Chapter 58

There are fears that we can fight. It just takes a lot of guts in order for us to achieve it. There are times where we go face our ears on our own. And those are the times of where we already know what we should do. Those are the times on where we alresdy have a resolve in what we must do. The times on where we gather up our courage and was ready to fight.

That is to say…

Those are the fights that we have more chance to succeed at.

But that would be different if thayw wasn't the case.

“You guys…”

The person you never had the chance to protect, the person who give their life in your hand… the moment that they died thinking that you would be there running to where they are and save them… what kind of courage would you gather in order to face them?

Or would you even dare face them again?

“Guys… I'm sorry I… didn't protect you…”

Regrets… those are the things that we always remember once a thing triggered us for a certain scenario in our life that we have done mistakes.

“Sorry…. I let all of you die just like that…”

Apology, for the part of our selves who have a heavy burden in us keeping deep within due to many reason, self blame, guilt, and many more.

“I should have stopped you when you go with me…”

Things that we wanted to do… things that we thought to ourselves that would make the outcome much better if we ever did that so

“I shouldn't have let all of you face that dangerous place…”

Things that we wanted to change just to complete the piece of blocks we are trying to build just to not let ourselves shatter

“It is all my fault… it is all because of me… if not for my lack of strength… maybe… all of you would still be alive and breathing…”

Not all people who smile are happy. Not all people who can fight lots of enemies are strong, some of them are just hiding behind the mask they created in order to not let other know what they truly felt. In order to deceive everyone that they are alright. In order to fool people, that they are no weak and they are happy. In order to fool themselves that they are not wrecked and is completely fine.

“Sorry…”

Not because you are strong doesn't mean you have no weakness. Not because you excel than any other people, it means that it was easy for you… in this world full of fake, it is not just this robots who are lying. Even you yourself is doing that unconsciously

“I am really sorry…”

With her giving up and not wanting to fight back, she knew for themselves that they are enemies. But even if she is strong… her heart is not. Even if she seems tough… she is but a fragile porcelain that with shatter once broke down.

“I Sam the one at fault… it is I who is to be blamed… I am sorry… this is… all because of me…”

Knees falling on the ground she can find no right words to say that she was alright. For the truth is, she isn't. She is not doing good, she is not okay, she was wrecked. She is ruined… she is damaged…

Not all people would fight. Not all people have the courage to do so. Not all people can be brave, it takes a lots of efforts to gather that. We humans are all afraid in different thing. It is normal. We are human.. We have emotions. We are human, not robots. We have feelings, we have beliefs. We have regrets… we have pain…

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“Leisya, what are you doing here? Are you… are you alright? Why are you with them? Why are you—”

Surprised by what he saw, he was full of questions in his mind. He wants to get answers but Leisya won't talk. The man that was having the same face as he is, was just there standing. It was as if he was just looking. Watching what kind of action will Ethan take.

“Leisya…”

The moment his eyes landed on her orbs, he was surprised to see an unfamiliar look. There he had it hard to tell..

'Just why on earth does her eyes looks so lifeless? It wasn't like her to be like that… it want like her to… look at me that way…'

The fact that she was a kind person, that she was a loving sister, Ethan was used to see her eyes having a glittering effects as if it was full of life. It would shimmer just like how the sun shines so bright. It would sparkle as if the stars are hiding behind her orbs…

“You are not Leisya… are you.”

Hesitating about one thing, about he fact on whether it was really his little sister whom he was seeing, he can't find any words to describe what questions he have.

'Mors Magnus, he was really a weird fellow. To think that he would use this tricks, does he really believe that I would fall for it? But'

Just like how his look alike person was, Leisya was also in a perfection that even him doubt wether she was a human or not.

But that doesn't change the fact that she can be a robot. After all, even with that kind of craftmanship, those robots that they faced before… there is no doubt about the fact that he have a good hands in creating such fine masterpiece

“Brother, I was looking for you”

Making a stop on his thinking, he recognized thatvery same voice. It was indeed the voice of his sister. But there is no way he would be fooled by her acting like that.

'Bit if I kill her… them, it just means that I killed my sister…. What if she really isn't a robot but the real Leisya that was my sibling?'

Confused in the thing that he must do, he was left with no other choice but stand still. Waiting for any idea for him to come, it was Leisya whogo and reach him.

“Brother, are you avoiding me? Why don't you talk to me like you used to do before? I was really worried”

There, he had an idea on how he I'm a figure it out.

'If I woundher hand, it would let out a blood if she really is Leisya. But if she is just a fraud, just like the others, surely there would be no blood to show'

It was indeed a good idea that he had. But before he can even have the courage to hurt her, her hands move on their own as if someone was controlling her

“Brother… what is happening with me?”

Leisya asked as she was surprised to see how her hand tried to stab Ethan who successfully dodge it

“My hands… my feet, they are all moving on their own… brother what should I do?”

Focusing on how he would avoid her attacks he do not want to hurt her

Just being reminded of their patents, he would surely be dead if he ever lay his hand to hurt his precious sister.

She was so special… really special…

As if she was a painting created million years ago, preservedpreserved and treated with great care…

'How funny, it was I who thinks that I wanted to know whether it was really her of not. But… it is also I who can't have a resolve whether I would hurt her…'

He was having a hard time fighting with himself. Trying to find the answer in his questions of wheter what is the best thing he must do right at this moment.

While avoiding the attacks of his little sister, she started to move more aggressively. It was as if she was being more harsh and is eager to hurt him

“Brother, my hands, I can't… I can't stop my hands”

'Weird… why do I feel nothing when she say those words… nust like an empty shell having nothing inside of it… but, no matter what the truth really is… i still cant hurt her. I can't possibly do that, just… whay kind of a brother I was if I would hurt my sister?'

There, he received a scratch on his face as he didn't fully avoid Leisya's attack.

'But if I don't fight back… how can I save myself… I need to do something. I need to… wait a minute, if she was being controlled…'

Looking at the man that looks exactly like him, he find the answer to the question that he was looking for.