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Chapter 10

Jared and I were just quiet during the ride.

I have no plans to talk to him first. I want him to be the one to start a conversation. I want him to explain what's happening. I want him to tell me the reason, why was he with my Manager. I want every piece of his explanation. I'm sure that I deserve it too.

I am not a jealous type of girlfriend, I don't actually give a damn if he's with a girl. He can be with whoever girl he wanted to hang out. Just make sure he doesn’t fool me. And I don't mind him being close to my manager. But not this one. it's different, I can feel it. There's really something wrong. I'm sure about it.

Yes, I used to see them close to each other. In fact, they look like bestfriends ever since, because their families are friends.

They really are sweet and caring to each other. they hang out. But not like this.

What did they think, that I didn’t notice their actions in the past few days? Manager Lei, who always came home early as if he always had something important to do. and when we're together it seems like he's a bit isolated to me, eh he wasn't like that before. Then when I told him about what I noticed in Jared's actions it was as if he was stuttering and speaking very carefully, as if he was avoiding saying something to me.

As for Jared, did he also think that I just didn’t have his shortcomings? Every time, I persuade him to date me, he will say that he is busy with his 'office work'. When I reconcile with him after the taping, he will always excuse me ..

"I can't pick you up, something came up." to be honest I'm getting tired of his repeated excuses. Because I notice that they are almost the same as manager Lei because he tells me when he leaves, he will say, "I'm sorry, Sariel. I have something important to do now.I'll be the first. "Then it will leave in a hurry.

But what I’ve noticed more in recent days is the coexistence of Jared and Manager Lei, whenever the two disappear. Isn't it too suspicious? Add to that that I already feel Jared’s coldness in our relationship.

I don't know when he started to get cold in our relationship, just one day I just woke up that I feel that way about him. I just can’t tell him how I feel because I don’t want him to think I suspect him.

so no matter how strongly I feel that there is something wrong in our relationship, especially in his actions I try to forget you in my mind. I don't wanted to accused him cheating on me.

But right now? From what I saw earlier? I could no longer contain my suspicion.

I'm sure something has changed. And whatever was on my mind I didn’t like then. The thought of them cheating on me really give me a million of heart aches!

Because right now, my judgment of him cheating on me just get fueld by what I saw earlier.

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"Why are you and manager Lei together?" when I allegedly asked Jared when we could enter his condo unit. I don't care if he thinks I'm accusing him of doing something wrong, because that's the truth.

"We're not together, Love." he said to me and was ready to hug me but I shook his hand.

Glaring eyes I looked into his eyes. "Can I Jared? Don't fool me! I'm not blind! I saw you earlier! Come together!"

"Love, it's really nothing, okay ?we just met. Then, I offered him to come with me since we were going home as well. That's all. "He would make excuses. But I didn't want to believe because what he was saying was not credible.

"Ha! You think I'm that stupid to believe your alibi ?!" I asked angrily. "Now, tell me the truth!"

"I told you it's nothing, okay ?! Why do you seem to doubt me ?!" I was surprised when he shouted at me too.

"Then what's does Aius mean, that he saw you on a business party with someone ?!" I shouted at him too.

"Could you, Sariel if you just come here to accuse me of something I didn't do, better just leave!" he shouted loudly and furiously at me.

Tears welled up in my eyes when I heard what he said. "And now, your making me leave! I'm just asking!" sobbing I answer him.

"You're not asking, Sariel! You're accusing me!"

"How could I stop myself accusing you if you're making me accused you, huh ?!" my tears kept flowing as I said that.

when he laughed at what I said, it seemed like he couldn't believe it and I was really running out of his patience. "Why, Sariel what did I do that you suspect, huh ?!"

When I did not answer him he resumed speaking. "Is that the business party that your good co -worker says, huh? Okay, fine! Yes, I went to a business party, Lei was with me! Is that what you want to hear, huh? What are you happy about? You've heard that is it not?!" he shouted angrily at me.

And with that I cried loudly. it hurts. Tang*na, he didn't even deny it!

But even though I was having a hard time speaking because of too much sobbing I still forced myself to ask him. "Then why didn't you tell me that? Why didn't you include me there? I'm your girlfriend, Jared. So why did you include someone else ?!" sobbing I asked him.

"I didn't tell it to you, 'cause you're busy with you man! You're busy going a date with him!" he shouted back at me.

"I am not busy with him! I told you, I always have time for you. I already told you right ?that when you don't want me to leave with Aius tell me because I'm not coming! That's how much I love you! "I sobbed as I said those words, I can't also breath properly. But I manage to ask him one more question." B-why ... why change did you include why ... manager Lei? "then I looked up at him.

He can't look at me. I waited for him to answer but a few minutes later he still couldn't answer me. so even though it was painful for me, I asked what could be the reason for him not to include me, which I can only read in books or watch.

"I-is it because of my ... job? Are you embarrassing me, because of my job ?Is that why you brought manager Lei because he has a good job compared to me? "I asked him in a voice that was very audible and I knew he would feel the pain I was feeling. I can't take the pain anymore. I feel like my heart is bleeding in so much pain.

without him answering is, I already know the answer. Silent means yes.

"Alright, my job it is." weakening my answer. "I-I think I should go now. I'm sorry." after I said that I turned my back on him.

"L-love, wait it's not like that.let me explai- "he didn't finish what he was going to say because I was completely out of his unit.

And I was surprised to see manager Lei, standing in front of Jared's unit.

I just looked at her with cold eyes, although my tears are falling, I still manage to give him my coldest stare.

"S-Sariel, I'm just here to-"

"Yeah, whatever your reasons are." I didn't give her a chance to finish what is she about to say. I don't want to hear what he has to say because I know he will just lie to me.

I don't want another bullshit from them. i'm so full of their lies. I can't take it anymore.

I continued to leave, and never looked back again.

In the lobby of the condominium building I was just crying tears while walking. I no longer care if people see me and I look stupid. i just wanted to cry to atleast lessen the painful feeling that I have.

I'm just sobbing. Some of the stuff ask me if I am sick or if I need something, but I just ignored them and continue walking.

but I stopped walking when suddenly someone grabbed my waist and hugged me closer to him.

To be continued...