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Chapter 16

and as I stormed out of the elevator, my heart started beating so fast and hard inside my chest. I seem nervous because I have something bad to discover.

I don't know if I am being paranoid or what. But that's what I really feel. Something's wrong.

.when I was in front of the door of the unit I immediately entered there.

And I was shocked the moment I saw what's happening inside!

My eyes widened in so much surprise ... And my heart constricted in so much pain!

"You know what? I live my life blaming myself for what happened years ago." I said that to Aius while just staring into the distance. As my heart continued to ache in excruciating pain.

We are now in the cemetery where my sister and grandmother lie.

I also told him everything that happened years ago.

I don't even know why I told him that, e. To think that I don't want anyone else to know, Even Jared doesn't know it.

But I couldn’t understand why I was so quick to say that to Aius. Nothing, I feel like he can help me, e.

"It's not your fault, Sariel."

"It's my fault." I told him, because it's true, e. It's all my fault.

"No, it's not. Everything happened for a reason." Aius's words seemed to intensify me.

"Yeah? And the reason behind that incident is my fault, right? Mama is right, if I hadn't just reprimanded her then, if I hadn't left our house that night, Ariela wouldn't have followed me and she wouldn't have been raped. hang around the corner. "

My long explanation, my tears foreshadowing dripping. But I force myself not to let that down. I'm tired of crying.

He was speechless so I continued.

"And if Ariela hadn't been raped, she wouldn't have committed suicide, Pala wouldn't have gotten sick. And most of all ... if..if all that hadn't happened ..." I couldn't finish what I was about to say suddenly let my tears fall, there are also sobs escaping my lips.

But despite my sobs and tears I struggled to finish what I was going to say. "H-Lola wouldn't have rushed to the Airport just to get home to the Philippines ... H-She wouldn't have died, she wouldn't have been the accidental passenger of the taxi she rode in!"

This time, I was crying when I said that. The pain I feel has no place in my heart. I feel like breaking down.

I just wanted to end my life. But I can't, papa and mama still needs me.

As I cried I felt Aius hug me, and his gentle caress on my back.

"Shh, stop crying. It's not your fault, okay? Don't blame yourself." when Aius spoke to me.

I just moaned and moaned as I was inside his arms. I also pressed my face tighter against his chest.

"I-I'm scred, Aius. W-what if karma hit me fro what I did years ago? What if ... what if ..." I was afraid to admit to him.

Totoo naman, e. I was afraid that I might be killed because it was my fault that Ariela and Grandma died.

"No. Don't be scared, I got you, okay? I won't let anyone hurt you." Aius whispered weakly.

And as if on cue, I stopped crying. The pain in my heart has also somewhat decreased due to the pain. But that was replaced by a strange pulse, a pulse that I knew was not a good destination.

I ... think I'm starting to feel something for him.

"A-Aius ..." I whispered softly to him while staring into his eyes. I couldn't get my mind to say anything to him.

"It's okay. I'm always here for you." he was still weak. Then I saw his face approaching me.

And the next thing I knew, his lips were on my lips now. He's kissing me softly.

And with so much softness I felt sleepy. His lips caressed my lips so gently.

My heart seemed to want to come out of my chest because of the strength of its beating.

Minute had passed. He's stilk kissing me. He tilted his head for his better access on my lips to kiss me more, and I just let him.

I know I should stop him for kissing me, but I can't. I just stood still on my feet.

Stop him, you're cheating!

It seemed as if I was burning away from him when suddenly those words came to my mind.

Damn it! What did I do ?! Why did I let him kiss me ?!

Oh Goodness! I'm sorry!

Aius looked at me in confusion. He didn’t seem to understand why I suddenly walked away from him.

"I-it's not right, Aius. I ... I shouldn't let you kiss me." I speak weakly. So I just want to be eaten by the earth now because of my shame.

"Why? What's wrong with me kissing you?" Kunot when he asked me.

"I have a boyfriend for fuck's sake, Aius!" he said tearfully.

"Yeah? Is that your reason? Then, I am not sorry for kissing you. I won't regret it." he said hard as his jaws tightened.

"Aius—"

"I don't care if you have a boyfriend! He's obviously cheating on you, can't you see? Open up your eyes, Sariel! Don't be stupid for him! He doesn't deserve you, and you don ' t deserve him too! " he growled at me.

"Even he's cheating on me, the fact that we didn't break up is reason enough to remind me that he's still my boyfriend! And what makes me different from him? I let other men kiss me, while we're stilk together! I cheated too! " I shout at him.

"Then break up with him!" Aius shouted at me. He looked frustrated for some reason.

"W-what?" I can't seem to believe my drone. Is he really suggesting that?

"I-I can't ..." I said weakly.

"Yes, you can! You just don't want to! Come on, Sariel. Wake up! Stop hurting yourself!"

"But—"

"Ehem!"

I immediately stopped speaking when suddenly someone sneezed behind us. And when I looked at my back, my mother's face greeted me.

"M-ma, so-sorry. A-we're leaving. I'm sorry p-po." trembling lips I said. Then Aius pulled away who was now staring at me in astonishment. Confused by what I did.

Before we finally left, I saw my mother's speech, but I couldn't continue.

***

"Why did you do that?" while on the trip Aius asked me.

"What?"

"To your mother."

"Ah, is that so? He doesn't even want me to go to Ariela's grave. He says I don't have the right to go there because it's my fault."

He was silent because of what I said.

"But it's okay. I'm okay with that. I can go there when mama isn't there." soothing myself. I don't want to cry again.

"Where will I drop you?"

"Just in Jared's condominium building."

"What ?!" Aius's question to me seemed unbelievable.

"Yeah. I have to talk to him ... and apologize for what had happened to us ... I..ahm also want to hear his explanation." I'm still embarrassed.

"Seriously?" Aius sighed fantastically.

"If you don't want to, it's okay. Just take me down there on the side, I'll just take a taxi."

"Nevermind."

Aius also took me to Jared's condominium building. Then he kicked the car away so I went straight into the building, until I could get on the elevator.

And as I stormed out of the elevator, my heart started beating so fast and hard inside my chest. I seem nervous because I have something bad to discover.

I don't know if I am being paranoid or what. But that's what I really feel. Something's wrong.

When I was in front of the door of the unit I immediately entered there.

And I was shocked the moment I saw what's happening inside!

My eyes widened in so much surprise ... And my heart constricted in so much pain!

To be continued...