Vol 2 Chapter 2929: .Explain the reason for stopping updates before.

 Explain the reason for stopping updates before

 Originally, I wasn’t going to explain it, so I just laid back and let the book friends scold me as they pleased. Anyway, it was indeed the author’s own fault.

However, in the past few days after the update was resumed, I found that the overall response from book friends was quite kind, so after thinking about it, the author decided to explain it, at least to let the book friends who have been waiting know the reason.

This pause is the longest the author has ever stopped writing a book. The reason why he stopped updating for so long is mainly due to two reasons. One is that he is seriously stuck, and the other is that the author has a mental problem and is a little confused about the future. .

 In the past, the author had a very bad habit of updating, that is, not updating for a week, and then publishing a large chapter to make up for what was owed at once.

The biggest advantage of doing this is that it can be used in large quantities, and the author does not need to update every day. He only needs to fill in all the gaps on the seventh day, which is relatively more free.

 But the disadvantage is also very fatal, that is, there cannot be any interruption in the middle, otherwise the more and more you owe, the more and more psychological pressure will increase. This is the reason why the author got seriously stuck for the first time.

The reason for the interruption between October 25th and November 7th is that the author wants to make up for what he owes at once, but there are always various trivial things in life that affect you, and you have to do it. When I got into writing, I postponed today to tomorrow, and tomorrow to the day after tomorrow. As a result, by the seventh day, I still hadn’t written a chapter, and it took me twelve days to hold back a big chapter.

As for November 11th to December 20th, the interruption of updates for more than a month was mainly due to a problem with the author's mentality.

　　The interruption of updates for the past ten days has attracted a lot of abuse to the author. This is indeed the author's problem, and he deserves to be scolded.

 The author's attitude towards negative reviews has always been that it's okay if you complain about the content and update speed of the book, or even scold the author, as long as it's not too much.

But there are some readers with poor quality who are really unworthy of human beings. It’s okay if you attack me personally, but even extend it to family members. They know clearly that the author’s family has two illnesses a year, but they even scold the patients, and the scolding is the same. Each sounds worse than the last.

 Having written a book for so long, I have been scolded countless times. The author thought that he had already developed a strong heart that could withstand any abuse.

But when I faced a lot of personal attacks and comments about greeting my family, I realized that I was not strong, I still had a glass heart, and my mentality would still break when I was scolded to the point of pain.

After the author's mentality collapsed after being scolded last time, he disbanded several book club groups and deleted most of the book friends, leaving only a few people. Except for the book review area, he completely cut off contact with ordinary book friends, even if Replies will only be sent to book friends with high fan followings.

Although I regretted it a bit afterwards and felt that I was irrational, I couldn’t bear it and let it go. But since it’s already like this, let’s just keep going.

After being scolded by book friends again and feeling heartbroken, I was thinking about why I wrote a book.

I don’t support myself by writing books. I said it’s a part-time job, just a hobby. I devoted most of my free time to it. As a result, I was chased and scolded by so many people. Is it really worth it?

Also, the more I write this book, the more time I spend on it. The author’s passion for writing has long been exhausted. The reason why I have been persisting is that I want to give an explanation to my book friends who have been following the book, and I also want to give an explanation to myself. I don’t want all my years of hard work to be in vain.

 But after going through so much, I found that I didn’t seem to have much motivation to continue.

 So, is there any point in continuing to write?

How about taking advantage of this break to end it and completely free yourself?

This is what I really thought at the time, but I was very conflicted. I wanted to be free after it was over, but I also didn’t want to end in such an embarrassing way. I tortured myself like this for about a month.

This month of no updates gave me a lot of free time, but I got used to it after being so free, and I always felt uneasy, so I upgraded my computer configuration and downloaded a lot of games that I wanted to play before but didn’t. Past 3A games, such as: ff7, Resident Evil 4 Reset, Pokémon Vermillion, Wolong, Nobunaga, etc.

 But no one got through.

 During this period, many of the book friends who I had not deleted came to ask me why I stopped updating and when I would update, but I didn’t reply to any of them because I had no face and really didn’t know how to reply.

Perhaps it took a long time, but I figured it out myself, and I was still unwilling to end it like this. Whether I would write a book in the future is another matter, but this book must not be eunuch, and the previous efforts must not be in vain. It must have a beginning and an end.

 So I logged into my account again and prepared to resume updating, but I haven’t written for more than a month. My writing status has plummeted, and my writing experience has become worse than last time.

I remember very clearly that one weekend, I had a free day and sat in front of the computer typing, but my mind kept wandering as I wrote. I wanted to play with my phone after writing a few words, and before I knew it, the day passed and I looked back again. It seems that I have only written a few hundred words.

Finally, with the guidance of two enthusiastic book friends, the author worked hard for about a week before writing the 8,000-word chapter updated on the 20th.

 After this chapter was published, I didn’t know how the book friends would react, but I felt relieved. After that, I finally recovered and stopped writing.

This is the author’s mental journey during this period. It’s basically all my personal reasons. I feel a little pretentious myself, so I would like to express my sincere thanks to all the book friends for their perseverance and persistence until now. You really do. He is the most tolerant reader of Qidian.

　　Thank you!

 (End of this chapter)