looking ... fvck, just looking.

I looked at him with hawk eyes because I badly wanted to punch him in the throat, annoyed to see him so happy because I caught him looking miserable staring at the magazine.

It was her latest project as far as I know. I could clearly see the shape of her body because of the close-fitting clothes she wore. She was the cover of it, I don't know that I can feel so much emotion just by looking at her. I feel proud, I feel mad and I long for her so much.

"I thought you went to New York?" Cali uttered with his ass looking face.

"That's for a business."

"Business your fvckin 'ass. Business that lasted two weeks? You mean, her business!"

I awarded him a sharp look.

I did not lie, I came there for business. Two days conference and that's it. Coincidentally it was her fashion week and I was there.

Hella fine, I meant to be there. Cool?

"Even just for a glance, eh?"

He barked out a laugh and I almost killed him when I threw the magazines to his face. He didn't move and picked it up and stared at the first picture. Shit!

"Give me that." I groaned.

He smirked while looking at the magazine. I almost cut my nerve as I stared at him looking stupid staring at it. Did I fvckin looked like that when he saw me a while ago?

"She is actually hot, huh."

"Fvcking give it to me!", my voice roared.

I saw my employees staring outside the office.

I tightly closed my eyes to restrain myself. Damn, I'm literally loosing my self to this. When it comes to her, I'm really damn at lost.

"Chill!" ,still the laughing monkey.

"Get the fvck out of here."

I calmly said gritting my teeth. He dropped the magazine on my desk and sarcastically tapped me on the shoulder.

"For someone who has a long patience, yours is a bit short huh?"

I didn't say a word and just stare at him. Badly fighting myself not to smack him.

His eyes became serious.

"Lounge, tonight. With Erato." And then he left.

I was just shaken by the annoyance I felt. I'm not in the fvckin mood to go out but that for sure gives me a short period of time to forget everything. This is not the first time I felt this.

So what? So what if I'm short tempered when it comes to her? I can't imagine killing my brother just because he's having his thoughts with my girl. My girl ...

It wasn't just when I went to New York the first time I tried to see him. Paris, Milan, a fashion show in Hong Kong and even her one short guesting in Korea. Some of my trips are for business matter but more of it was just for my own peace of mind.

I can't accept it, alright? Back then, when we were still together it was not easy for me to see her being fantasized about by others. So now that all I can do is to look at her it's becoming a pain in the ass.

But then this last time, I stayed in New York for two goddamn weeks, because I badly wanted to be there because she's modeling the pieces of this one famous international designer. She's the talk of the town. The issues are everywhere, and it kills me every time I think how bad is it for her. I know she's studying and doing all the work at the same time, it must have been so hard for her.

"I'm all stressed out but I'm having fun." Her statement in an interview.

Hearing those words somehow put me at ease. Yes baby, it's the most important thing right? That you're happy.

Who am I fooling? I know anything as long as what he wants is okay with me. No matter how depressed I feel as long as it's her decision I will still adore it.

I'm so willing to marry her, before. But seeing her so independent of me made me realized that I don't want to steal the freedom that she wants. I don't want to lock her up with me, she wants to get everything through her own ways and sufferings, and so I let her. But now, it's a different story. If he was by my side then, now ... she is gone.

"Son, this is Nadine. She's the only daughter of the Walker's"

Mom introduced her to me. I don't even had an idea, she told me we're having lunch then suddenly a little meet and greet in our table. I'm not blind nor innocent. I know what she's doing.

She wanted me to get married, thinking that I'll do that for the sake of VGH. It's different now, she owe me one and I owe her nothing. As dumb as it may sound I can lost everything but not her.

But now that I've lost her also, what's the point of having the company under me? That's why VREC happened.

There are times when I give in to her and there are times when I don't. Just when I think that her patience is hitting the roof. Just this one dinner with the recent girl and that's it. I can't even remember her name because I only have one thing on my mind. I gritted my teeth looking at her photos with her co-model.

His arm was wrapped around his waist, he seemed to be holding my world. This is it, the one I'm most scared of. I've been hearing the issue about her and Lourd. The world don't have any idea about our complicated family, of course. I'm sure she can be paired with our brother but this now that I see her being held by others. I'm losing myself even more.

It was as if cold water was poured on me as I saw her sweet smile on that man. In her hands is a bouquet of flowers. It was like the world slapped me when I saw him kiss her on the cheek. Her cheeks flushed, and it pained my heart.

That moment I asked my self. Who am I? What the fvck am I actually doing? Like a scary and creepy old man chasing after her, tailing after her. Secretly hoping that I can also whisper how beautiful she is while I jail her in my arms.

