Chapter 69 Special dedication

Before I left, I told Dana where I was going and by the time I reached the enchanted forest, it was already morning. I quickly flew myself inside to escape the blazing sun, as I didn’t carry along any vamscren. I was now in the forest, protected by the shades the forest trees offered. I went to Pixieland to visit my friend, Mariana, and we engaged in a conversation while she was making the new diary. She was glad to know that I loved it and decided to make the new one twice as large so I would have more room to write about my thoughts.

Although Mariana had finished making the diary since, I waited in the forest till sunset before I began my journey back to the castle.

When I returned, I met the coven gathered in the study again, discussing about their vacation. I wondered if they ever got tired of travelling.

Dana invited me to join the meeting as they had already decided on a location but I declined giving the reason that I was tired. And I really was, I didn’t sleep the day before when I went to the town and my body was aching to get some shut-eye. She allowed me, saying she would brief me about all they discussed the next night when I woke up.

Before I went to sleep, I began to write in my new diary. I decided to start from the beginning, writing my full story starting from the point I became a vampire, and highlighting only the important stuff. I wanted to have a way to always read my story, so I would never forget all that I had been through. I quickly rushed through the beginning parts as I couldn’t wait to start writing about John. In my heart, I dedicated this new diary and all that I would write specially to him. Even though I had only known him for a day, it felt as if I had known him for a long time. Maybe Gerome’s spirit reentered into this world through him I don’t know, but there was something special about him I just couldn’t ignore.

After writing, I took my diary to an underground lid I had discovered in my room, and closed it up. That was where I would always keep it. Even though I knew that the words written there was invisible to anyone else but me, some part of me still didn’t want anyone holding or looking at it. This was my special place, and I even decided I would no longer read what I wrote inside it to Dana whenever she would come here, like I always did with the first one.

Diaries were meant to be kept secret, I thought of this as I climbed into my bed and dozed off shortly after.

***

Dana entered my room the next night after I woke to tell me about all their preparations for their next getaway in France.

I thought about it and decided to let her know that I wasn’t going.

“But why?” She asked me.

She was surprised, she knew it wasn’t like me to ever miss a vacation but I just wasn’t in the mood so I didn’t give her an answer.

She tried reading my thoughts, I knew she would try to and I had already prepared for that. She wouldn’t get the answer she was looking for from my mind. After arguing back-to-back and a lot of persuasions, she finally gave up on trying to convince me to come. She knew she couldn’t force me to do anything, and she always hated it when she and I had disagreements but my mind was already made up. She then left my room upset.

Derick, after hearing that I wasn’t coming, decided that he wasn’t going too, but I didn’t want him to do that. The real reason I didn’t want to come to France was because I wanted to have more time to see John without having to explain to the coven where I went, as they were always concerned about my whereabouts. We got in an argument after he told me about his decision.

“Why can’t you just leave me alone, Derick? I’m not some goddamn baby! I can look after myself, go and have fun in France and don’t worry about me, I will be fine on my own. I just need some time alone, please.”

“Are you sure you’re ok? Please talk to me and tell me what the matter is,” he had so much care and affection in his eyes, I almost felt bad for telling him to go away.

“Yes, I’m fine Derick, the problem I have with you is that sometimes you push yourself on me too much, I just need some space from you, I need some time alone, and I need you to leave me alone!” I said to him.

He hadn’t done anything wrong, but I meant the things I said. Now more than ever, I wanted less of Derick and more of John.

“Fine, if that’s how you feel, then I’ll go to France.”

I read his thoughts; he was disappointed. He had already imagined how we would tour the city of Paris as a couple and take sky dives down the Eiffel tower, he was excited about the vacation, but now none of that was going to happen.

Dana and Hillary continued their preparations without me, and that was how my relationship with the coven started to dwindle as I got closer to John.