Chapter 34

Stacey's POV

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"His facial expression was worth watching." Adams joked at first, but he immediately shut his mouth when he sensed my aura. "Stacey, you're scaring me."

"Then, you should be scared. Adams." I spoke; my voice was overlapping with Alicia's, indicating to him that we were in no mood to take any shit right now. "Now tell me, why were you so desperate to talk with me?" I asked while driving the car.

"I was thinking if we could sort out our difference and patch…." Before he could have completed his sentence. Alicia growled at him loudly, giving him the answer to his unasked question.

"Alicia, we were mates."

"Exactly, we WERE mates.", I responded. "And there is no future of our relationship," I made this clear to him. "I'm having this conversation with you, Adams, because I want to clear the air between us. Just because I let you enter in my father's pack and save your ass from getting kicked because I want to give you one last chance to end this issue without creating any scene.", I said in frustration.

"I know you still love me.."

I growled at him again. Couldn't this man understand one single thing? "I LOVED you, Adams. I repeat, I used to love you but now? I don't. And I can prove this right here, right now, by killing you by ripping your throat. And trust me, I won't feel an ounce of pain while doing so. I don't know what your problem is, Adams? So, just let's talk and sort this, but I'm warning you if you will repeat something like 'I want you back, then I will throw you out of the car.", I threatened.

He remained silent for a while and started looking out the car's window after that. I didn't disturb him and let him take his time to summarise everything before speaking.

"I feel sorry for treating you like that.", He finally said. He finally admitted his genuine feeling. "I didn't do right with you, Stacey, and I'm really, very sorry for that. I will be lying if I will say that I'm not thinking about you lately, and I missed the way you used to treat me and love me. And how much loyal you were to me. Though I kept blaming you for sleeping with Derek but deep down, I always knew that you never did. You never cheated on me, and you were not the type of woman who used to cheat when you were committed to someone."

"Okay! I will take that part as a compliment. But Adams, it's too late now. As far as I remembered, you had moved on in your life with Megan, and you also had accepted my rejection, so what brought you back to me?" I asked.

I saw him feeling hesitant, as if he was feeling shame or embarrassed to talk about that part.

"See, I'm not returning back. That's for sure. So, maybe you can share with me in brief that I will never think evil of you. Just because we are EX now, that doesn't mean we will have to share bitter stories, you know. If we can't be friends, we can be each other's well-wisher, you know."

"In short, everything that I did to you came back to me in another way.", he opened up.

"What happen exactly? It's not possible that Megan is leaving you because you're sterile or something. Maybe I sound weird right now, but I have seen in her eyes that she loves you, even though you are a jerk. She loves you even you are.."

"An asshole?"

"Yeah! Something like that. So, now my question is, why are you running away from her when you have such a loving mate?"

"I won't go into detail, but she did something that she shouldn't have done, and it broke the trust which I had in her. And I don't want to give her a second chance for her deed.", He hissed angrily.

"You are angry. That's why you are saying this. I'm sure once your anger will calm down, you will return back to her."

"No. I won't."

"Okay! And what does she want? Does she, too, want to end this relationship?" I asked to check the chances of survival of this relationship.

"No. She was begging and crying in front of me not to leave me.", He said, on which I remembered my days. Even I had to go through the same thing at one moment in my life. Even I had begged and cried for him not to leave me, but he didn't listen to me, and now, he was asking for a second chance from me.

"Don't you think that you are repeating the same thing with her that you had done to me?"

"Yeah! The only difference is that you don't deserve that, but she does."

"And who the hell do you think that you are to decide all this thing? Just because you have a dick, you didn't have to behave like a dickhead, you know? No one is perfect, and if you keep eliminating people from your life just because of their mistakes and imperfectness, then one day you will be left alone in your life, Adams. Mind those words of mine."

"For a while, just leave the topic of other imperfectness; I want to know what is there in you for which any woman can even fall for you? Nope. I don't find anything good in you. All you are full of negative energy, and everything about you is fake. We both know that if I will have any idea about your pathetic mindset about infertile women, then I will have rejected you on our first meeting." I couldn't help myself from showing him his place.

