4

Chapter 4

While I was on the trip I was thinking about where I was going to sleep tonight.

I have nowhere else to go but Jared, he mad at me. I'm sure we'll only fight if I stay with him. and one that embarrassed him that every night I would still be scratching. It may have been asleep because of resentment.

If I sleep with my friend, who will? Because I haven't had any friends since the beginning. because I'm not like Ariela who is welcoming and friendly so many like and like her. At the time, I was a quiet person at school. Ariela is the only one I consider my friend because she is my twin and I am happy that we are just the two of us.

I immediately shook my head and erased my thoughts about Ariela. I don't want to for now. I'm physically and emotionally tired for all that happened this day. Then I will think about what happened in the past.

another, this is not the right time for me to look back, because all I have to think about is where I will sleep tonight.

I just kept driving, until I could just find myself standing in front of Jared’s condominium building.

I gasped and shook myself. In the end, I'm still going here. I will still ask him for help.

I'll just apologize to him for what I did before, and if he doesn't lose his temper with my sorry I'll just give him what he wants.

I'll just give what he asks in exchange for my forgiveness. Even my body is the replacement.

There's nothing wrong with giving him my virginity, is there? We have a relationship and are old enough. He said that.

But I really don't want to. I want to give my virginity to the person I will marry. i want to be married when i do that thing with a guy.

'But you are in a relationship. There is nothing wrong with that. ' talking to a part of my mind.

Tsk! What is that? I couldn’t understand because two parts of my mind were arguing.

until I got to the opposite side of Jared's condo unit and my mind was still arguing, but that's up to me. What is going to happen is just that.

I was about to knock on the door when suddenly it opened, causing me to be a little surprised.

but what surprised me the most was to see who had opened it before. "Manager Lei? What.... are you doing here?" I asked my manager in surprise. I could no longer hide the shock and doubt in my voice.

"S-Sariel! A-are you there?" He was also surprised to answer me. and to his astonishment his eyes widened as if he had seen a ghost.

"Ahm..yeah?" I asked him a question because it was obvious that I was already here. So I see him, Of course I'm here. Tss.

"And you Manager? What are you doing here?" I asked to manager.

"A-ah ... I thought you were here, that's how I came here." She was still a bit stunned when she answered me. She seemed unsure of her answer. Tss. Weird.

"Ahh..oh, why are you looking for me?"

"What can I let you know that in our next shooting . Aius will be with your leading man." She answered to me.

My forehead frowned, but the frown was removed immediately. "Ah okay? All right." I smiled at her.

"Ahm..o-okay I'll go first. See you some other day.I'll text you when we have a meeting. " She just agreed and hurriedly walked closer to the elevator.

Before I entered I waited for the elevator to close.

Tss. Weird.

Why would she make an effort to come here? She can text me whatever she has to say. and another. She's acting really weird.

Earlier while I was talking to her she looked constipated without knowing it. Tss.

There was a part of my brain that was suspicious when we met here, but I just forced to remove it and ignore it.

I trust Jared. I know, he'll never cheat on me.

a few more moments and I entered the condo.

I immediately rolled my eyes at Jared’s entire condo unit. I saw nothing suspicious.

There isn’t any clue that they did anything or what.

The whole unit is clean. what it looked like when I left it earlier is still the same today. Which released if I was the doubt that troubled my heart and mind.

I’m still a little guilty because I feel like I don’t trust Jared. How dare me to judge him and accused him in my mind?

add that I was even more guilty because I remembered the way I looked and spoke to Manager Lei. I feel like I'm a very bad friend, Manager Lei is still very kind to me and then I think badly of her.

I just hope Manager Lei didn't notice that. I don't want her to get upset with me, because apart from Jared she's the only one I can say I can trust.

She treated me like her little sister. I still remember the first time she talked to me I ignored her then because I didn't want to have a friend. But she insists, no matter how much I avoid and push her away she forces herself on me.

"What are you, don't drive me away early, Sariel. since your twin Ariela is gone, I will take care of you. I want to keep you. You're the most important person in her heart, so as her bestfriend. I must take care of you, okay? "I remember that's exactly what she told me then so I have done nothing more, but accept her as my friend.

I just smiled at the memory of that. Then I looked for Jared.

Jared wasn’t in the living room and kitchen so I’m sure he was in that room. Maybe working.

I sighed and continued into Jared's room. And there, my boyfriend. Laying on his bed and sleeping soundly.

I smiled and then approached him on the bed to sit next to him. I just left my belongings in the suitcase, I didn't even bother to put them in the closet because I'm only going to sleep here tonight.

As soon as I lay down on the bed Jared's arms immediately wrapped around my waist. Something that made me smile.

I faced him and then I caressed his face and then I stared at him. But as I stared at his gentle face I had a pain felt in my heart, that I didn’t know where it was coming from and for what reason.

I really love this man. He's my boyfriend for almost four years. It's only been three weeks and we've been in a relationship for exactly four years. But during those four years I never lost my love for him. I also never got bored with him. I just hope he doesn’t bore me either, even if I don’t give him something he wants. we will also come there, that's what I want to give him on our anniversary. I will propose to him. Yes, I will propose, because I know I am sure of him. He is the one I want to be with in building a family.

I stared for a few more minutes, watching his slow breathing and weak snoring.

"I love you so much, Love. I trust you a lot. Sorry for my shortcomings. Please, don't give up on me, okay? Don't break my trust and mostly ... don't break my heart i love you. "I whispered emotionally to him even though I knew he couldn't hear it.

I kissed him once more on the lips before I finally let myself be swept away by drowsiness.

To be continued.....