Chapter 80: want her heart
It is late spring, and the air has the fragrance of tea millet, lingering and sad.
It was late at night, Si Xingpei was sitting alone on the sofa in the living room, with no lights turned on, and he lit a box of cigars one by one.
He didn't smoke, he didn't even bother to take a breath, he put it all in his hand, and when it was completely burnt out, he unconsciously cut one more point.
The night was quiet and lonely, and his heart was empty.
Encountering Gu Qingzhou in Daxin Department Store, when she hurriedly dodged, Si Xingpei froze and thought, "My Qingzhou will be sad."
He was held by another woman, and when Qingzhou saw it, he would naturally be sad.
He was afraid that she would be sad.
His cat is a noble thing, and no other woman can trample on her dignity. Si Xingpei needs to protect her.
Followed all the way, but found that she was in a very good mood, even better than before meeting him.
That joy is by no means fake, it's her true mood.
Si Xingpei's heart sank.
He doesn't want to have deep contact with women, but that doesn't mean he doesn't understand women.
Instead, he knew women well.
Gu Qingzhou's reaction made Si Xingpei understand her mood: she thought she was relieved.
If it weren't for her laughing so happily, which completely stimulated Si Xingpei, Si Xingpei would not have rushed into her dressing room.
Si Xingpei understood that she didn't care about him, and she couldn't even wait to leave him.
His light boat, do not love him.
Si Xingpei sat blankly on the sofa, recalling that since the meeting, Gu Qingzhou was in his arms, all he did was cry, and his mood sank to the bottom.
When kissing her, she would cry; when hugging her, she would cry, and there were tears in her sleep.
She keeps struggling and keeps saying don't do this!
Why did she smile so happily?
Si Xingpei raised her, and naturally hoped that she could have such a smile.
She hates him, she has said many times, that is not against the girl's heart, she really hates it.
She just couldn't get out.
Every time she made an appointment, she would refuse, and only came out under the threat of Si Xingpei.
If she doesn't love him, then she will love others in the future. She is laughing and shy in the arms of other men - Si Xingpei pressed the cigar into the ashtray fiercely!
"There's no need to know what she's thinking, just be by my side!" Si Xingpei was decadent and unable to rely on the sofa.
Does he love Gu Qingzhou?
what is love?
Si Xingpei was at a loss, he loved her very much.
Si Xingpei can cook, but he doesn't like to cook, but he is willing to cook for Gu Qingzhou; his physical needs are daily needs, just like eating and sleeping, but for Gu Qingzhou, he did not hurt her body.
He cherished this girl very much.
Why cherish?
The other party saved his life!
She was calm that night and performed well. She resolved the crisis for Si Xingpei and was considered Si Xingpei's benefactor.
"Does she not know how to love people, or just doesn't love me?" Si Xingpei lit another cigar, took a deep breath, and exhaled fierce smoke, "Will she love others in the future?"
Si Xingpei thought that after he died, Gu Qingzhou would be with others. He felt unbearable, but he understood, after all, he was dead at that time.
But thinking that she would love others, he couldn't accept it!
He couldn't bear that his light boat would love another man in the future. She would rejoice at the man's flattery and cry at the man's mistakes.
If the man she loves and another woman are arm-in-arm, she will cry and make trouble, and even point a knife at him, saying that she is going to kill him.
Si Xingpei could imagine her angry look - he took two more cigars, and his lungs burned!
Si Xingpei always only wanted a woman's body, but now he wants Gu Qingzhou's heart.
Want to go crazy.
However, will his heart be given to Gu Qingzhou? Will he be loyal? Will he marry her?
Si Xingpei has too many enemies, and as his wife, Gu Qingzhou has to face the painstaking assassination. At that time, can Si Xingpei protect her?
Or, for the sake of Gu Qingzhou, will he stop being so presumptuous, be more restrained, be softer, and reduce the number of enemies?
Will he protect himself for her, prevent himself from dying in the war, think about the long-term future, grow old with her, have children, and let her have something to depend on?
Thinking of this, he felt that his feelings for Qingzhou were not that deep.
None of this he could do.
He was just jealous.
Jealousy is inexplicable, because Gu Qingzhou didn't fall in love with anyone.
Since childhood, Si Xingpei had no lack of women's secret love, and there were many women who had loved him. Si Xingpei recalled that a woman's sincerity was worthless, even a little humble.
he does not like.
He didn't want a woman to love him, he just wanted Gu Qingzhou to love him!
He pondered all night, feeling gloomy.
The next day, he went to the station.
Si Xingpei kept his eye in the city, secretly protecting Gu Qingzhou, and at the same time reporting Gu Qingzhou's whereabouts to him.
He doesn't like Gu Qingzhou's contact with other men.
Gu Qingzhou is very well-behaved. He goes to school and goes home every day, nothing unusual.
After Si Xingpei's depression that day disappeared, he never thought about it again.
In the final analysis, love or not is too illusory. He is a mirror image to men. He doesn't particularly care about it. What he wants is Gu Qingzhou, who is still by his side.
His depression that day was just a coincidence that his mood was not right.
When Gu Qingzhou went back that day, he was in a bad mood and didn't even sleep all night.
Never gained and lost have very different meanings.
Gu Qingzhou never thought about getting rid of Si Xingpei's clutches before, because she didn't have the ability.
