Chapter 50 Broken Hearted

Chapter 50 Broken Hearted

I couldn't wait for him to say that because I was too embarrassed to face him. I left in front of him and quickly walked up the lounger. I didn't bother to look at him and just minded my own business. I rested for a while while feeling the breeze and in front of me was the peaceful sea. I get a nap sometimes. I felt the sun's heat on my feet and so I hugged my legs in front of my body.

I heard a soft voice not far away because the resort was not noisy because there were only a few people. I saw Levi and his girl having fun damping their feet in the ocean. I went crazy again and couldn't help but lose my appetite.

I don't know what they are talking about but it looks like they're having fun with each other's company. My mouth went agape when the girl touched the hem of his shirt and trying to pull it upwards.

Levi held a ball as he seemed intrigued by what was happening. I almost spit some curses when he granted the girl's wish. He removed his shirt and flaunt his massive body on his girl. Great. What a great scene. I though I was suppose to have some fun here? Why does it seem like I'm just getting upset here? I did not take my eyes off them until they paddled into the sea at the same time.

I can almost taste the bitterness in my throat looking at them. Like a love birds ... that I want to drown.

"Its bitter." I was surprised to see someone next to me on the sun lounger next to me. The guy I mistaken to lay on mine was here. He carried a glass of mango shake and gave me a big grin.

"Are you jealous?"

He asked. That made me offended and confused. In his juice or in ...

"Theirs."

Its teaching that confirmed me. I nodded and shook violently. What the hell? Is that how I feel about them.

"It's like you're drowning them in your mind. It's still refusing." He chuckled. I ignored him and just looked elsewhere. You don't have those two.

"How are you going to get married?"

"A ... friend." I just say that because it's too complicated for me to say that I was adopted and whatnot.

"Ohh."

Silence again.

"Me, won't you ask?" I turned to him. Is he really still talking to me? "Oh? You're so hot."

"Hot?"

I immediately returned to him what he said at somewhat raised my voice. I covered my body with a kimono and he laughed. "I mean the heat of your head. I'm just talking to you. It's like you're going to die of envy and sadness here." He smiled. I gulped and shrugged.

"Then who are you? How are you, Celest?"

"Nothing."

He said briefly and arranged a seat.

"Nothing?"

"I'm the son of the governor they invited. Proxy and all that. The accommodation is free, alas." He winced and sipped into his shake. I remember in the corner of my mind what they talked about with Celest just a few days ago. He's the son of the governor that does charity. That's all I can remember.

"Alone?" He asked. I nodded.

"You?"

He smiled before answering, his body position was a bit closer to mine.

"Yes."

"I heard about the charity that you're involved in."

That's why I'm talking to you. I would have said but that would be rude. His expression turned amused and his whole attention is on me now.

"Yes, what about it?"

"Nothing, I'm just interested. I've been wanting to participate into some. I just don't know where to start."

His face turned serious.

"Every place and situation is a charity. As long as you wanted to help, you can start whenever you want to."

Oh. He got me there. Sister Celest seems to be wrong in what she thinks of this person. He seems sincere with his principles in helping and doing charities.

"I'm interested. I hope I can impart some help if you need one."

"Of course. I'm not the one you need to help. They are."

I smiled. He's right. I was caught of guard when he brought his face in front of my face. I could almost feel his breath on my face.

"You're more beautiful when you're smiling."

My cheeks heated upon hearing him. I couldn't move and just avoided looking at him. Now go ahead and on the side of my cheek feeling his breath. He still doesn't distance himself from me.

"You don't have a boyfriend?"

I blinked three times and shook my head lightly, afraid my cheeks would meet his lips. "Are you sure?"

My forehead furrowed hearing him. I turned to him and we both almost hit our noses.

"Aren't you sure?"

"What-"

Before I could even say something, a strong impact of the ball hit his face. He touched his face and his tongue pushed the inside of his cheeks while caressing the part that turned red because of the ball. He was smirking as if he was still happy he had been hit.

Dumbfounded, I looked at the ball rolling in front of me.

A sillhouette of a man got the ball. I looked up and my mouth went grim in horror seeing Levi in front of us. "I'm sorry, pare. Incidentally."

"Are you okay?

