18

Kayla's POV

I gently ran my thumb over the back of his hand, praying that he'll open those beautiful eyes soon. Guilt had started to eat away at me; I abandoned him, my daughters, and my pack. Yet, they welcomed me back with open arms, relived that their Luna was finally home. I didn't deserve it though, I caused them to go through hell. I caused Xander to literally go insane until he was able to control his wolf. I caused my youngest to get abused to the point she ran away, leaving my mate guilt filled and depressed.

I sighed, he had no reason to be depressed though. He was the one who caused her pain, to force her to run away. I know I left him and I know he has an issue with his powerful wolf, but that's still no excuse. His wolf was only able to control him for that long because he allowed his anger, hurt, and betrayal to get the better of him. He could have calmed his wolf down and actually see reality. To see that his daughter didn't force me to leave him.

He killed an innocent rogue who was pregnant after knowing I was highly against that. He didn't just take one life, he took two. Her poor mate showed up on our pack grounds only a few days later, begging for my warriors to kill him. So, I let them. I know I'm no better than Xander, but that doesn't mean I'm cold and heartless.

He's always been a rather cruel man, the first day I met him I was afraid of him. I kept pushing him away, spitting out hateful words, flirting with other men to get him to reject me. That was until he was badly injured when rogues had managed to attack. He was on the brink of death, he couldn't breathe on his own, he was bloody, and had multiple broken bones. It had scared me; I had realized then that I didn't want to lose him.

Of course, after he woke up he didn't speak to me for three months. He even rejected me, mated with someone else and almost made her Luna. I have no idea what had happened between them, but he came running to my doorstep. He grabbed me and kissed me, crying that he was sorry. I didn't believe him though and rejected him.

It took us months to actually accept each other, to actually say the words, "I love you". It was a terrible winter, but it had taught us the true meaning of being mates. I know Celina's mate isn't the best guy around, but I hope she stays with him. I hope she fixes him like no one else did. He had a terrible childhood after his parents died; I'll never forget what that Beta did to him. The poor boy, he almost died.

Author's note: So, I decided to give you guys some insight on Celina's mother. Now, you'll find out more about her and Xander's relationship in maybe a spin off book. That's not for a while now though. And now you know that Beta had done something horrible to Hades.

I sighed, running my hands through my hair as I stared at the box. A week has passed since we completed the mating bond and I was nervous. What if I am pregnant? I know Hades won't be upset, we've already discussed it. I was just afraid of becoming a mother when I'm only eighteen, turning nineteen in five days. I bit my lip and walked into the bathroom, needing to get through my nerves.

I felt a little disappointed when I stared at the negative sign, but also a little relieved. If I was pregnant then I would have been fine with it, just super nervous. I threw the stuff away before seeking out Hades, knowing exactly where he was.

I shoved the door open to our room and laughed a bit, "Still using the bed rest excuse?" I chirped.

He looked up and smiled, "Not really, I just can't focus on my duties right now."

"Why?"

He shrugged, "Someone saw him today."

"Who?" I asked, sliding next to him.

He brought me to his chest and kissed my head, running his fingers through my hair. "My father's Beta."

I could hear the fear in his voice, his body was slightly shaking from it as well. I looked up at him, my heart breaking at his wide and terrified eyes. I gently cupped his face and kissed him on the lips, knowing this usually calms him down. We made out for a few minutes before parting and just gazing at each other.

"Well, if he returns...I'll be beside you the whole time." I whispered, kissing him again.

He smiled softly and stared at me, awe and love evident on his face. "How did I get so lucky?" he murmured.

I laughed, "Well, that's something you ask the Moon Goddess."

He nuzzled his face into my neck, hiding it from view. "Mmhmm." he hummed.

I smiled, combing my fingers through his soft hair as I stared at the wall. My thoughts drifted off to the pregnancy test and that same sorrow filled me. I turned in his arms and looked at him, he instantly saw the pain in my eyes and frowned.

"Are you okay?"

I sighed, "I'm not pregnant."

It was silent for a few moments before he muttered out an "Oh."

We sat there in silence, thinking over this news. I was upset, but then relieved. It's all so confusing and I just keep on confusing myself more.

"Celina, we can't keep thinking about it. We didn't lose a baby or anything, we just never got pregnant. I know, it's sad that we didn't, but we both know we're not ready. Neither is Hades. We should fix him first." My wolf voiced.

I sighed, "I know, figuring out how to fix him is one hell of a task."

"Exactly, I know he'll be a great father. He has amazing role models as a young boy, but right now his mind is a mess. Not only that, but what's going to happen when he's no longer broken? You've been so busy with fixing him, finding out his problems, and so on that you forgot about the abusive years. What are you going to do if he gets angry again? Are you going to flinch? Run?"

I frowned, she's right. Hades hasn't really gotten angry for the past few weeks and never acted as if he's going to hit me. I wasn't concerned about myself but more worried for Hades. I know usually victims of abuse are afraid of getting hit again, but I've worked past that point. Now that I know I can fight back, I'm as worried anymore. The only problem is, I am afraid of him getting angry and lashing out at me. He's done it before, my father has done it, what's stopping him from doing it again?

I shook the thoughts from my head, I have to fix him and not myself. I'm fine.

Hades suddenly grabbed me and pulled me close, softly kissing my head.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

I nodded quietly, "Yeah, I'm fine."

