Chapter 28 Mom

Mom

Nikolai

I opened my eyes to see Ava's head on my chest and her arm around my waist.

I smiled.

I caressed her hair and saw it turn white under my touch. The reason was a mystery but it didn't bother me as much. I want to know the reason why but deep down I knew it wasn't a negative thing.

I slowly slipped from under her and got off the bed. I peeled off the covers and saw goosebumps rise on her naked skin.

Smirking, I kissed my way up her legs to her inner thighs and saw her twitch. Her eyes were shut but her heart was beating faster. Then I kissed her already wet core and was gifted with a small moan.

I smirked wider.

She tried to close her legs but I held them apart.

Then, I dug in my breakfast. I lapped up her juices before sucking at her pussy. Her back arched off the bed and she woke up with a lust-filled scream. I tightened my hold on her thighs so she didn't move. Her eyes widened when she saw me and she let out another moan when I grazed my teeth. Her hands gripped my hair and tugged and I groaned. I loved it when she did that. I continued devouring her core and kept my eyes on her, not wanting to miss a single thing.

Seeing her get off got me off too.

"Pleasee..." she moaned. I doubled my efforts and just before she was there, I paused. She screamed and looked at me with her enticingly aroused blue eyes.

"Whom does this pussy belong to Avalyn?" I asked darkly.

"You." She groaned and bucked her hips, urging me to continue. I pushed them back down.

"That's right, Love. This is my pussy to do as I please." I murmured and gave it a long lick. Her pants grew heavier. "Please Master. Please let me come." She cried.

I smirked and crawled up and kissed her lips, slamming my cock in her wet core without warning. She cried my name again.

"Cum, my love," I said softly, my tone exactly opposite of how hard I was pounding into her and how my finger and thumb were now pinching her nipples. She cried out her orgasm while I didn't stop my movements, her nails scratching my back.

"That's right, dig your nails deep, Avalyn." I gritted. She clawed harder until I smelled blood and I smirked down at my little wolf. Her orgasm just ended and her next one was close.

I kissed her hard and pinched her clit. "Cum with me." I groaned and shot my load in her and she climaxed with me again.

I stayed still until we both were done, but I still didn't move. Her tight pussy was too good to be left empty and her smell drove me crazier than ever before. I knew she had changed after shifting and mating but my mate had done a total of three-sixty and I was fucking proud of her.

"Good morning." She smiled at me, her dimples popping.

"Understatement of the century." I grinned.

"True." She said as a blush rose her cheek. I thumbed her cheeks. She was shy after everything we did? I chuckled.

"I love it when you laugh." She whispered suddenly.

"Only for you, my Love. Only for you." I said and finally slipped out of her. I was getting hard again and we had too much to do. We shifted to our fur and started running.

I nipped at her feet and brushed my coat against her coat, slowing her slightly which made my wolf and I laugh. The sparks were affecting her too, much to my amusement.

She nipped at my tail, making me growl playfully. She let out a small mewl and I started chasing her, making her run faster.

You can never run from me, Moya Lyubov.

Just before we were about to reach the back door of the estate, I pounced on her back. But she was fast in twisting and moving out of the way before I could land on her.

She gave me an excited and satisfied yip.

'Good move.' I smiled.

'Thank you.' She sounded exhilarated.

I almost forgot that being in the wolf form was new to her. She had better control of her wolf than most newbies.

We shifted to our skin before we went to our room and showered together, somehow managing to finish quickly and not having sex again.

When we both were dressed again, I pulled her out of the room and we walked down the hallway. When we reached in front of the door, I pulled out the key from my pocket and unlocked it.

We walked in, hand in hand, into my mom's bedroom.

"This is my mother's bedroom," I told her softly.

Her heart stopped for a second before she looked at me with a shocked expression. I know she didn't expect me to share so soon but there was no reason not to other than it hurt me. To be fair, she had shared about her past too.

But I wasn't returning the favor, I was telling her because I wanted to.

I went to the bedside and picked up the picture frame of mom and me. She had blue eyes and brown hair just like mine. She had the same high cheeks structure that I do and the same chin. The only thing I got from Adrik, my father was my grey eyes and my strong jawline.

She was smiling in the picture but you could see the pain in her eyes.

"My father," disgust crawling up my face even at his thought, "is a cruel man. He was abusive towards my mom and me. She wasn't his mate, they were mated because of their pure lineage. And I was the heir he always wanted. He made me train ever since I could walk to become the next Alpha. He would punish me if he thought I did a bad job that day. Never in front of anyone else, or so hard that it would leave a mark because that would ruin his reputation. At first, mom wasn't aware of it, but then the blood got too much to hide." Ava hugged me and tucked her head in the crook of my neck, placing a soft kiss there.

"She broke down and apologized to me. When she confronted him, he hit her too. That's when he started being abusive towards her in front of me. I was only ten years old then, I tried to stop him but I was weak." I admitted, hating that fact. If I had been stronger, maybe my mom would have been with me today. My eyes blurred with tears and I blinked them away.

"After a year of planning, we ran away. A lot of pack members helped us too. They knew that there was tension going on but no one knew the details. My mom had inherited a vast fortune from her parents and she bought this property and we started living here, away from my pack, my home." I croaked. I hated that I had to leave everyone I loved to come here. No matter the conditions, Mystic Lupus is my pack.