I worriedly ask the guy though he looks fine because the side of his lips are almost hanging to his ears.

"Fine." he grinned.

I gave Levi a look away from us. I saw the woman greet him and say something else but he just threw the ball into the water and didn't even look at the woman.

Is he out of his mind? What did he say? Incidentally? Or maybe I just misheard?

"That shit hurts."

The guy laughed again. I looked at him almost judging him. What's wrong with him? Why does it seem so happy to be hurt? He looked at me again while a small grin was on his face.

"I thought you didn't have a boyfriend?"

"Nothing."

He chuckled and rolled his eyes. I remained grim looking at him.

"Don't be me. I asked you if you have a boyfriend, because the one you've been staring at since I approached you seems to be killing me in his mind."

I furrowed my eyebrows to let him know that his words made me confused. "Nevermind. Don't get me wrong. I can't type."

I gasped how straight forward he is. "I didn't tell you to type me."

"Yeah, but your boyfriend typed me."

My eyes turned YES hearing him. What? Who is his type?

"I do not have a boyfriend."

He licked his lip once and lay to the lounger beside me. He put on his sunglasses again.

"All right, that's up to you. I'll just find mine."

His voice was so confident that he seemed to own Levi and was just tolerating me. I could not process what he said so much that I could not speak and act in my place.

"But at least thank me. If it's not your boyfriend, maybe later."

"What?"

He just gave me a smile and proceeded to his cool posture. I can not believe. I'm not being judgmental or so. I have met many like him but it is not really obvious to him that he wants a man.

"I'm Ethan. You are?"

I stopped staring at him when he suddenly spoke again.

"Ava- C-Cyreese, pala."

I have nothing to say because I am ashamed of what happened. Especially what Levi did to him. What could be the problem with that one?

"Ava, then. See you around."

I just shrugged my shoulders and decided to get out of the scene even though I don't like being called in my first name. I don't know if it's because the weather has warmed up and I seem to be feeling heavier and I feel like I'm tired from the moments that happened. In the evening I locked myself in the room given to me.

Until the morning I still did not decide to go out to even eat. I'm afraid that I might see him with his girl again. I'm afraid I can show him how unhappy I am that he's happy now.

Yet in my heart that is exactly what I should do, to let him be happy even if he is not with me. It was late afternoon when I decided to go out to get some fresh air. It seems to be disgusting in Manila so that was my motivation to leave the room.

Though the beach might be a good sight, I chose to just walk around the villas. Surrounded by small palm tresses, bermuda grass is also spread everywhere so it's still nice to go around here.

There was a modern hammock chair under the tree so there I decided to hang out. Good and there aren't too many people yet and I can read peacefully. I'm wearing awhite floral wrap up dress high on my knees. I didn't realize because of the fresh breeze I was already asleep there.

I was stunned when I felt as if someone was staring at me and just when I opened my eyes it was Levi's body passing in front of me. I almost jump into my seat seeing him. But it looks like he just happened to be here so I just ignored him.

I looked at myself, checking if I looked dumb or something. Embarrassingly, he saw me sleeping here. Not as if he haven't seen me sleeping yet but I'm worried that I might look like a mess right here. I still haven't eaten until dinner. I just fell asleep hungry because I was really scared to see him or his girlfriend.

On the next day, gladly he wasn't there when I went. Or maybe it was earlier because I really meant noon to go just so we wouldn't overlap. This afternoon there was a pre-wedding photo shoot according to the timeline we were told. Bridesmaids were there and as well as the groomsmen, I'm not sure if we'll meet. If he's there then life is so fvcked up.

Whoever you want to avoid that is yet the world will draw closer to you. The theme of Ate Celest's wedding is very simple and delicate. When we gathered at the time, we were the only women there who were celebrated in my heart. Maybe later the boys will do a photo shoot so when it was over I said goodbye immediately to leave and go back to the room.

"Aren't you enjoying the resort Cyreese? I'm sorry if-" "No, Ate Celest no! Don't think about it that way."

I caress his hand. I was guilty because that's how he thought of what was happening.

"I'm happy to be able to take a vacation. I'm just feeling a little bad."

"Really? I'm sorry to hear that. But if you can come later, will you?"

