I bothered him

One day when I saw our senior, from near, I do not know why but his eyes looked like that of Charlie. I got more attracted towards him. I heard his friend calling him by his name, "Michael." After knowing the name, I went home and searched for his name. I finally found his second name and his profile. I stalked his profile. I got more attracted towards him. I realized that I can move on if only I start getting more attracted to my senior Michael. I just wanted to forget Charlie and move on. I did not want to give any time for myself to think about Charlie. So, I was after senior.

Soon, we were friends on the social media. I told my friends, I was attracted towards him. I stalked his profile for 10 days. I also watched him secretly in college. After 10 days, I don't know what hit my brain, I messaged him. I talked with him for a few minutes and told that I had a crush on him. He was shocked. He said, he did not even knew me. Well he was telling the truth and I regretted telling him. But still he said, he understood me and told that he will not block me and it was fine if I talked to him properly. I messaged him almost daily. I asked him what he was doing. I just asked and he answered and when he asked, he asked the same thing that I asked. I was irritating him. My first semester exams went well. When I was in second semester, he was in sixth semester. Charlie was in the same semester as him.

One day, when I was just walking with my friends and he saw me smiled and said "Hi." His voice was so good to hear. But we did not talk much. He never thought me anything else than a junior sister. I knew that well. But still I messaged him most of the time and he replied me. Noah also knew some of the seniors from Michael's class. One day when we were just hanging around in our lunch break, she said me, "I don't want to hurt your feelings but I have to say you what that senior thinks about you. He had said his friend that he wants to get rid from you. He said to pass this message to you. He does not want to talk to you."

When I heard this I felt sad. But I said Noah I was fine. I made her realize that I did not care. But I was hurt inside. I never wanted to be his girlfriend or anything. I just wanted to keep talking to him. That was all what I wanted. But he said he wanted to get rid of me. After hearing all these I stopped texting him. I had started to talk to him because I wanted to forget about Charlie and maybe because of it I ended up troubling him. But I was sincere. I liked him after talking to him.

However, when we had our sports week, I went to see his match. His basketball match. I wanted him to win, so, I went to support him. He won and I was the happiest person. After a week of the match, when I was going to enter inside the college, I saw him. He was coming outside. Well, both of us turned around and walked other way as if we did not see each other. It was painful, but I did not want to bother him anymore. I realized my behavior was being like those guys, Mike and Pikey. I was bothering him like them. We ignored each other. My second semester's exam did not go well. I failed. I thought I should stop thinking about anything else and focus on studies. But I did not like studying the subjects of engineering. However, I was forcing myself to study. In my third semester I tried hard studying but still nothing passed through my mind.

In college one day, we just had to stay extra time because our course was backwards. We did not stay in our own class but we were on the topmost floor in one room. We were doing class assignments and the teacher had said whoever finished it can go. He checked the works before sending home. I could not finish it by my own. Everyone already left. Only teacher was left in the class. I had told my friends to leave.

The teacher, Mr. Gayle came to sit near me and scolded, “Why don’t you concentrate in the class? Look you are the last one and you still have not solved it.” Then, he taught me a step to solve. When I was solving that step, he came near and kept his hand on my shoulder from back and started moving his hand. I was uncomfortable. I solved that step and he again taught me another step.

Just when I started doing again, he kept is hands on my thighs. I stopped writing and grabbed his hand. I was scared but I could not let him do that. He was moving his hands on my shoulder and another hand was on my thigh. He threatened me, "You know that you are back in marks. I am the one who sends the internal marks. So, why don't you obey what I tell you to do?” I was scared because I knew what he meant. I was uncomfortable by his touch. I rattle off, "I will work hard. Mr. Gayle, I just remembered I have to go fast home today. I will do this in home. I will practice a lot in home and study hard."

There were not much stuffs out. So, I just closed my book and copy and took my bag and I stacked the book and copy and carried on one hand and when I was just going to go, he pulled me back. He said, "You don't need to work hard. Look the camera is not working. Just spend time with me. I will send your marks accordingly."

I could not tolerate anymore and I pushed him and ran out. Just when I reached out of the class, I slipped and fell down and my book and copy also was on floor. I picked it up and I tried to stand up, but I had hurt my leg. I could not stand up. I was crying already. I had already experienced all those misbehaviors before. I was afraid. Charlie saved me once. I suddenly hoped that Charlie would come and save me. But I know he will not.

I opened my bag to take my phone out. I took it out and then Mr. Gayle came and snatched my phone. He said, "Why are you trying so hard? No one will come. Just listen to me and you will also be benefitted from it." I knew even if I beg him, he will not let me go. So, I did not beg him. But instead I tried threatening him, "Just let me go. It will not be any good for you if you even touch me."

He laughed bitterly and squatted down. He touched my face and said, "Why don't you get up then? I will count five and if you don't get up then I will fulfill my wish."

I tried to stand but I had hurt my leg severely. “… two and one…” The count ended. He laughed and said, “See I had let you go, but you did not go. Now, we have lots of time. You know what even if you complain about today to the higher authorities, I will tell them that you were the one who wanted to spend time with me to increase your marks. No one will believe you. So, just follow me and I will send you a good mark."

He came near to me, I slapped him as hardly as I could on the face. He got angry and grabbed my hair and slapped me. He pushed me back. I fell down hardly on my back. He pulled my hair and pulled me towards the class. I was in a severe pain. I spoke softly with sobs, “please… my head hurts… please leave me…” I saw no other choice than begging. But he gave a devilish smile, he... he opened his belt. He sat next to me. My whole body was in pain because of his push, so I could not defend myself. He tied my hands with his belt. I struggled but everything was in vain. His one hand was playing with my face and another opened my shirt's first button and then next button. He succeeded opening all the buttons...

I realized it was the end now. I felt so disgusted even of myself because I could not even protect myself. I…