5

After I said the words, Kian pulled me closer and placed his lips on mine. This kiss was demanding and showed me how much I longed for this feeling. Kian exploded every emotion in me, as if fireworks had broken out inside. It tasted like hints of tobacco and mint. For me, however, it wasn't a reluctance to break the kiss.

I gripped his shirt with my hands as I felt like I was being kissed out of control. I couldn't get enough of it and I found myself wanting more. Like I'm thirsty right now and he's the water to survive. Kian's hand wandered down to my ass, massaging it in passing. Without realizing it, I made circular motions with my hips, rubbing his middle, which seemed to be growing.

Meanwhile, our tongues danced with each other, which gave me an intense tingling in my middle.

“You can still cancel it. Because once I start, I won't be able to stop, Saphira. I've waited for this moment for so long.” He whispered against my lips when he broke the kiss.

But I didn't want to stop. I wanted to know what he could do with me. I wanted him without any ulterior motive.

“I want it, Kian. I want you.' I whispered back and a low growl escaped his mouth. His eyes blazed violently with his lust.

“I'm going to make you feel how much my cock wants you,” he whispered to me before sliding my bra down and my breasts were now completely exposed.

Strangely, I wasn't uncomfortable at all that he saw me naked. Because as soon as he looked at me, it confirmed to me that he liked it and that I was beautiful enough for him. He cupped my chest in one hand and brought his face closer. His tongue circled my nipple, which he then took in his mouth and sucked vigorously. A groan escaped me as those bolts of lightning shooting through my body were so intense.

Kian got up with me and laid me down on the sofa. He slowly took off my panties and looked me deep in the eyes. He wanted to soak up every reaction from me. Then he spread my legs wide so that he could get the best view of my already wet middle. He licked his lips greedily before bending down and kissing my thigh lightly as a feather. It was agony as he was dangerously close to my pussy just screaming for Kian.

Unexpectedly he licked my wet cunt once and then sucked on my clit. At the same time I stimulated my nipples and watched Kian operating my middle with relish. My moans grew louder as he used his fingers. This combination made me slide more and more over the abyss. I was close to orgasm so I buried my hand in his hair. I needed support as I felt like I was falling. His movements became faster and faster until my salvation swept me away like a tsunami. Screaming, I clutched the fabric of the sofa and Kian's hair before fatigue overcame me and I fell into darkness.

[...]

When I opened my eyes again, it was almost dark outside. I must have slept for several hours. I blinked a few times before realizing I was in my room. Something stirred next to me and noticed that I was lying on Kian's bare chest. We haven't had sex as far as I can remember, have we?

I sat up slightly and eyed the man next to me. His even breathing told me he was sleeping too. He looked so peaceful doing it. I brushed a strand of hair from his forehead as he opened his eyes slightly. I smiled at the handsome man in front of me. Then I wanted to ask him what had happened after the action before he got ahead of me and enlightened me.

“We didn't have sex, Princess. Don't worry, you haven't missed anything.” Kian smiled.

I couldn't explain why I fell asleep immediately after my orgasm. Nothing like this had ever happened to me before. Kian made me feel the most intense orgasm I've ever had.

“How are you feeling?” Kian asked me after I'd remained silent and lost in my thoughts.

“Good. More than fine.' I said truthfully.

He really made me feel good. I hadn't felt this positive feeling for a long time.

I jumped when I could feel his light touch on my wrist that was resting on his chest. He ran his fingertips along my faded scar and studied it.

“What happened?” he wanted to know and breathed a gentle kiss on her.

I swallowed hard as I had never spoken about this event. Besides, nobody was interested. Should I tell him the truth? After all, I had confidence in him, for whatever reason. I felt like I could let myself go with him. He didn't judge me about what he knew.

“Attempted suicide...” I whispered into the silence.

Saying that word took a lot of courage. It was never easy for me. And that one weak moment made me want to end it all.

“Do you want to talk about it?” he breathed at me. I nodded, wanting to share my past with him. It didn't matter that he was actually a stranger to me. Until a few hours ago we had been so intimate with each other. And now I gave away a part of my past years. It was a sign that I should talk to someone after all. Because I've carried it with me for far too long.

'I was sixteen. My mother's reputation was quite well known, which is why my classmates also got it. I was brutally bullied and beaten. It went on until I started hating myself. I wanted to kill myself, but I didn't have the heart to make the cut any deeper. Now you can only see the slight scar.”

A small tear rolled down my cheek, which Kian caught with his finger and wiped away.

'She wasn't always like that. When my father was alive, he was dependent himself. My mother worked hard while he was spending all the money on his drugs. Then he died of an overdose...'

I only had fragments of memories of him. I was only seven when my mother came home distraught.

“My mother still loved him and could never get over his death. So she fell into his patterns and became dependent herself. I also reminded her a lot of him because I was his image.”

Kian pulled me to his chest and blew little kisses on my forehead. I listened to his regular heartbeat, which gave me inner peace.

We lay there for a while until he finally broke the silence. Because since I told him about it, he hasn't said a word.

“I don't want to lie to you and say you'll never get hurt again. But I want to assure you that you are in good hands with me. Allow it and you will find your new peaceful home.”

Could Kian become my home?