That night I couldn't fall asleep, even Hades' gentle breathing didn't make me tired. I was cuddled up against his chest, my mind swirling with a thousand questions. All day I've been worried about how I'm going to react if Hades does get beyond angry again. I know if I run from him it'll hurt him more than ever and he'll probably beat himself up over it. I know he doesn't have full control over that anger, but he is working on it. I glanced up at his face, smiling at the solace look as he slept.

I cupped his face and gently stroked his cheek with my thumb, just studying him. I wanted to know what his father's Beta had done to him, but I was afraid to ask him. Asking him means he'll have to relive that moment, to go through that pain again. I couldn't bring myself to make him go through that, but I know he'll eventually have to face it. I sighed and nuzzled closer to him, enjoying the warmth as it wrapped around me.

Hades a very broken man, but I know I can fix him. The only question is, how? By loving him and being by his side? I know that's usually the answer, but maybe he needs a therapist. Someone he can talk to about the demons from his past. I lightly kissed his lips, just needing to show my love for him. Even if he's not awake to feel it.

I focused on my mark on him, smiling at the memory. I ran my finger over it, causing him to shudder and moan. I swallowed as my core began to ache, no, now is not the time. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, tried to ignore my hormones. Hades suddenly pinned me to the bed and started kissing my neck.

**Sexual content!**

I snapped my eyes open and let out a soft moan as he kissed his mark. "A little excited, are we?" he questioned, kissing up to my jaw.

I bit my lip as a growl erupted from his chest, "Maybe." I admitted.

He chuckled, dragging his kisses to my lips. "It's not nice to wake your mate up this late at night for sex." he teased.

"Well, not my fault you moaned. You know what happens with moaning and the damn bond." I retorted.

This only caused him to chuckle again, "Well, I like what the mate-bond does." he whispered.

I looked at his dark eyes, lust danced within them as he stared back at me. My core started to ache even more as the memories from the hospital filled my mind. I swallowed thickly, trying to push them out of my head, but I failed. Hades leaned down and kissed my lips gently yet possessively. I let out a small growl of pleasure as I kissed him back, showing him that I wanted him.

His hands traveled up and down my sides before slipping under my shirt. He fondled my breasts as he continued to kiss me, nothing but passion danced around us. I also trailed my hands up and down his muscles chest, enjoying the feel of him. I then started to play with the waistband of his boxers, grinning as he growled lowly.

I could feel his excitement as it pressed against me, which only helped in making me even more excited. Our kiss started to get rougher and lustful; Hades tore off my tank-top and threw it aside before bringing his mouth to my breast. He switched between breasts, sending waves of pleasure through me. He then trailed butterfly kisses down my stomach and to my thong. He played with the straps of my thong, making me beg him to please me.

He grinned, his eyes now glowing gold as he looked up at me. That one look sent me crazy with desire, I started to beg even more.

"Hades, please!" I pleaded.

He chuckled, but obeyed my command. He ripped my thong off before bringing his mouth to my core. I let out a gasp of shock and pleasure, it felt amazing as he continued. I tangled my fingers through his hair, my moans becoming louder. I was close to reaching my climax when he suddenly stopped and rested on his arms.

I was panting and staring at him, knowing my eyes reflected my need for him. He smirked as I sat up and tore off his boxers. His erection sprung up and I quickly got to work stroking it. I went slow then fast, causing him to whimper with need. After a few minutes he gently pushed me back down and rubbed his member against my core.

I let out a moan and grabbed the sheets, my body feeling hot. He then entered me by surprise, making me scream out with complete satisfaction. I wanted more though and he quickly gave me that. He thrusted in and out slowly at first, but once I ordered him to go faster and harder he gladly listened. The only sound was our panting, moans, and the rocking of the bed.

Our bodies had a thin sheet of sweat as we continued, our lips crushed together as I wrapped my arms around his neck. He kept on thrusting into me, but once he felt as if I was reaching my climax he would stop. I would beg him to continue, but he'll wait until that feeling of my orgasm forming had vanished. He would then speed up and slow down, making me claw his back.

His moans and growls grew louder and I knew he was close. He licked and sucked on my mark and I did the same. We both screamed out each other's names as we came, convulsing from the strong orgasms. After we both calmed down he withdrew himself from me and laid beside me. I rolled onto my side and smiled at him, gently placing a kiss on his lips.

"Well, that was very nice." I laughed.

He chuckled before kissing my lips as well. "I love you."

"I love you too."

I was about to fall asleep when I suddenly panicked. "Hades! We didn't use-

"Yes we did, I slipped one on before continuing." he laughed, cutting me off.

I sighed in relief, "I didn't see you though."

"Well, your eyes were closed and you were completely drowned in pleasure. I wasn't expecting you too. I mean, the proof is right in front of you."

"Okay, ew, thanks for that information."

"Oh, you say ew at that but not at the fact we just-

"Goodnight!"

He laughed and kissed me again, "Goodnight, Princess."

I sighed in content, but of course he got up before I could fall asleep. I scowled at him as he went inside the bathroom only to return a few seconds later. He climbed back and in bed and pulled me close.

"What?" he asked as I continued to glower at him.

"I was about to fall asleep." I grumbled.

He laughed, "Well, I had to take it off."

"Oh my goddess, go to bed!"

"What? You asked for it!"

"Did not! I was stating a fact!"

"So was I!" he countered.

We both looked at each other before laughing, "We're going to drive each other insane." I grinned.

He laughed, "I know, but I'll still love you."

"And I'll still love you too."

"...the condom didn't break, right?"

He sighed, "No, it didn't break."

"Good, because, if it did I'm going to beat you. Love you."

"Well, damn, love you too."

I giggled before finally falling asleep.