"We were not exactly happy here, but at least we were safe. Slowly we started forming our own pack when more and more rogues came to us for help. My mom helped everyone she believed was good. She had a penchant for helping the troubled. I guess the only one she couldn't help was herself." I whispered.

Ava brushed a tear that had fallen down my cheek. I saw her look up at me with teary eyes. "She was never happy— she would smile for me but she wasn't happy."

I wiped her eyes. "This is my mom," I said. She turned in my arms to look at the picture in my hand. "Her name is V-"

"Viktoria." She breathed as she cut me off.

My eyes widened. How the hell did she know? More tears fell down her eyes and a sob tore through her throat. Her legs knees buckled but I tightened my hold on her before she could fall.

"How do you know her name Avalyn?" I pressed. Why was she crying so much? A deep pit grew in my stomach but I refused to think about anything else.

She opened her eyes and looked at me with pained eyes. "She was there Nik!" She cried. "She was the one who killed herself." She covered her mouth. "She was the one who was like a mother to me after Mrs. Maria died. She was Emmanuel's pet." She whispered brokenly.

"That's not possible. I saw her die in front of me." I screamed. Angry that she would even insinuate something like that. "We were attacked and I saw the wolf plunge his knife in her stomach. I heard her heartbeat stop."

But they took her body away. Maybe they healed her.

Fuck.

No.

Tears quickly filled my eyes. The floor beneath my feet moved and I stumbled before I fell down on my knees, not being able to carry my own weight. I disappointed my mother. I should have searched harder.

Fuck.

I should have fought harder. I hadn't been strong enough back then either. From what stories Ava had told me about her past, I could imagine what mom would have gone through as well. I wrapped my arms around her waist and placed my head against her stomach as I cried. I never want to imagine anything like that again. The only two women I have ever loved have gone through the same nightmare. Maybe I was cursed. Maybe they shouldn't have loved me.

Ava placed her hand on my head and caressed my head. "It's not your fault Nikolai." She whispered. "She loved you very much." I just shook my head, she was saying all of this to make me feel better.

"I love you, sweet child, but I can't live like this anymore, I miss my son, I hoped I could escape and go back to him but I can't live like this anymore. I'm sorry for the pain I will cause you." Avalyn said, almost as if she was reciting it. "They were the last words of your mother before she took her life."

I just hugged her tighter. All I could feel was pain and regret. It consumed my entire body, so much that I started vibrating. I felt like I was a kid and back under Adrik's rule again. Able to see what was happening, having to suffer through it but not being able to do anything about it.

I want to fucking kill Emmanuel and Emilio. My body hummed with rage. Hot white fury took over me. I was not the weak boy now, I am a strong Alpha and could face my fears and fight. I let go of Ava and stood up. I turned around and jumped off the window, shifting in the air and landing on my paws.

All I could see was mom's smiling face. Crying face. Determined face. Kind face. Loving face.

'You are such a good little boy, Nik.' She smiled.

A memory flashed in front of my eyes.

'Shh...it's okay, Love. It's okay.' She sobbed, hugging me at her.

And then another.

'We are leaving tonight.' She clutched my little hand in hers.

And one more.

'Nik, this is Max. He will be staying with us and you will treat him like he is your brother okay?' She smiled at me as she patted the shoulders of a skinny boy who was only a couple of inches taller than me.

And then I remembered her smiling face.

'I love you, Nikolai.' She ruffled my hair.

She didn't deserve this. She was the kindest, strongest person I knew.

Her face changed to Ava's.

Her kneeling.

Her being raped.

She cried out her safe word.

She didn't deserve this either. Especially at such a young age.

I could kill the entire Montãna Pack with the rage I was feeling.

I ran through the forest, making my way to Montãna Pack, to end it once and for all. I didn't care what would happen to me as long as I killed the father-son duo.

I licked my lips at the thought.

Suddenly someone slammed on my, making me crash against a tree. I let out a loud growl and pinned the wolf— Avalyn on the ground.

'Don't fucking test me right now Avalyn. Go back to the estate.' I snarled.

'You are not going anywhere.' She said confidently.

'And who's going to stop me? You?' I had her caged underneath me.

'Yes.' She gritted and bit my leg and got out.

I growled at her as we both glared at each other. She was not backing off.

She came running to me and pounced but I ducked and pinned her down again. I growled and bit her neck, not hard but just enough to hurt if she made a single move. "I said go back to the estate," I ordered fiercely in my Mastertone. Her eyes glowed blue and suddenly, I was off her and on the ground. She towered over me.

"I submit to you because I want to, do not think that I will do anything that I don't want to. And this time, Nikolai, I will not back off. I will not let my mate go to my pack to get himself killed. Going alone, without a plan is suicide. Look beyond your anger and you will realize it." She said and then ran back.

Her words stilled me. The guilt of treating Ava badly surpassed my anger. How can I be so messed up?

She is right. Of course, she is right.

I am ashamed of how irresponsibly I behaved. I am an Alpha and responsible for many more lives, I can't afford to be so short-tempered. Instead of going back to the estate, I went to the clearing. I wanted to give Ava some time and I wanted some time myself to think.

Learning what actually happened to my mom had shaken me. I needed to calm down my anger and I knew if I went back right now, I'll start a fight or something. I needed to be on my own.