"Where are you going? Where?"

"Oh, I don't think you were told. Just for the pre-wedding celebration. Those of you who came here first, after dinner."

"S-sure ate."

It looks like I can't refuse Ate Celest so I just agreed. I had brunch earlier so by dinner time I never went out again. I was dozing on the bed when I heard a knock outside. A bell boy holding a cart with a right amount of food plastered in front of me. I didn't know there was room service?

"I'm sorry, I think you have the wrong room. I don't have room service."

"We don't have room service ma'am. We ordered it from the kitchen." Seemingly surprised he also said.

"Can I just double check? I really don't have ... room service."

The last words were weak because I could smell the fragrant food. If it's wrong I'll definitely take it! It's starving to be able to avoid avoiding that person.

"Sure ma'am."

Just minutes after the man left he knocked again and so, yes! I was able to eat my dinner. I don't know if the person who provided the room service made a mistake but they probably did it that way. Maybe someone from above saw my hardships.

Damn, I think I'm going crazy with hunger. Beyond the agreed time I went out for what Celest was saying was a celebration. I was amazed and amused by the beauty of the surroundings because I had never experienced going out at night here because I was just locked in a room.

I regret wearing my crochet brallette but gladly I paired it with white loose chiffon high waist pants. So even if I get cold, I won't i will feel all the cold. I'm still a little embarrassed because there are already a few people there. I no longer wore contact lenses because my eyes would just dry out in the breeze. It's more healthy that way.

Only a few huts are occupied by people. I saw Celest's group on the other one so I went straight there. They laid a mat on the sand just opposite the hut that was there.

That's where the noise comes from because most are female. "Here comes the model!" I winced at the height of Celest's voice. It grabbed the attention of some and made me blush because others looked at me and laughed. It's really good and my vision is blurry now, I can't see them very well.

"I'm glad you came, Cyreese! Are you feeling well now?"

She's a bit tipsy. It even handed me a bottle and none of my own accepted that. I was the one he talked to but his eyesight was on someone else with us here so I couldn't return the beer he gave me. I just sat there quietly and smiled from time to time at their jokes and fun.

"Hey! I'm sorry, I'm late. Baby and I are still having dinner."

My gaze stumbled on the voice that stopped the commotion in our circle. I gulped seeing the girl. I immediately rolled my eyes around to see if Levi was with him but no matter how hard I closed my eyes I couldn't see the people. They are too blurry. "Hope everyone has a baby!" A woman in our group shouted.

"Edi have a child!" Sister Celest laughed when a friend of hers answered that. Now he was really obviously drunk. I never saw Celest this way, I'm used to her prim and proper. I stared at Levi's girlfriend. He was wearing a yellow crop top while the bottom was ripped denim shorts.

She drank the bottle of beer that was given to her, the type she was used to drinking. I looked at the bottle I was holding that had gone cold because I didn't know what to do with it. I can't help but to compare myself to her.

She look empowered. Type of a woman who looks like sister Celest. Demure, matured and classy. Levi and I are the real thing. And baby? Baby's endearment? Hope all that. lol I swallowed the lump in my throat.

Feeling the pressure while looking at the bottle in my hands, I took a sip on it. Ugh! The chisel! Why do they look like they're just chugging a juice? Some of them are already predominant.

"How to have children, you don't have a baby!" They were all laughing while I was just quiet and didn't know how it felt now that Levi's girlfriend was here. It's also nice to get along with. It was almost half an hour before he said goodbye.

"Celest, I'll go, huh? Baby can't sleep without me." Wow.

Why could he sleep without me? Are you in each other's eyes? I shook my head harshly. Shocks. I think I'm getting drunk with this beer. I didn't even half it. Jeez. I saw the mini bar stool just a few steps from here. Looking at it, I thought of having a juice instead of this beer in my hands.

I stood up without letting them know because they didn't seem to notice me either. I sat down on a stool first because the bartender was talking to someone there. While patiently waiting for the bartender to be free a man appeared in front of me. I immediately backed away from itto me.

"Easy. It's just me." I shrugged.

Thinking about what happened last time we saw each other.

"You're here."

"Is not it obvious?" I uttered.

"Aba!"

