Fly like a bird

Barbie's pov :

The sunshine woke me up. I got to know that I passed out while reading that romantic novel where the female lead was going to confess her love but the male lead died in an accident and it was making me feel overwrought so I opened the curtain of my window before sleeping.

The pilot announced that the plane was landing. It meant I was going to see him soon. Quickly, I grabbed my handbag and made my way out of the aeroplane.

Everyone must be in our resort, we own a giant resort in Singapore so Jay must have taken everyone there but still, I needed to make sure because I was in no mood to waste my time in hazards so I made a call to the manager of our resort.

Last year, I came to Singapore for a modelling event and stayed for a week in the resort so I knew the place and people who worked there very well.

"Hello! Are my brother and his friends staying in our resort?"

"Yes, Mam! Are you coming here, too?"

"You shouldn't tell anyone this, okay?"

"Okay, Mam! But…"

Before he could ask me more questions or details I hung up the call. I didn't come to answer his stupid questions.

I've already wasted a lot of time on what I always wanted to do but I didn't because of procrastinating things. After taking my bags, I took a taxi to the resort.

When he was kissing me, I could feel those feelings in his touch, in his eyes, and in his words that I always had in my heart. I couldn't wait for more to see him. The way he looked at me when I denied my love for him in front of everyone, he seemed flabbergasted and hurt.

"Driver, please, drive fast!" I requested and noticed the time in my wristwatch. 11 am! I hoped to make it in time because I didn't know if he would be there or at the competition place. Maybe the competition would start in the afternoon, who would come to judge in the morning?

Shooing away that thought, I started regretting why I said no in the first place but I had to say no because I couldn't have him if Jay wasn't ready to accept him. They both were equally important to me. I couldn't have one only, I wanted both of them in my life.

The boys were already messed up, their friendship became a mishmash. I didn't want it to be messier because of me.

When Alex told the truth to Jay, he reacted so egregiously possessive that I was afraid of the consequences of accepting the truth. That fucking bastard made it a mess, it was all because of Alex.

First, his girlfriend tried to break their friendship and then, he presented the truth to Jay in the most troublesome way. They all again reunited, Jay still got Lia after behaving like a jerk to her, nobody lost anything or anyone but I lost Theo. I knew I was being selfish but I needed to be selfish to get my love. I should have told the truth to Jay that I didn't just like Theo, I loved him.

Ben told us what happened when Fiona, Bella, and I excused ourselves from the garden to give a surprise to Lia. We went into the house leaving Lia and Ben alone in the garden because Ben was going to surprise her and we were going to prepare the snacks and drinks.

It was our plan so we followed it but Bella went to the washroom and when she didn't return after a long time, Fiona and I went to search for her.

We didn't find her but Lia was running crying and then, Jay quarrelled with me so bitterly.

I didn't want to reminisce about it but it was all coming to my mind whenever I thought of Theo.

"Driver, please, drive fast!" The voice came out as a yell but I didn't intend to.

"Mam, I'm already driving fast!" The driver seemed to be in his middle age so I avoided arguing with him. I was impatient to see him, I had a lot of things to say and explain to him.

Lia helped me by calling yesterday, if she wouldn't have called me and I wouldn't have opened up my mind to her, I would have still been in a melancholy state.

She must have made Jay realize his mistake and accept Theo as my boyfriend. That girl loved Jay more than that bloody asshole deserved.

The moment I heard Jay saying, "it's your decision. I was just curious to know, I won't create a mess ever, Barbie. I want you to be happy." I was surprised to see the sudden change in his decision but I knew the reason was Lia. I was grateful to her for making my jerk brother understand that I also had a life and I had the right to make my decision.

After talking to Jay, I packed my bag with whatever dresses came across my eyes and grabbed my passport and all the necessary stuff. All I could think was about Theo, he didn't even ask me why I lied. I hurt him but that time, I felt like it was the best decision. I didn't want to be the reason for their separation.

I decided to meet him as soon as possible since Singapore was farther from Los Angeles. I wished I could fly like a bird and reach him within a blink but that was insubstantial. So I headed to the airport which seemed the best option to reach Theo.

Without giving it a second thought, I just flew to Singapore. Confronting him was necessary and important because I didn't want to lose him, I couldn't live my life without him.

Those two days were trouble for me, his crestfallen face made me feel so guilty for lying. I didn't know if he would accept me after that incident or not.

He would still love me the way he had loved me these years or not, he would forgive me or not…! These thoughts were killing my head, I could already feel a terrible headache attacking my body.

When I moved out of Los Angeles, I had just one thought in my mind that I would tell everything to Theo and tell him the reason behind everything. After all, I didn't lie for myself, I lied for their friendship's sake. And everything would be alright, our fairy tale would have a happy ending.

But Singapore made me doubtful about my actions and everything else.

Was it stupidity to come to Singapore?

Shouldn't I have told him everything that night?

Will he still accept me?

Will he still love me?

Will he still believe me?

I shook my head vaguely and started taking deep breaths to calm my dissecting mind.

Maybe I was just beating a dead horse, he would still love me. Theo loved me since the fifth grade, and he promised to fight for me with anybody who would create a problem for us.

Even if I was against us, he would fight for us. Yeah, he will!

"But he didn't fight when you said no," my overthinking mind again beat me. "He could ask you the reason but he didn't utter a word to you, he left the city, and maybe he abandoned loving you, too."

"Mam, we have reached your destination!" The driver brought me back to the world from my imaginary world where I was fighting with my mind.

Hastily, moving out of the taxi, I looked at the resort. That place was going to be my ordeal. I sighed and stepped forward to the resort.

"Welcome, Mam! We have arranged a room for you on the floor where your brother and his friends are staying." The manager welcomed me with a gentle smile.

I will kiss him the moment when I see him, I will surprise him like all the female leads surprise their lovers by kissing them in a surprise visit.

My behaviour was like a girlfriend yet I wasn't his girlfriend. I wanted to stay in his room but at the same time, I didn't want to make a fool of myself by overdoing things.

"Mam? Mam?" The manager waved his hand in front of my face.

"Yes! Please, take my bag into my room! I would like to meet someone first." I gave my bag to the girl who was waiting to take my luggage to my room. "Which is Theo's room?" I asked before going to the elevator.

He uttered with perplexed eyes. "Mam, no one is in the resort." When I gave him what-the-fuck looks, he made it clear to me. "Sorry! Your brother and his friends aren't at the resort."

Dumbest person! I wasn't concerned about others, I was restless for just one person who was supposed to be in the resort. "Where have they gone?"

"Uh, sorry, Mam! But I don't know that. They didn't inform us about that," he offered me an apologetic smile.

The whole way I was worried about his reactions and response but all I got was his absence.

I was feeling pissed off at myself, he didn't come there to enjoy or vacation. Theo came to participate in the dance competition, to win the competition, not to visit our resort.

"Couldn't you tell me on the phone that they weren't at the resort?"

"I'm sorry, Mam! But before I could say anything, you disconnected the call."

So that was also my mistake. Was coming to Singapore also a mistake…? My subconscious asked me and I could feel the air stuck in my chest.