Damn. If you'll gonna give her to me again, I will never let her go. Fvck the selflessness. I want her, she's mine to begin with.

"Ah!", she moaned in my arms.

Damn this beautiful woman. I can't believe how she can possibly make me feel like this. Damn her for acting like she's overly obsessed with my kisses and touch because the truth is I'm still mesmerized how she can send shivers down to my spine just by her silent whimpers and dug nails on my back.

I looked at her flushed cheeks and aroused looking eyes. With that look of her I automatically gulp the bulging pressure in my throat. Can't believe how she's looking so hot in my arms. I covered her mouth when she once again let out a loud moan.

"Baby, shut your beautiful mouth."

I also don't care if people in the other room hear us. But I can't deal with the idea of people fantasizing about my girls pleasured face.

"Levi, please."

Oh no. No. Don't beg like that because I'm afraid you might regret it the next morning.

When she came back. I found my starting point. There seemed to be a gap in the little hope I was holding on to.

"Ahhh! Looking for company?"

Cali purposely made his voice loud. I'm busy reading paper works in my table. What else is this one barking about?

"Ahhh! Why did she come back? She's fine in New York!"

I closed my eyes tightly. Is this an office or a damn kindergarten? I'm tired of this one. Why isn't he in VGH since he's the one who's going to handle it?

"Cali, can you shut your ass looking mouth?"

He ignored me.

"Scandal? Ohhh! Yeah I've heard about it. What a waste. Okay, Olivia thank you for your time."

I froze.

"I'm sorry bro, just for a moment."

"What did you say?"

I uttered hard.

"I said I hit someone for-"

"Who's back?" My mind shuttered, can't almost believe what I've just asked.

He smirked.

"No. It's just Ava."

I immediately stood up and almost ready to choke him just so he can tell me whatever the fvck they talked about. Just? So "just" my life? That girl is my whole life! So, just my world? Bullshit.

She had scandal. One look at the video I already knew it was not her. It's just amazing why they criticized this issue when it's obvious that it's not him. Came home. Came back. Not just to me.

"Sir, Ms. Suarez's manager has already made an appointment."

I snorted and restrained myself from showing delight. Coincidentally? No. Accidents? No. If the heavens would decide that she's not the one for me. Then I'll summon hell just so she can be. So when the day came I saw him waiting outside my office.

My mind is closed from Ms. De Vera talking to me today about a project. She look so different. Yet I can still see the Ava I loved way back then. The way she sat on the corner with her gentle eyes and the way she move with great modesty.

That's my girl, right there.

Although Ms. left. De Vera I still don't let him in, because I don't know if I still have the courage to face him. She smiled at her phone, I feel like I read something to make her smiles so beautiful. My head immediately heated up and I was ordered outside to let him in

. I can suddenly remember how hard I tried to make things work just so her manager will book an appointment in my company. I don't even have the obligation to take care of the interns but here we are.

"Sale representative or?"

I asked, because I don't know how will I face her she finds out that I knew even the course she took.

"Architectural." 'Yes baby, I know you'll make it.' I wanted to say.

I gritted my teeth. Her tone is obviously not liking my presence but it's like a music to my ears. It sends shivers and making me want to jump at her and beg for her to come back in my arms again. But I restrained myself and just distracted myself with the paper in front of me. Gradually reminding myself that if I hurried in a hurry I might almost leave again.

I watch her eyes shut tight. She's biting her lips and her cheeks are flushed while I enter her. I can't help falling in love with you, Ava. I don't know how you do this, but I'm so damn in love with you.

'Life was never fair but God is.'

I can't get his point on these words. She's a believer but I'm far from what she is. But she made me believe, she molded me into a person I never thought I could be. Work and family.

That's all I've been living for before I even met her. But when she came, she thought me how to be the better version of my self. She thought me how to forgive when she too is having a hard time to do it. I thought it was all getting better. If only the family conversation was a complication for the two of us, I would still be able to. But when his life became the talk I was completely lost.

"Yes, come for me baby."

I bit her lobe as I feel her tightening. Her moans grew louder and I can feel I'm at edge too. She cried as I felt my release inside her. Her legs shook in a primitive way and her moan stopped in the air. I showered her with my kisses, hoping the reddened parts would disappear in her body because of my unrestrained grips.

"I hope our child will be like you."

I whispered. She just hummed and touched my jaw. She's tired that she can't even answer me properly. Or maybe he just doesn't understand that anymore.

"You're game is now over. No more chasing, no more leaving."

She opened her eyes and with a swift move she planted a kiss into my lips. With no more restraints ... Ava, I'll love you whole heartedly.