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Me: give me the keys
She: why do you want the keys?? to release him that never what you have to do Dina is to go away now he won't be able to hold you like last time
Me: I won't go away, do you realize what you are doing, you allowed yourself to undress Moab and leave him naked just to tell me all this, don't you know the shame, you are inflicting a great shame on him
Her: ah Dia you are really pathetic after all that happened and what he did to you you are still thinking about his feelings damn you don't have pity on yourself
Me: It's not only Moab who did bad things to me you did it too I know it was you who pushed me at Mr. and Mrs. Smith's birthday party, just like it was you who pushed me at the pool, and again it was you who asked Moab to do those bad things so don't pretend you want to help me, or want my happiness now give me the keys
She: Yes, you are right, but I did not act in Moab's place. He did it of his own accord, he could have refused to do all these things, but unfortunately he chose evil. My work is done here, it's up to you what you do or don't do, bye bye," she said, dropping the keys to the ground.
I looked at the keys on the ground and I moved slowly then I crouched down to take the keys then I untied Moab he had his eyes open now but he didn't say anything, I had this ball inside of me, for once I didn't know how to react what should I say to Moab, I couldn't even imagine what he must have felt it was a big humiliation especially for a man.
Me: Moab, was that the problem you had to solve?
He didn't answer me and kept looking up to the ceiling, what should I do?
??: Dina, where are you, you think your work is done, go downstairs and help fix my house, said Moab's mother, bursting into the room.
Me: I can't Mrs. Moab.......Moab doesn't feel very well
She: rather says that I interrupted something, so instead of working you come to satisfy the needs of your husband, come down
Me: I won't come now, please go away
She: it is to me that you speak fool she says wanting to give me a slap
Me: I don't allow you to slap me once more, don't do it again I say while swinging her hand that I had previously stopped
She: so now you answer me and you act badly towards me do you have therefore no respect
Me: yes I do but not like women like you, I recognize that my marriage with Moab was bad because he did not inform you of it and then I apologized but you did not want to wait for anything, if you were really a mother and you really loved your son you should have made efforts for him to accept me and simply to respect me because for a mother nothing counts more than the happiness of her children, You want to give a woman to your son but you are not the one who will have to live with her afterwards, women like you I don't know what to call them but you should know that you are bad and if you continue you will lose your son, besides he doesn't carry you too much in his heart will know why, now you go out I pray you.
She: that's how your stupid mother raised you
Me: at least my fool of a mother as you say it is not like you, you make you ashamed and you are contemptible sorry to say it now leave I pray you
She: you will see little villager she says while going away
Once she was out I locked the door, then I turned back to Moab who still hadn't moved, this was not good
Me: uh come on we're going to take a shower I said as I sat him up
Him: no Dina
Me: yes, let's take a shower first
Him: Dina......... don't pretend that nothing has happened at the moment you should hate me not assist me
Me: what Vicky did tonight was not good, I understand why you didn't want to say anything, I'm sorry I say while letting go of a tear
Him: I'm sorry Dina, I beg your pardon, if you want to leave you can, why would you stay with me?
Me: you chase me now when I wanted to go away you held me back and now that I know everything you want to take me away say I wiping my tears
Him: I should never have hidden the truth from you, to hurt you so much, to tell you all those hurtful words, to force you to marry him Dina you are better than me
Me: you're going to go to shower and then we'll see what we'll do, ok
Him: Okay, thanks.
I helped him to the bathroom and then I took some clothes from the closet to give him, my God I didn't know what to do should I call Amir?
Me: hello
Him: good evening Dina it's late is everything ok
Me: no not at all it's Moab he's not feeling well, could you come I really don't know how to do it
Him: ok, but what happened?
Me: just come, please
Him: Ok, I'll come right away
Me: Thank you
I sat on the bed wondering how I should react to this news, for me it doesn't change anything but for Moab it seems that life had stopped, why did he think that I was going to leave him just because of his problem, it could happen to everyone but men don't often bear to have their virility questioned.
I waited for the bathroom door to open and close, Moab came and sat down in front of me, I looked at him without speaking but he did not look at me
Me: Moab don't act like this why do you lower your eyes in my presence?
Him: because I don't have the courage to look you in the face Dinah
Me: and why?? because of what Vicky said?? don't feel belittled by that, especially not in front of me
Him: yes, but for once I am really ashamed of it.
Me: ashamed in front of me your wife or do you not consider me as such anymore
Him: not at all, just that if you want to leave now I won't hold you back because you have lived enough, endured enough
Me: I may be a fool to stay, but I won't go away, and besides I don't blame you, you apologized to me and that's enough although I should have made you bite the dust but you know me a little now I'm not strong of character, Besides I wanted to apologize for the fight with your mother but also I would like you to know that I will not let her insult me nor hit me anymore, and moreover I will go away when you don't want me anymore, when I feel that you don't want me anymore.
Him: you don't have to apologize for my mother, but Dina you better go away what future will you have by my side, I could never touch you as a man does, I could never get you pregnant, you will never be a mother, every woman dreams of giving life
Me: not every woman no
Him: but you if you are going to stay with me just and to look at me in the eyes to some moment you will get tired
Me: in a relationship there is not only sex, although God made sure to put it in the marriage to allow husband and wife to share something together, to be connected, in a relationship there are things that also count like trust, love, sincerity, listening especially listening, understanding and tolerance. There are preliminaries before any sexual act, we can just stop there, for the children we can adopt I have always dreamed of it and so we will have our Moab family
Him: why do you take it so well, why don't you hate me
Me: because if I were in your place I would have liked to have had the same thing done for me
Him: I don't think I would have reacted so positively
Me: we'll never know and that's good
Him: if we had to take a new house, how would you like it?
Me: I would be more in favor of an apartment not very big but spacious with a nice view
Him: ok. Thank you very much Dina, you are really a special woman and you leave me speechless
Me: I have done nothing Moab absolutely nothing
Him: yes you have, come on he says, holding his arms out to me
I snuggle in gently
Him: thank you, I was so afraid that you would leave
Me: I understand
He kissed me on the forehead and then took me again in his arms
Me: but you know Moab no secret is worth a human being better to tell things as they are and to assume the consequences than to hurt people, next time please think about it.
TO FOLLOW...............
