Chapter 19

“You have to shift, you have so much love to give, do not stop yourself from receiving it too” I ate as fast as I could as my dads word’s echoed playing like a broken record in my head,

“I will scent you for the rest of my life” Aiden’s words flooded my head, could he be?, no he couldn’t be, there is only one way to find out.

“Done” I said pushing my plate away, standing up and heading to the door,

“Good luck” mom called after me, but I was already sprinting to the woods, I needed to know, I had to find out if the person I have been pushing away all this time is my mate or not. I know that there is something between us, I could feel it, but I just couldn’t pin it down, is all this happening because I refused to shift? I got to the woods not warried about anyone seeing me, the sun had set giving me the perfect cover of darkness, I striped and folded my cloths nicely and set them down under a tree.

“Okay, here we go” I said letting go and allowing my body to breakdown, I was always in control I just didn’t realise that in my reluctance to shift I was creating a cage for myself.

“Aaaaaaaaaghhhhh!” I screamed the pain unbearable it feels like I’m shifting for the first time, I started shifting at the age of eight at that point I could only shift when the moon was full, I had control of it by the time I turned nine it didn’t hurt as much, I could shift whenever I wanted at the age of eleven and when my father stopped being able to shift, his wolf was far too weak which meant he didn’t have much time left, I just couldn’t shift after that. All that time spent not shifting was as if my body was punishing me for denying it for so long,

“It hurts, Aaaaaaaaaghhhhh!” I screamed again panting furiously as my arms broke and my spine expanded, every bone taking its revenge on me, and just when I felt like I was going to faint, I looked down and saw paws and white fur, to my relief the transformation was complete.

I missed this feeling, this primal powerful feeling , my moans turned to growls and I felt the energy from the moon on me, it called to me, I ran to it making my way through the trees wanting to get a clearer view of it, away from the trees, I stopped and looked up, the moon was big, it filled the sky dancing welcoming me home, with every second of it shining on me, I howled as I felt stronger and stronger, my rightful place as a wolf restored, and then suddenly I smelled it, the sweetest scent I had ever known, every fibre of my being telling me never to lose this and that if I did only death awaited me, the scent got stronger and stronger, making my body ache, my senses went wild, it has been a while since I shifted the emotions where overwhelming I couldn’t deal with these feelings in this state, I needed to shift back and process what’s going on in a rational way, my wolf can be quite frantic and I need a cool head, I shifted back, the process to my relief was not so agonising the other way around, I heard the sound of a twig snapping, and I turned towards the sound,

“Who are you?” I asked ready to kill this strange wolf in front of me.