We both didn't talk after my outburst. After a while, I myself continued, "I didn't mean to insult you, okay! It's just that you can't just give up on someone because the situation is not ideal or something bad happened. Great relationships are not great because they have no problems. They are great because both people care enough about the other person to find a way to make it work."

"If she is imperfect, then even you're, and together you are preparing your perfect world. And the best way to save a relationship is 'do what you did at the beginning of a relationship of that relationship, and there won't be an end.' Hmm?"

He nodded but again didn't say anything. After a few hours later, I was about to cross my pack border when I spoke again, "Where should I drop you?"

"Can I stay with you at your penthouse tonight?" he asked, on which I narrowed my eyes at his request. I couldn't trust him blindly; who knew he would stab in my back.

I had learned my lesson that one should be good enough to offer help to needy people, but at the same time, don't be good enough to let someone use you.

"Only if you will talk to Megan over the phone in front of me about your stay at my place, and you will try to sort out your issues!!" I kept a condition before him if he wanted to stay at my place. I didn't have a problem with him staying with me under the same roof as long as he behaved.

"Okay! I will drop a message to her."

"From my phone. So that I can confirm that you are not lying.", I added.

"Fine!", He agreed reluctantly.

"You are going to thank me one day for this little pep talk and for drilling some sense into you." I chuckled at her irritated expression.

"So, you really don't love me?", He asked that damn question again. I parked the car in the parking lot and then looked at him.

"Look into my eyes and tell me, can you see even a drop of love for you?" I asked, on which he stared at me for a while because he was changing the question.

"So, you now love that Beta?"

"Sometimes love means letting go when you want to hold on tighter.", I responded, opening the door of the car."

"So, you indeed love him.", he said, hopping out of the car. "Does he know?"

"No. I never got a chance to tell him about it, and I'm glad that I didn't; otherwise, he wouldn't have been stuck between his mate and me, and that is the last thing that I want in his life because love means wanting the other person to be happy, which can be 'with us or without us.'"

"But…but you could have stayed there and at least a chance to see him daily. It was not that anyone was going to attack the pack."

"Stay there and get hurt by seeing them together? And ended up doing something mean? No to that part!! I'm not a saint, Adams and I'm scared that I might act like a bitch seeing him with his mate. And we can love him even if he is far from us! We can love him even if we can't label him 'ours.' We can love him even if he doesn't love us back. We can love him who loves someone else! We can love him without them knowing!", Saying this, I looked for the key to my penthouse in the purse, and a smile broke on my face recalling the first day when I brought Derek here at this place.

*****

'"Derek, what're you doing?"

"Helping you to reach your penthouse. You have drunk too much tonight.",

"I know, but it's because of you."

"Excuse me?"

"Don't act shocked, Derek. I drank this much because of you...because I knew I could trust the person with whom I was drinking. By the way...you need to get my keys from here.", I said, pointing toward my breast.

He glared at me, on which I laughed, looking for the key in my handbag.

"Just a minute, Luna."

"Wow! Your fingers know how to work well.", I commented and earned a glare from him again. "You're no fun."

"Stop being a perv."

"I am your Luna. You do remember that right, Beta Derek?"

*****

Unlocking the door, I walked in and saw the state of my penthouse, which looked like a very personal tsunami had come here.

"Wow! You broke all our photo frames and the things which could remind you about us.", he commented, looking around. I rolled my eyes hearing him.

"You can't blame me for that, can you?" I asked and forwarded my phone to him. "Here! Drop a text to Megan and dare you to try to delete it.", I warned. Nodding his head, he took the phone from my hand, but before he could have sent her a text, my phone started ringing. I couldn't see who was calling me; he received the call.

"Hello, Derek!"

'What the hell you are doing with Stacey's phone, and where is she?'

"Well, Stacey is busy. That's why I'm using her phone. Do you want the detail of the work she is doing right now? Because it is so then, I can give to the detail."

Bastard!

He was doing the same with Derek that he did to him.

I snatched the phone from his hand to talk to Derek, making him realize that he was saying nothing but nonsense. But by that time, Derek had already disconnected the call in anger.

"Why did you do that?"