He looked at me with so much amusement. I pursed my lips to refrain myself from laughing. I laugh at the way he looks because he seems to be too offended by what I'm talking about. He moved his jaw in a harsh way and was about to say something but the bartender approached us in our place.

"Two shots of margarita."

"No. I only have juice."

He looked at me without any emotion. "Boring." He whispered.

"Two shots, please."

"What-"

"Shush!" I breathed harshly.

"You're still a doctor but you're a bad influence."

He looked at me with amusement again for the second time.

"Hey you! How did you know I'm a doctor huh? You're a stalker? That's why I'm wondering how did you hear about my charities when I always keep it lowkey."

I just stared at him and didn't answer. I just let him feel his own shame. He stared at me as if convinced that he was right in what he said.

"Don't worry. I can't type you either."

"Dang! Its pride, because you're handsome."

I laughed at his words. Boyfriend my ass!

"Go. Taste it, it's delicious."

I saw him licked the salt on the lips of the glass and drank it in one shot. After, his lips squeezed the lime without shrugging. I believed it was delicious so I imitated what he did. The bitterness of the liquid seemed to draw in my throat and I was close to the mixed taste of it. I heard him laugh. I'm still coughing, unable to move on from the taste.

"Eat the lime. Is it delicious?" I looked at him badly, my eyes saying that I did not intend to agree with what he had left.

"Where's your hot boyfriend?" He whispered in my ears because the place is having a little commotion, because there are loud speakers nearby.

"I told you, he's not my boyfriend."

"It's just me." Sleepy eyes I looked at him. I hissed.

"There's no sense in fighting. He has a girlfriend."

He waved his hand at the bartender and quickly frowned at me as we were given two more shots of margarita.

"It's over, Ethan." I said with finality.

"I can't believe it. I'll bet all my ex, he doesn't have a girlfriend."

"Why ex?" I laughed.

"Why? I value my ex's so I'll bet them." he drank his shot again.

I was shaken by what he said.

"Well then, say bye to your ex's because he's taken now ... with that woman ... sleeping in each other's arm."

I cried in a broken voice. I wasn't able to put it in a proper sentence anymore because of the familiar pain that suddenly slashed in my chest. All I can think about is that they will sleep together because they can't 'supposedly' sleep without each other.

"Oof! Broken hearted yet!" He laughed.

I smiled sadly but the truth is I was really laughing at him too. I kinda like his personality. He seems uptight yet very jolly. It is not obvious what a man wants, just in his posture and posture as well as his undeniable good looks. I just laugh.

"Fvck you." I whispered but then I realized how bad my mouth is. I immediately covered my mouth and giggled causing him to laugh as well.

"Shot that!" He was jealous of me.

"I'm getting drunk. Ethan, swear to the goddess!" I can feel it.

I'm getting dizzy but still I'm thankful. Because he is here para entertain me. And at least somehow I can avoid thinking about how they can sleep side by side, probably cuddling and all that shit.

"Ugh! Damn it!" I shout because why do I even need to remember !?

"When broken, drink!"

I looked dizzy at the new shot that was placed on us. I shook and rubbed my forehead at what he said. What are the other topics that I opened just to entertain Ethan because I don't want to drink anymore. I found out about some charities that bothered him and all.

How the system is and how low key they are. I can feel the dizziness and every time I'm spacing out all I can think of was him and his woman. So every time like that, he gets the chance to give me a drink. I went to the bar stool on the last shot and swallowed repeatedly. The bitterness!

"What? So yet?"

He whispered teasingly to me. I raised my eyes to him, almost half asleep because of the alcohol's effect. Before I could speak he licked the lime in my mouth which I had forgotten about.

"Don't worry, when you wake up tomorrow you'll be taken again."

He again whispered in my ears. I can't even manage to say another word so I just shook my head again and laughed at what he said.

"Where's your room? I'll just take you."

He said loudly. I gestured my hands saying there's no need because I can go back to my room myself. I stand up and I'm still a little tired but I feel like I can really do it. I almost fell but fortunately he caught me, he grabbed my waist and uttered some curses.

"Eww." I heard him say.

"What eww?" I never heard his answer because a violent force pulled at me and my world seemed to shake with the dizziness I felt.

"Back off."