Then, she mistakenly thought that she was relieved, and the excitement in her heart was hard to contain. She didn't even know that she would be so happy when she left Si Xingpei. She felt that the air was fresh and the sky was high and cloudless, just like a dream.
It is indeed a dream.
A few minutes later, Si Xingpei told her that her dream was broken.
She seems to have lost her freedom again!
"Maybe, only by killing him can I have a future!" Gu Qingzhou thought bitterly.
She thought of the Browning.
She could kill Si Xingpei with that gun, and she would be free from now on.
She sniffed.
It's really sad, the grievances in this life are all given by Si Xingpei.
Although he has benefited Gu Qingzhou and cooked for Gu Qingzhou, he cannot give Gu Qingzhou a future on which to stand.
Gu Qingzhou seemed to be kept in a cage.
Really like a canary.
The owner treats the canary as a baby, and raises it carefully, for fear of death.
So good, what does it mean to Gu Qingzhou!
For the next week, Gu Qingzhou was always in no spirit when he went to school.
During the swimming class, she remembered the day when she bought a swimsuit, when Si Xingpei broke into her dressing room and said those words, her heart sank.
His heart sank, and his body fell straight down.
Gu Qingzhou sank to the bottom, and Yan Luoshui picked her up.
"Is your foot cramping?" Yan Luoshui was nervous and worried.
The classmates gathered around and asked her.
Mies, who taught the class, was also terrified.
"I'll pass the swimming class for you, don't come to class again." Miss Chen gave Gu Qingzhou extrajudicial grace.
Gu Qingzhou was a blessing in disguise. From then on, she would stand by and watch swimming lessons, and she could stay in a daze and think about her thoughts.
The school is not too difficult, but the homework is getting more and more difficult.
There have been some changes in the family.
The newly arrived Xiangxue was carried to the fourth concubine, and Gu Guizhang treated the guests to dinner, and it was quite lively for a while. He attached great importance to this concubine, which was more solemn than when the second and third concubines were carried.
Gu Qingzhou discussed with the third concubine, and each gave ten yuan to the fourth concubine as a gift.
"Will it be too much?" The third aunt asked.
The Gu family was not rich, and the third concubine, who depended on Gu Guizhang for food, had no private money.
"You heard about me." Gu Qingzhou leaned over and whispered a few words in the ear of the third concubine.
The third concubine's eyes were sharp, and she felt that Gu Qingzhou's idea was very good, and immediately agreed.
Ten dollars is a lot, but San Yiniang can take it out. She and Miao'er have some unknown private money in case they need it.
Miao'er was very distressed.
"Sister, why did you give that goblin so much money?" Miao'er muttered, "Ten yuan! Too much!"
Xiang Xuesheng was so glamorous that everyone in the Gu family felt that she was like a fairy.
"What do you know?" The third aunt smiled too narrowly, "This is Qingzhou's idea."
"What idea?" Miao'er became curious when she heard that it was Gu Qingzhou's idea.
——*——*——
Xiangxue has been a concubine twice.
Before being picked up by Qin Zhengzheng, she was the eleventh concubine of an old country landlord.
She had just passed the door for three months when the old landlord died, not in her room, of course, but on the newly arrived twelfth concubine.
Only three months later, a newcomer came in, that old pervert!
Later, she stayed at the landlord's house for two years.
A lot happened during this time.
However, she lived a good life. There were men who loved her, and the landlord had five sons.
Qin Zhengzheng went to pick her up, she really didn't want to come. Then I thought, the city is rich and prosperous, and there is nothing wrong with seeing the world.
Although Gu Guizhang was old, he was handsome and decent, incomparable to a country man. He also had money, and Xiangxue was also passionate.
When he came to the city, he went directly to Gu's house. Just as Qin Zhengzheng had promised, Gu Guizhang raised her as his concubine, and he even sent a maid to serve her.
Everything sounded fine, except for one thing: she had no money.
As soon as Xiangxue arrived at Gu's house, Gu Guizhang bought a whole set of gold jewelry for her, all of which were Huang Chengcheng's, which made Xiangxue happy.
But she has no cash.
These jewelry are her dowry, and she can't sell them.
She came from the countryside and had no cash. This kind of embarrassment brought a bit of inferiority, which made Xiangxue very uneasy.
Gu Guizhang is a man, Xiangxue is conceited to know men, he can give you money, but if you ask for it, things will change.
Xiangxue couldn't speak, at least not now.
She vaguely mentioned it to Qin Zhengzheng, who pretended to be deaf and dumb.
"I must be trying to pinch me, thinking that if I have no money, I will beg her and listen to her in everything!" Xiangxue knew Qin Zhengzheng's thoughts and gritted her teeth secretly.
Xiangxue lived for a few days, and she already knew from the servant's mouth that Qin Zhengzheng had brought her to the city.
Qin Zhengzheng is not for Xiangxue, nor for Gu Guizhang, but for her own relief.
Xiangxue was used by Qin Zhengzheng.
Xiangxue arrived for the first time, so she didn't dare to act rashly, and she could let Qin Zhengzheng handle it.
"Wait a few months, I'm pregnant, let me toss you!" Xiangxue thought to herself.
Just in Xiangxue's desperation, Gu Qingzhou found her.