"First, to take my little revenge, and second, to make him realize his actual feeling."

"He loves his mate."

"There are some cases where werewolves don't share the same bond with their mate."

"He told me that he used to love his mate a lot."

"Yeah! Just like you used to love your mate a lot. But now you are over your mate. You realized your feelings because you were clear about the fact that you want to move on from your past. But the situation is different from Derek's point of view; he never wanted to move on in his life; it's just that he didn't actually realize that when he already did."

"Text Megan and pack your things that are my place before I burnt them all.", I said, changing the topic.

I had hardly taken a few steps, and I felt everything around me spinning around.

Did Adams do anything? That was the first thing that came to my mind. I held the nearby wall for support.

"Stacey? Are you okay?", He reached near me and tried to touch me, but I showed my hand to him, signaling him to stop.

"I hope you're not the reason behind it.", I warned him and walked inside my room, closing it from inside.

'Alicia'

'I'm here.'

'Do you think this is the effect of wolfsbane?'

'No. I don't think so because I'm completely fine.', She responded, but I ran toward the washroom because all of a sudden, I felt like I would puke any moment. I did. I did exactly the same. I emptied all the food which was in the system that I had the dinner.

'What is happening with me, Alicia? Something like this has never happened to me before.'

'I don't know. But whatever it is, it is not a disease; otherwise, I would have detected it. I think you should get a full-body check-up.'

'Yeah! You're right.', After changing my clothes, I slept for a few minutes after lying down on the bed.

*****

In the middle of the night, I woke up because of hunger. It was obvious to feel hungry because I had thrown up everything a few hours later. And thankfully, by that time, I was feeling much better than before. I walked out of the room to check if I had something to eat. Since I wasn't staying here for a few days, so there was no chance of having anything in the freeze. I looked around to see what I could eat, and that's when my eyes landed on pickles.

I was not someone who just to eat just pickles when I was hungry, but damn to my hormones. It wanted to have nothing else that pickles at that moment.

I finished the bottle of pickles, and I wanted a little more, but before I could have reached for another bottle, Derek's scent hit my nose.

What was he doing here?

I ran toward the door, and before he could have rang the doorbell or knocked on the door. I opened the door and found him raising his hand to knock on the door. He was in the same clothes as which he was a few hours ago. My eyes again drank him in like water in a desert. But his eyes were blood red. It made me wonder if he had been crying. I could also smell alcohol coming from him, and I was positive that this was the first time he had drank this much. He was not among those who used to drink it without any limit. To me, he looked like a complete mess, but at the same time, he looked too handsome.

But why was he here?

He stepped forward and pulled me into a tight hug. After thirty-six hours, he was this close to me; before I could have used my mind, my heart reacted, and I hugged him back. He kissed my forehead, my cheeks, my nose, and my neck and kissed me over and over again as his hand ran over my body in desperation. I didn't know it was so important to feel his body against mine, to feel alive like I was given air to breathe. I let him explore my body because I needed this.

And then reality sunk into my mind like a strike of lightning.

I pushed him away, pulling myself together.

"What are you doing here, Derek?"

"I heard Adams's voice when I called you, so I just wanted to confirm whether you two are really back together but then smelling his scent from the guest room. I can now see that you two are almost together."

"Hmm. Now that you have already confirmed everything, you should leave now."

He chuckled before speaking, "Is this way to take revenge on me? Just like you did on him? Huh"

"You're not in your sense, Derek."

"I never drink that much in which I can lose my mind. I know what am I speaking and to whom.", he snapped. "So where was I? Yes! If this is your way to take revenge, then congratulations, it's working. It's killing me from inside.", he laughed, pointing toward his heart.

"In fact, I have brought something.", He said and took out something from under his shirt, which was wrapped under his clothes. "Instead of giving me slow death, just end my chapters now and here.", he added, showing me the silver dagger.

"Have you gone mad?" I asked him angrily, throwing that damn dagger away. But I couldn't say a word more than that, seeing him how broken he was, tears were brimming in his eyes which could fall from his eyes any moment. I closed the door of my penthouse and dragged him into my room, holding his hand while he just followed me without creating any fuss.

I made him sit on my bed and crouched in front of him, holding his hand.

"You know me right that I can never think of taking revenge on you.", I said, on which he nodded his head.

"So, please stop hurting yourself because by doing this, you are hurting me too. And you should sleep now; it's too late."

"Sleep with me."

"No," I sternly directly, shaking my head. "You have a mate now, and this is wrong. You know I don't involve myself with someone else when I am committed, or the other person is committed."

"Wasn't it wrong to mix personal and professional life by asking your Beta to please you by making you forget about your pain?"

"Don't. Don't raise that topic."

"Why not? Then you had to ask me to pretend like your love interest, and today I'm asking you to pretend like I don't have a mate."

"No. This…" I tried to deny it again, but he growled and covered my mouth with his.

"Please!! Just for one last time. One last time.", he pleaded, breaking the kiss.

"One Last time." he nodded his head, but I doubt that. But at the same time, I gave in. A second later, we both clung to each other as if our life depended on it, and he was living for this. He opened the robe of my nightwear and pulled my dress down with his teeth, and his mouth clamped down on my nipples directly. I didn't wear any bra because I was feeling restless when I changed my clothes back then. He groaned while sucking them while playing with the other nipples with his fingers.

He tore my panties, throwing them away, and unbuckled his belt before pulling his aching dick out. I grabbed my sheet tightly and started feeling desperate to feel it inside me again.

Damn it!

I was wet already, even though he didn't have even touched my bare pussy.

He lifted my dress and held it up as his eyes zeroed in on my pussy. What did he have to stare at it for this long?

"Are you going to just stare at it or do something else too?" I asked, getting impatience.

"To be honest, I want to stare at it every single second of the day. I wanted you on my table, my bed, my car, and everywhere. I want to see you spread out everywhere. This is a view that I will kill anyone that tries to take it from me.", he said with his darkened eyes, which was telling me that even Rex agreed with it.

In what mess I had caught into?

I trembled and cried out the moment his fingers touched me there. He might be thinking about how wet I was for him. His dick strained toward it desperately, indicating that I wasn't the only one who was wet for him.

He entered me in one go, maybe because I was that wet and slippery for him. He groaned and buried his face against my chest as he continued to pound into me. Out of nowhere, he paused midway, and I grabbed his hair and forced him to look at me.

"Move.", I ordered.

"You're not in the position to order me. Plead in front of me."

"Please. Derek. Stop torturing me.", I pleaded.

"Tell me that you want me. Tell me that you will never want someone else except me.", He demanded.

"No," I shook my head.

"Then I'm not moving.", he said, staying still.

"Fine! I want you, and I will never want someone else except you.", I cried.

"Good. I needed to hear those words more than I needed my next breath.", He confessed and kissed my lips. And then he started pounding in and out of my pussy all over again. Damn! I didn't want it to end. I wanted to stay like this all my life, but then I was already close to climax, but then his situation was no different than mine. He pushed forward one last time before he buried his seed inside me.

He laid on the top of me to rest without pulling his dick inside of me. I thought that he had led down for a while, but he slept. He literally slept on the top of me, leaving me awake. I kept staring at the ceiling, wondering what was I doing?

The same thing that happened to me?

Again someone's else mate was cheating on his mate, and this time I was the third wheel in their relationship. Immediately I felt nothing but regret and guilt. I needed to stop this. I needed to get control of myself.

I let him sleep for now, but I needed to be strict; otherwise, I would be the reason behind everything which had started from this pretending thing. I didn't realize when did I sleep in that position, but I opened my eyes immediately when I felt a part of me pulling out of me.

Correction, please! It was never my part in the first place.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to disturb you.", He apologized for waking me up and buckled his pants. Next, he fixed my clothes, but I grabbed his wrist when his hand reached near my breasts, and my words were spoken with venom.

"If you decide to leave your mate or cheat on your mate because of me, then that will be the last day you will be seeing me.", He blinked at me as my hands let go of his abruptly. I pushed him away from me and fixed my clothes on my own.

He didn't speak anything, just turned around and walked out of my room, my penthouse, and I just watched him leaving from there.

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#TBC